17 ♥ Heart to Heart
Hearts are Made to be Broken
♥ Woohyun ♥
I looked at my phone screen, hoping that I would see a notification of new text message but there was nothing and I knew I was expecting an useless thing.
Somehow I still wished that what I heard between Eunye and Hyomin was not true. How I hoped that everything was just a dream and nothing bad happened between me and Eunye.
I just dismissed my class when I walked pass a classroom and noticed there were two persons inside, standing real close to each other.
At first I thought those were the students but then I realized that the man was Sunggyu. My heart clenched as the realization of who the girl was hit me hard.
I knew that Sunggyu wanted to talk with Eunye but I didn't know that he even needed to hug her. Why? When he knew for sure that I was in love with her, but he...
"Sorry... I-" Sunggyu mumbled after he let her go but Eunye didn't listen to him at all.
"No. Don't say anything. Just blame me if that makes you feel better," Eunye stated and then walked out from the classroom, heading to the staff room.
It's a good thing that I managed to hide from her sight. With a heavy heart, I waited until Sunggyu walked out and went to the staff room. I tried my best to pretend that I never saw anything even thought I was really hurt inside.
"Hyung," I approached Sunggyu when I had entered the staff room. I forced a smile, "Have you talked?"
"Oh," he looked awkward and nodded randomly. "No. I haven't found the right time."
Why did he lie to me? I really wanted to tell him that I saw everything. I respected him as my senior and I cared for him as my childhood friend.
Was I too naive?
"I see...," I kept the smile, clenching my fists to hide my emotion. "It's alright, you know. Maybe I just need to forget and forgive."
I walked to my desk and grabbed random report just to make myself busy. I couldn't tell him that I felt betrayed by his lie and everything.
Out of all people, I never expected Sunggyu to be the one who would be so close with Eunye. I knew she was his junior but I thought that's all.
Maybe I needed to talk with someone who could give me the answers I needed.
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"Sure...," Howon answers with unsure look. He rubs the back of his neck and says, "Is it about Eunye?"
"Kind of," I reply as calm as possible. "There are so many questions running in my mind and, I think, it's good to have a simple talk with you. If it's alright with you though, Howon."
Howon blinks for numerous times and then heaves a sigh, "Let's go to a nearby coffee shop. It's recommended by the students. Want to try?"
I smile and agree to meet up with him at the school's gate. Just right when I was going to open the door, he calls my name and has me to turn around, "Yes?"
"Call me 'Hoya'," he tells me. "You'll get used to it somehow."
After around ten minutes or so, Hoya meets up with me and we walk to the coffee shop. Each of us buys a glass of beverage before taking a table for two and ready to open the conversation.
"I'm pretty sure you want to know what kind of relationship I have with Eunye," Hoya starts the talk first. "We're best friends and, please, don't get the wrong idea about her."
"What kind of wrong idea I should have about her?" I ask with a sad smile, looking at my drink. "I heard she talked with Hyomin, my junior from college. It's... All things she did is to break my heart, isn't it?"
Hoya taps his index finger on the glass, "The thing here is... How can I say it? She has her own principal and she is feeling really guilty now. I don't know the complete story yet but I know she doesn't want to hurt you, Woohyun."
I understand what Hoya is trying to tell me. I know he wants me to think clearly about Eunye. As a matter of fact, I'm not mad at Eunye at all.
I love her too much that I can't hate her.
"They said don't ever fall for someone that you that will never fall for you...," I take a sip of my coffee. "Who can control this heart anyway?"
"I'm not the one," I add with a forced smile. "I know."
Hoya scratches his nose and clears his throat, "I'll talk with her. I'll try to convince her to talk with you and-"
"It's alright," I cut his words politely. "Really. I don't want to drag people into my own problem. I'm sure I can work it out somehow."
"Well, if you say so...," he nods in agreement and then drinks his coffee. "This is the first time we really talk, don't you think?"
I laugh and mumble, "Yes, you're right. We have been working together in the same school for months and this is the first time we talk to each other like this."
He smiles and looks at me, "No hard feeling, Woohyun?"
I shake my head and smile back at him, "No. Friends."
Maybe it's not Hoya who I need to be jealous of.
Maybe it's my own childhood friend who kept telling me to stay away from Eunye from the start who could make me jealous.
Maybe that's the reason why he didn't want me to be with Eunye.
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♥ Eunye ♥
"Why is Noona sad?" a little boy approaches me, tilting his head cutely. "A pretty Noona should smile!"
I can't help but to chuckle at his cute encouragement. I ruffle his hair and thank him, "Thank you. Noona is feeling better now."
I am sitting alone on the park bench, watching the little kids playing hide and seek around the park. I don't feel like going back to my empty apartment earlier today so I visited the nearby park after school. I was zoned out when this little boy called me, snapping me back to my senses.
"Noona is pretty!" he grins and makes a peace sign with his hand. "Joon can make a Noona smile!"
He turns around and then runs to join with his friends again. I can't hear what they're talking about but the boy named Joon points at me and three of his friends giggle happily.
I smile and lean my back against the bench, looking up to the evening sky, "Choi Eunye, what have you done to your peaceful life?"
If there is anyone to blame for my complicated life now, it's me. Now that I think of it, if I never started the stupid-request-taking issue, I would never get caught in this situation.
Why did Sunggyu hug me today? I thought he disagreed about the idea of Woohyun and I together. I don't understand him at all.
Now I'm also struggling with the guilty feeling inside of me whenever I see Woohyun's face. I know that it's wrong but I don't have any idea what kind of explanation I can give to him.
"Hoya...," I murmur his name as I close my eyes with my head held high. His face crosses my mind and I heave a sigh, knowing that I still don't understand why my heart beats faster for him.
All of a sudden, I feel something cold on my forehead and I quickly open up my eyes to find Sunggyu is standing in front of me.
"Why are you sleeping at a place like this?" he takes the cold green tea can away, the one he put on my forehead which made me to open my eyes in a flash.
"I'm not sleeping," I wipe my forehead with the back of my hand. "What are you doing here anyway? Don't tell me you follow me..."
"Yah, this is a public park," he answers calmly and takes a seat next to me. He opens the can and starts to take a sip of the tea. "I just happened to see you when I bought drink."
I look away from him and feel the silence is really awkward. I tuck my hair behind my ear and feeling completely like a fool, sitting side by side with Sunggyu like this.
When I have decided to leave, Sunggyu finally decides to break the silence as well, "Why do I feel that you really hate me?"
I turn to look at him and he gives me a questioning look. He lowers down the can and states, "Let's have a heart to heart talk."
"I don't really feel like having heart to heart talk right now," I retort with no interest. "Besides it's late already so-"
"Did I make a mistake to you in the past?" he ignores my sentence, looking at me with serious expression. "I'd never know if you don't say anything."
I flew my bangs and pout. Do I really need to have a heart to heart talk with the man who has broken my heart?
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