25 ♥ Once a Heart
Hearts are Made to be Broken
♥ Sunggyu ♥
The sun is hiding behind the cloud and my heart is not too different from the sky right now. It feels like something is engulfing me, not letting me to feel good at all.
My eyes land on my phone and I still hold the urge to send a text message to Eunye. I don't think she will be happy to receive my message after her reaction towards me yesterday.
I am in dilemma. A part of me actually wants to protect her because, whenever I look at her, she looks so fragile that I don't want to let her go. Another part of me keeps telling me that I should draw distance with me.
Woohyun loves her far before I realized that she is special for me. What kind of friend would stop supporting him when I know exactly his feeling towards Eunye?
To be honest I'm really confused right now. What I did yesterday is something out of my mind but I coudn't help myself to worry about her whenever I remember her tears.
Why did she cry?
"Gyu Hyung," Woohyun puts a document on my table to earn my attention. He gives me a small smile, "Principal wants us to meet him tomorrow morning. He said something about going somewhere for work stuff."
"Oh," I mouth and read the document. "Okay then. Thank you."
Woohyun doesn't go away immediately. He crosses his arms and asks, "Want to grab lunch together? There is a new menu today at the cafetaria."
I look up and feel ashamed of myself. What am I trying to do? I shouldn't avoid Woohyun. We're childhood friends and I should not keep everything from him like now.
"Sure," I grin and stand up. I think it's a chance for me to fix my distant friendship with him. "I take it as your treat then."
"Yah!" he groans in protest as he follows me out from the staff room. "You should be the one who treats me! I'm younger than you!"
"Age speaks nothing," I retort and laugh at him. My laughter immediately stops when I see someone takes a turn at the corner while Woohyun doesn't notice her presence. "Ah..."
Woohyun raises his eyebrow with questioning look. I blink and pat his shoulder twice, "I'll catch up with you at the cafetaria. I need five minutes."
I don't wait for his answer and rush to find Eunye. When she walked pass by, she had the expresionless face as if she was deep in her thought.
I follow her to the upper floor until I find her. Eunye is resting her arms on the railing, looking down at the ground with no smile.
My heart skips a beat just by looking at her. She looks so attractive yet fragile at the same time. How much actually has my feeling for her grown inside of my heart?
I take a deep breath and finally bring myself to walk closer to her, "Separating yourself from the world, eh?"
She turns to me but she doesn't look suprised at all. She returns her gaze to the ground and sighs, "I'm not in the mood to do anything."
"Even talking about why you cried yesterday?" my suspicion finally takes control.
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♥ Eunye ♥
Sunggyu's words actually echoed in my mind. The way he treated me made me wonder if he was actually teasing me... or maybe he was trying to take a revenge on me after breaking his childhood friend's heart.
That's the only reason I could think about why he suddenly turned into such a caring and sweet guy, trying to flatter me. Could it be just a trap?
"I'm not going to let you break my heart twice," I scoffed in sarcasm and walked out from the elevator, heading to my own apartment.
I was looking for my key in bag when I almost reached my apartment. A voice called me out of the blue, "Eunye."
I looked up with wide eyes, definitely shocked to see Hoya in front of my room. What was he doing here? He was the last person I wanted to meet today.
My instinct told me to avoid him but his question made me freezed on spot, "Did you cry?"
Yes, because of you.
How I wished I could say that to him.
"What happened?" he closed our distance, cupping my cheeks like what he always did. "Who-"
Too afraid to hear him saying whatever that could make my heart beat faster, I tossed his hands away and took a step backward, "What are you doing here?"
"I'm worried. What's wrong, Eunye?" he sighed sadly. "Why did you cry? Eunye, look-"
I had a feeling that he was going to tell me about 'we are best friends, right?' thing and it actually made my heart ached so bad.
"No!" I covered my ears and bit my bottom lip to hold the urge to cry. "Don't, Hoya. Don't tell me about the fact that we're best friends anymore."
The next question was not something I planned before but I uttered it anyway, "Can we just stop being best friends?"
It was actually a silly question. Call me selfish or else but I just wanted to know his reaction. I just wanted to know if he ever saw me as more than best friend.
"Why?" that's the only word he said to me.
I was taken aback by his question. Maybe because I wanted him to give me an answer that made me feel ease. Though I didn't know what it was.
"Just because," I lowered my hands and closed my eyes. "I'm tired. I'm tired of all the drama."
I really, really hoped that he would stop me from telling him to stop being my best friend. Or at least tell me that he wanted me to stay for him. Whatever.
His phone rang and I knew it's useless to wait for him. He was too ignorant and, when he glanced at the phone, I walked pass him and opened the door without another word.
I closed the door and sat down. My feet felt so weak. I waited for minutes, thinking that he would knock my door, asking me to talk to him.
But there was nothing.
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My mood today is one of the worst moments I ever had. My head is aching and smiling doesn't actually make me feel better.
After I finished a class, I don't have any plan to go straight to the staff room. Instead I walk to the second floor just to stare at the school ground with wandering mind.
I scold myself from being like this. The last time I acted like this was after Sunggu declared his relationship with Bora.
The first time I had my heart broken is awful but this second time is not better. It feels worse somehow because Hoya is my own best friend.
"Separating yourself from the world, eh?"
I turn around and see Sunggyu with a smile. I don't return his smile and stare at the ground again, "I"m not in the mood to do anything."
"Even talking about why you cried yesterday?" he blurts out the question I have expected since yesterday. It would be weird if he didn't ask.
I look up and tap my fingers on the railings, "Because of someone."
Sunggyu approaches me and stands right next to me. He just stands there without asking me another question as if he knows that the conversation hasn't ended yet.
"Your voice...," I continue again to break the awkward silence. "It's beautiful. Too beautiful that I was so into it."
I'm not lying. Woohyun's voice is great and so is Sunggyu's. It's just Sunggyu picked a perfect song to match my heart.
"You don't hate me, do you?" he turns to me and I look back at him.
"As long as you don't make me to," I answer simply. "But don't expect me to fall for you."
He blinks in surprise with my statement but then he smiles in amusement, "What if I don't need to make you fall for me?"
I frown upon his question, "What are you talking about?"
"You were in love with me before," he answers calmly, resting his back against the railing.
"I was," I retort. What is he trying to say? "Once."
"A heart can't forget love. Once a heart was in love, it will never forget," he states, taking a step closer to me. "You know that, right?"
He reaches out his hand and moves my hair behind my ear before whispering to my ear, "Your heart will always remember that you once saw me like how I see you now."
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