16 ♥ A Guilty Heart
Hearts are Made to be Broken
♥ Sunggyu ♥
I was packing up my stuff when I heard the sound of closing door which meant Woohyun just returned from somewhere. I had no idea where he went out to because he didn't tell me anything.
I stormed out from my room just to find he entered his room. He closed the door silently and I couldn't help but to worry about his silence.
Somehow it's strange to see the cheerful Woohyun to say nothing when he just returned. No greeting. No question. Nothing.
"Woohyun?" I knocked the door twice, leaning my ear close to it. "Woohyun? Are you alright?"
No answer.
"Woohyun? Yah!" I knocked again. "Woohyun? Answer me! Are you alright? Nam Woohyun? Yah! Woohyun!"
All of a sudden the door was opened from inside. Woohyun gave me a straight face and heaved a sigh, "I'm alright. What do you think I was doing? Trying to do a suicide?"
I sighed in relief and then followed him to the main room. He took a seat on the couch while I sat across from him, "You don't look really good. Are you alright?"
"You've asked me three times already, Hyung," he raised his eyebrow. "Since when did you nag so much?"
I just grinned to him, hoping that it would lighten up the gloomy atmosphere. Woohyun finally smiled weakly and sighed again, "You're right, Hyung..."
"Eh? What?" I tilted my head, trying to figure out what he's talking about.
"I shouldn't have rushed. I should take it slow," he spoke and I had a feeling already what he was talking about. "Eunye just met Hyomin and, I'm not sure though, I think Eunye was trying to fulfill Hyomin's request to break my heart."
"Do you remember when I told you that Hyomin confessed to me? I think I hurt her so bad that she wants me to deserve the same...," he looked up to the ceiling, "...and she got me."
"So Eunye...," I cleared my throat awkwardly, afraid that I would hurt his feeling, "...she dumped you...?"
For my surprise, he shook his head and said, "She said she didn't want to hurt me just because Hyomin wanted to."
"Well, that means she is a good person then," I assumed and frowned. Now I felt strange because I thought I just defended Eunye when I was supposed to be the one who was mad at her.
"I saw her with Howon," he continued. "She hugged him and she apologized to me when they noticed my presence. Maybe she didn't want to hurt me but, well, I guess what should happen has happened."
There were seconds of silence awkward between us because I had no idea what I should say to cheer him up.
A part of me wanted to say 'I told you so' but another part of me was thinking about Eunye. If she refused Hyomin's request, then why did she still break Woohyun's heart in the end?
"I'll talk to her," I finally said but Woohyun quickly complained, telling me that it's alright because he didn't want to bother me any longer because it's his problem.
"I will talk as her old friend. That's all," I assured him. "I will not scold her or else. Just talk. I promise."
Woohyun sighed and then smiled, "Fine but please don't blame her, okay, Gyu Hyung?"
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I watch Eunye from the outside, observing her expression when she is teaching the class about how important grammar is.
"I'll give you the simple example," she writes two sentences on the whiteboard. "This one 'I was a good singer' and this one 'I am a good singer' have different meaning."
One of her students raises his hand and exclaim, "Like 'fell in love' and 'fall in love' are different, Choi Songsaenim?"
The other students giggle at the question but Eunye's smile disappears for a second before she nods and smiles again, "Yes. One is 'past tense' which happened in the past while the other one is still going on, the 'present tense'."
The other students giggle at the question but Eunye's smile disappears for a second before she nods and smiles again, "Yes. One is 'past tense' which happened in the past while the other one is still going on, the 'present tense'."
After she told them about their homework to discover more examples about grammar for next week, the students leave the classroom and Eunye is all alone inside now.
I gather all my courage and step inside the classroom, knocking the door with my knuckles, "Eunye."
She turns around and her expression changes immediately. She avoids my gaze and takes a deep breath, "What?"
"I want to talk," I close the door and step closer to her. "It's about Woohyun."
"If you're going to scold me for being such a cruel girl then save it for yourself," she takes her book and stares at me. "I'm not going to listen to you anyway. Excuse me."
I grab her wrist before she can avoid me again. She drops her book because of my sudden action and she tries to struggle from my grip, "Let me go!"
"No way," I state firmly. "Not until we talk. You can't avoid me forever, Choi Eunye."
"Fine, fine!" she grumbles and I let go of her hand unwillingly. "What do you want to talk about? How cruel I am for breaking his heart? How could I do such a thing towards him?"
"Woohyun heard your conversation with Hyomin," I ignore her words. "I know that you rejected Hyomin's request after you knew that she lied to you."
I can see that she is taken aback slightly with my statement. Looks like she doesn't know that Woohyun was there with her and Hyomin. I continue, "It's you and Hoya who made him heartbroken. Are you and Hoya..."
The question stops because I can't spit it out. I know that it's also because of my curiosity. I want to know if Hoya is not just her ordinary friend.
"Whatever it is, it doesn't change the fact that I've played with Woohyun's heart," she speaks calmly. "I know I'm at fault this time so blame me as much as you want. End of the talk. Excuse me."
She bends down to take her book and spins around to leave the room. This time, once again, I don't let her walk away.
I take her hand and hug her tight. I bury my face in her hair, closing my eyes to inhale her scent, "Stop telling me to blame you..."
I can't blame her. As much as I want to, I know somehow she doesn't want to hurt Woohyun. Looking at her face, I know she is feeling guilty but she tries to hide it from me. In fact she is alright if I blame her.
"W-What are you doing?!" she tries to push me away but since I'm stronger than her, I don't move even for the slightest. "What... Let me..."
Her voice grows into a whisper and she finally stops struggling. She lets me hug her a little bit longer until I let her go, "Sorry... I-"
"No," she cuts my words and tightens her grip on the book. "Don't say anything. Just blame me if that makes you feel better."
She turns around and leaves the classroom. I stand in the classroom for a good one minute, mentally cursing myself for being so bold towards Eunye.
"What do you think you're doing, Kim Sunggyu?" I rub my temple as I leave the classroom, heading to the staff room. "You're supposed to talk with her... Just talk..."
I don't find Eunye in the staff room but minutes after I step inside, Woohyun also enters the staff room. He approaches me with a smile, "Hyung, have you talked?"
"Oh," I mouth and nod awkwardly. "No. I haven't found the right time."
"I see...," Woohyun smiles with understanding. "It's alright, you know. Maybe I just need to forget and forgive."
He returns to his desk and starts to check the report of his students. I only glance at him with a guilty heart.
I'm sorry, Woohyun. I really am but I just don't want to tell you yet about what I'm feeling towards Eunye...
...because I still haven't understand what kind of feeling I have for Eunye now.
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♥ Hoya ♥
I just dropped my application letter to apply as the counselor for next month dance competition before I decide to go to the dance practice room just to have another practice session for myself.
The classes for today are all done but I am always happy to spend more time to enhance my skill. Sometimes I practice with the other colleagues but sometimes I just want to practice by myself.
I press the play button on the music player and let the music to fill the room. I look at my own reflection and start to dance along with the rhythm.
Dance always makes me forget about everything. All I know is I need to listen to the beat and let myself to enjoy the moment.
The first time I was captivated by dance is when I was still at high school. Some always said that I was too arrogant, that I was too ignorant towards them.
I was not really good in socializing with new people and I was shy. Not to mention that I always felt uneasy to interrupt their little groups so I managed to live through everyday by myself.
High school is not my best memory but it's the moment when I also started to fell in love with dance.
I was walking pass a park when I see three boys and two girls were practicing freestyle dance at a small park. All of them were hoodies and three of them wore colorful caps.
Many youngsters watched them and moved their head along with the music, enjoying the simple but captivating performance. I was amazed and I always went there almost everyday just to hope that I could watch their performance.
"Howon?"
I stop myself from remembering the past and see Woohyun is standing at the door from the mirror. I turn around while he approaches me with a simple smile, "Do I interrupt your practice?"
"No, it's alright," I stop the music and look at him. "What is it?"
He clears his throat nervously, "Can we talk?"
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