33 ♥ Heartbreaking Day
Hearts are Made to be Broken
♥ Eunye ♥
I am really mad at Hoya. I'm not thinking properly since it feels like someone is ripping me from inside when I hear his harsh words towards me.
It's the first time Hoya ever scolded me like this. Yes, he did ignore me when I lost my first kiss for Leeteuk before but I know it's different.
His eyes are full of anger and, on top of all, he even punched the window. My feeling is mixed up altogether, looking at his expression, noticing that blood is dripping from his fist, and realizing that maybe we'll never be friends again.
"Thank you for breaking my heart, Lee Howon," I grit my teeth, ignoring the tear that rolls down on my cheek.
It hurts. It feels worse than my first heartbreak because of Sunggyu. I don't know why but this definitely assures me.
Hearts are really made to be broken.
I walk pass him and storm out from the classroom. I wipe my tears roughly, heading out to anywhere so I can hide from everyone. I want to cry my heart out.
I sit down on the staircase where there is almost no one will pass there. I bite my bottom lip, feeling like crying actually makes me feel worse yet I can't hold them inside anymore.
"Eunye," a familiar voice calls me but I don't need to look up to see who he is; it's Woohyun. I can feel he sits next to me, "Eunye, I..."
He stops, definitely don't know what he should say to make everything better but it's not his fault. Not even for the slightest and I know it really well. He just happened to be there when I argued with Hoya.
"Cry as long as you want," Woohyun chooses to speak, "if that makes you feel better. Don't hold it inside."
I'm doing exactly the opposite. I try to stop my tears, possibly because I don't really cry in front of other people except Hoya. I take a deep breath and mutter, "I'm sorry for what just happened, Woohyun."
Now that I think of it, I actually lost control. I even... Did I just confess my feeling to Hoya?!
"Aigoo," I facepalm myself. What did I just do? I will definitely not stay as his friend anymore after this. "Just great."
Woohyun looks at me with concern but I force a small smile to assure him that I'm alright, "I'm so stupid but I guess I can't help it."
He pats my head, having a gentle smile on his face, "You're an amazing girl, Eunye. Don't forget it."
"Thank you for the encouraging words," I nod to him before looking up to nowhere, "but I know I'm just too foolish."
"You like Hoya, don't you?" he finally asks the question I've thought he would ask. A question that I have the answer already. A question that I don't really want to answer now.
"A yes will not change anything," I answer with forced smile. "He chose somebody else."
What did I expect from Hoya actually? He never saw me as someone he will fall in love with.
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♥ Woohyun ♥
It doesn't need a genius to know that Eunye actually falls for Hoya. Her words back then is the same as a confession.
It will be a lie if I said that I wasn't surprised. In fact I felt hurt. Well, what would you feel if someone you liked just said that she liked someone else?
However when I heard Eunye said about hearts are made to be broken, I knew that something was wrong. I don't know what happened before between them until she said thing like that.
"A yes will not change anything," Eunye responds, giving me a stab on heart. She forces a smile which makes me feel worse. "He chose somebody else."
I clench my fists, not looking away from her. I love her. I really do... but I can't let this keeps going on.
"Eunye, let me tell you something," I fake a smile calmly. "We, guys, are insensitive sometimes. No, maybe we are too dense when it comes to love. Aren't people always like that? We don't know what we got until it's gone."
"What I'm trying to say is maybe Hoya simply doesn't know anything about your feeling towards him," I explain to her. "I know it's cliche but men are not mind-readers. I'm not trying to defend him or else but I don't want the misunderstanding to be worse."
She lands her gaze on me with confusion, "Woohyun, I don't... I don't understand. Aren't you supposed to be... Well, not supportive? I don't know but-"
"You watched too many movies," I chuckle, ruffling her hair. "You think I'm going to dance on your fight with Hoya because I want to win your heart? I'm not that heartless, Eunye."
There are seconds of silence before she finally smiles, "You're a really good guy, Woohyun. I really wish for your happiness. Really."
That's a final rejection, eh?
"Thank you," I pat her head and smile sincerely, "but you're still in my heart."
I stand up and suggest her to wash her face before she returns to the staff room. Now I don't know what her reaction will be if Mr Han tells her about going to London...
...along with Hoya.
...along with Hoya.
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♥ Sunggyu ♥
I walk Eunye back to her apartment but I know something happened at school. Her eyes are swollen and I'm sure she was alright the last time I saw her at the classroom.
She didn't say anything when I said that I wanted to walk her back. After minutes, I finally decide to ask her about what happened.
"Sunggyu, let's stop the deal," she stops her steps and looks at me with serious expression. "You're just wasting your two weeks with me if we keep going on."
I blink with surprise, "Wow, this is just the first day and you turn me down already? Am I that bad in your eyes?"
"It's not that. I... I like someone else," she speaks out and my heart skips a beat upon her statement. "I'm sorry, Sunggyu."
"Is it...," I clear my throat awkwardly, "...Hoya?"
Her eyes widen in surprise. Looks like she doesn't expect me to know about it, "What- How- Is it that obvious?"
"Just wild guess," I shrug my shoulders, trying to act cool. It's strange that I don't feel really... sad? "Is that your reason?"
"It's not just that," Eunye shakes her head. "The way you treat me... No offense but it feels really different with Woohyun. I feel like... it's not me who you are looking for, Sunggyu."
I am taken aback by her words. What is she talking about?
"I have no right to judge you when I have my second heartbreaking day today but-" she mumbles but I interrupt her quickly.
"Heartbreaking day? Hoya rejected you?" I blurt out the words right away. I quickly cover my mouth, noticing that I'm talking without thinking. "Sorry..."
She doesn't reply me. She just sighs heavily and stares at her own shoes.
"Have you told him before?" I bring up the question to continue our awkward conversation. "Did he know that you like him before he rejected you?"
"He should have known," Eunye murmurs vividly.
"So you never told him before and you thought he supposed to know it," I summarize her words. "Don't you think you're a little bit, well, selfish?"
"Because I thought he could read my mind?" she retorts and scoffs. "Yes, I am selfish."
I cup her face and pinch her cheeks, "I didn't know you had feelings for me before as well. If only I knew, maybe everything would be different now."
She pouts but a small smile forms on her lips after that, "Thank you, Sunggyu. Don't ask me why. Just... thank you."
"Two weeks, Eunye. Don't tell me to stop before that," I tuck her hair behind her left ear. "Whatever your reason is. Don't worry about me."
Eunye looks at me in silence. She finally gives me a nod and then continues to walk to her apartment.
I don't know what will happen next but, for now, all I need to understand is myself.
What does she mean that she's not the one I am looking for?
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