23 ♥ Memory of a Heart
Hearts are Made to be Broken
♥ Hoya ♥
She is nowhere to be found again around school area. I'm pretty sure that I saw her around thirty minutes ago when I was busy with the final report before exam.
"Are you still mad at me?" I murmur to no one, wearing my jacket since I'm going to return to my apartment. I grab my bag and bid my goodbye to the others.
Eunye still refuses to talk to me. I haven't tried to talk with her because I think she's not going to open up yet. Besides I'm still trying to figure out what's wrong with her, no, what's wrong with us.
She looked like she was going to cry that night and my heart actually ached when I saw her like that. Ever since we became friends, this is the first time she acts like this towards me.
Did I make a mistake? Did I say something that hurt her? Did I do anything that offended her?
"Aish, I don't understand," I mess my hair due to frustration. I stop my steps once I realize that I just walk pass a noraebang. It brings back memories actually.
Eunye and I used to spend our Sundays at noraebangs. We chose random songs and she always loved to watch me danced in the middle of the room. Although singing is not her hobby, she said that it's one of her favorite places.
She once said that I have a great vocal and I could be a great singer. That's why she always forced me to sing and dance when we're at noraebang. Yes, only two of us. She said she only wanted to come here if she was with me.
I check my wristwatch and count my spare time, "Perhaps one hour will be alright..."
I step inside and approach the receptionist to request for the small room so I can spend my time alone. Maybe it will be a good time for me to reflect about what happened.
"I'm sorry but the small room is already full," the receptionist apologizes to me with a smile. "You must wait for another hour to have an empty small room."
I'm not listening to her anymore. My eyes are set on the guest book which shows the name of people who are using the room. A name catches my attention in the list of names who are using the small rooms.
Choi Eunye.
Eunye is here?
"My friend is here," I tell the receptionist and point to her name. "Can I know the room number so I can join with her?"
The receptionist calls another staff who walks me to the room. At the same time, I can't help but to wonder who she is with. Is it possible that she's all alone?
"Here it is," the staff stops in front of a room and bows politely. "Please call us if you need anything. Excuse me."
I was hesitating for seconds before I push open the door and find someone is inside, holding a microphone. He stops singing and looks at me with wide eyes, "Hoya?"
"Woohyun?" I blink with confusion. I look around but I don't find anyone else. "Are you... Are you with Eunye?"
"Oh," he puts down the microphone and scratches his cheek nervously. "Yes. She is... Ah, I think she's in the restroom."
And I thought she only comes here with me.
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♥ Eunye ♥
"Wow, your voice is amazing!" I clap when Woohyun finished another song. I grin and compliment him, "You can sing ballad, rock, hip hop. Wow!"
He smiles bashfully and hands over the microphone to me, "It's your turn. I almost sing all of the songs in the playlist."
I push back the microphone to him and grin even wider, "I want to hear you sing again! Besides it's only two of us here. I don't mind to hear you sing all songs for another hour."
The next song has started but Woohyun only looks at me with a shy smile. He sits next to me and asks me a question, "Why noraebang?"
"Just because," I answer simply, fixing my gaze on the screen. The music echoes in the room but I don't have any plan to sing it. "I think friends should spend some times together here."
To be honest, I only came here with Hoya before. I did have some friends but none of them was close with me like how Hoya was with me. I guess it's because I always felt comfortable when I was with him.
Why can't I feel the same anymore when we're together? Why does it feel strange for me to be with him nowadays?
"You do realize that I just confessed to you around an hour ago, right?" Woohyun states and I turn to look at him. He has a serious expression on his face. "And now you're with a guy who is in love with you. Alone. In one room."
I blink for numerous times and tilt my head slowly, "So?"
"You should be afraid," he chuckles softly and smiles to me. "I'm still a guy, you know."
"I know you're a good guy," I answer honestly and make a peace sign with my fingers. "If you're not, I would not ask you to come here with me since the start. We're friends, aren't we?"
His smile vanishes and a guilty feeling strikes me when he murmurs weakly, "Just friends, eh?"
I open my mouth to apologize but I stop and purse my lips. Another apology will not make him feel better; I know it. I choose to leave my seat and excuse myself to the restroom to wash my face.
"Choi Eunye, what are you thinking?" I talk to myself on the mirror in the restroom. "Hoya knows nothing about your feeling."
I really should learn how to think of Hoya as more than just a best friend. I should keep the memories I have in my heart or, even better, I should forget it.
I keep repeating that as I walk out from the restroom and return to the corridor of all small noraebang rooms.
"Ah, what number is it?" I stop and look at the room number. I actually forget the number. I walk pass a room and see someone is selecting a song for the playlist.
It must be Woohyun. It must be this room then.
I walk in the room and sit on the sofa but looks like he is too focused with the playlist. The room is not too bright so I can't see his face clearly.
"This will do," I hear he speaks and a realization hits me hard.
It's not Wooohyun's voice.
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♥ Sunggyu ♥
Noraebang has always been my top choice for me to unleash my frustration. Ever since I was a little kid, singing always made me feel better and noraebang is indeed one of the best ways for me to boost up my mood.
When I was done with school tasks, I actually looked for Woohyun to accompany me since he loved singing as well but I didn't find him so I decided to go to the nearby noraebang alone.
I want to spend some times with Woohyun as his childhood friend. It's been a while since the last time we went out together. I wonder why we don't talk as much as we used to do.
Is he mad at me because of the pictures of Eunye and I? Should I explain to him? Should I tell him the truth that I just realized that I don't think of Eunye only as a junior?
I shake my head and look at the choices of the songs, trying to forget about all random questions in my mind. I should enjoy my time here, not making myself to be more stressed, right?
The current song is still playing but I ignore it and decide to choose a ballad track for the next song. I click the next button and look up at the screen to read the lyrics.
"Heongkereojin nae meoricheoreom nae maeumsogdo
Jeomjeom eongmangi dwaegajyo
Yojeumeun jeongmal saneungae saneungae aniya
Geunyang niga bogo sipeo"
Like my tangled up hair, the inside of my heart is becoming a mess
These days living doesn't really seem like living
I just miss you
My lips form into a sad smile, knowing the lyrics are describing what I'm feeling right now. It is true that I don't know what my heart wants lately.
"Kkajit sarang neoran yeojaga
Mwoga geuri johatgo himdeunji moreugesseo
Nune tto balbineun seulpeun chueogeul
Jammot irul i bam tto eotteoghae"
I don't know what was so great or hard about love and a girl like you
What to do with these sad memories that I keep thinking of or this sleepless night?
Eunye was just a junior for me. No, even after one year, I still thought that I always chose Bora over her. Then why did everything change in a glimpse when I wanted to figure out her lies to Woohyun?
I know that she is not perfect. I don't even know why I fall in love with her but I know it's love.
Whenever I look at her smile, my heart skips a beat. Whenever she looks at me with sad eyes, it makes me want to make her happy again. I want to protect her. I want her to be the happiest girl ever.
Is it not love then?
"Dan hana gatgo sipeun sarang
Tto beorigo sipeun geu sarang
Gajil sudo hoo hoo beoril
Sudo eobneun sarangi sildaguyo"
The one and only love that I want
And the love that I want to throw away
I don't like this love that I can't have but I can't throw away
I stop singing when I suddenly realize that I'm not alone in the room. I lower down my microphone and turn around to find a girl is sitting on the sofa. She is covering with her right hand.
I swear my heart must has stopped beating for a second if it's possible when I see the sudden appeareance but when I recognize who she is, my mouth gasps slightly, "Eunye?"
Since the light is dim, I'm not really sure but I think she is crying. She is sobbing and she suddenly stands up once she notices that I stopped singing because of her.
"Wait! Eunye!" I throw the microphone to the sofa and rush to her before she could open the door and leave without any explanation. I grab her wrist to stop her. "Wait!"
I finally can see her face, only inches away from mine. Tears are rolling down on her cheeks and she keeps struggling from my grip without a word.
As much as I want to ask her why she is crying, my heart wants to stop her tears. I cup her left cheek with my hand and, I don't know what's gotten into me, I lean closer to her face.
I kiss her tears away while my left hand holds her right wrist tight though I try my best not to hurt her. My heart beats like crazy but I don't stop until she pushes me away with all her strength.
"S-Stop," Eunye pushes me with her free hand. "Stop. Sunggyu Oppa. S-Sto-"
I really stop myself and then pull her into a hug. I bury my face on her hair and whisper vividly, clear enough for her to hear.
I can't even think whether she will hate me or not after this. I don't even know what to think anymore now.
All I know that I don't want her to be sad.
"Cry if you want, Eunye, but I'll be here for you. I'll always be."
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Author's Note:
The song in this chapter is "I Don't Like Love" by Xiah Junsu, an OST for Rooftop Prince.
To be honest, my original plan is not a noraebang (similar to 'karaoke') but Halimalikesrice's comment actually gave me this idea!
Thank you~ :D
Hope you like this chapter. :)
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Author's Note:
The song in this chapter is "I Don't Like Love" by Xiah Junsu, an OST for Rooftop Prince.
To be honest, my original plan is not a noraebang (similar to 'karaoke') but Halimalikesrice's comment actually gave me this idea!
Thank you~ :D
Hope you like this chapter. :)
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