I awkwardly look at my laps and carefully start to talk."Kyungsoo-oppa, how are you?"

He sighs "I thought I told you I don't have full day for this? And I don't reckon that we are that close to start this casual talk? If you have nothing important then I guess I will get going." He start to reach for the door.

"Wait!" I quickly said before he step out of the room. "Please hear me out...I am sorry..." 

it was silent for few minutes but Kyungsoo oppa did not move. 

"I know what I did is unforgiveable and I have made all the people beside me to be sad and disappointed. It is right for you to hate me. But, I really hope that you give me chance to fix it." I almost give up when there is no answer from Kyungsoo oppa. "Maybe I should find oth-"

"What do you need from me?" Kyungsoo oppa cut me suddenly and I am really happy that he at least wanted to talk to me now.

"Let me talk with Baek-oppa?"

"Really? This is what you want? What are you going to talk with Baek? Convince him to take you? Hurt him again? Show him some fake picture of Chanyeol and some ? For a split second I thought you really regret what you did but seeing that it is your request, you are not!"

It really hurt hearing this from Kyungsoo oppa. Even my simple request is being judged negatively. "That's not what I want to do. You misunderstand my intention oppa...You might think I am lying but during my coma, I still can heard everything. I know Bae