Chapter 16: Still Indecisive.

After her nightly routine, Miyoung laid in her bed waiting for sleep to come. But it never did. Not yet.

Her mind was busy replaying every bits of that conversation she had with Jonghyun.

Was she really in that bad of a shape when she broke up with Minho?

And towards the end, nothing shocked her more into the reality then when Jonghyun asked about her seeing someone else besides Minho.

Yes, she knew she was two timing Jinki every time she ‘hung out’ with Minho but when her brother said it like that, she felt guilty. Like real guilty. Like, she realized now that she was doing something really bad. Like, she’s a bad person.

Miyoung turned to the side and let out a defeated sigh. She really is a bad person. As soon as she washed her dishes, she took all her stuff and decided to finish her studying in her room. Locked. She was too scared that Jonghyun would make her confess everything if she stayed down there. Confess how much of a bad person she is.

Miyoung felt like crying. She knew this was all her fault. Stubborn to know how Minho felt towards her when Jinki was there, readily pouring his heart to her.

Without thinking, she took her phone and dialed Hyoyeon’s number.

“Hello?” Hyoyeon croaked after a very long ring. She must’ve been a sleep.

“I think it’s only a matter of time that Jonghyun would figure everything out,” Miyoung said. She was laying on her side still.

“what are you talking about?” Hyoyeon asked, confusion in her voice. Miyoung didn’t have the energy to be impatient and told her about the Jinki and Minho situation.

“Oh,” Hyoyeon responded and the prolonged ‘ohhh’ indicates that she just yawned.

“Yeah, oh,” sighed Miyoung. “What do I do?”

“Oh, I don’t know. what you wana do?” Hyoyeon asked back. Miyoung heard Hyoyeon yawned again.

“I don’t know. I just..I don’t know. My head is telling me I’m a bad person for doing what I did but why is my heart so stubborn?” by now, Miyoung had sat up straight, leaning her back on the dashboard. “Why am I so stubborn?”

“in between that stubbornness of yours, what else do you think that you came across?” Hyoyeon asked in a bored voice.

“Well, I think I know what I should do,” Miyoung slowly said. Her hand was busy playing with the hem of her blanket.

“and what is that?” Hyoyeon’s voice had become somewhat brighter now. She must’ve been wide awake now.

“Maybe I shouldn’t be too greedy?” Miyoung asked sheepishly.

“Hmm. So, why are you still seeing Minho then?”

“Because it seems like he’s about to tell me something, that’s why,”

“Ok, but do you think it’d be anytime soon?”

With that question, Miyoung turned quiet.

Honestly, she knew that the time is nothing near ‘soon’. Minho had been on and off with his affections that Miyoung had started to lose hope. Miyoung wanted so much to believe in him. To change. but it didn’t seems like it. So, why is she still holding on?

“Hellooo~? Are you still there, Ming-goon?” Hyoyeon called in almost shouting voice.

“Yeah, yeah. I’m still here. Hyonnie, I’ll have to call you back tomorrow, ok?” Miyoung was actually getting tired with all the thinking she was doing.

“Sure, try and get some sleep?” Hyoyeon said before the said final goodbyes and hung up.

Miyoung sigh again as she put down her phone back on the side table.

She had to forced herself to sleep or she continued to argue with her inner self about whether to let Minho go or not. And how about Jinki?

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Annyeong my beloved readers!

did you wait long for this update?

hehe I am sorry for that but at the same time, I THANK YOU for still keeping up with this story. ^_^v

this time, I wasn't being lazy (much). I was really busy with work and everything else just seem so hectic these days. I don't understand. shouldnt we be more relax at the beginning of the year? (lol. that's just a lazy person saying. xP) SO, i am hoping things would get back as normal soon, so that I can properly write this story down instead of hastening it like this. hehe  Let's just hope so ey? ;D

So, once again, thank you my beautiful readers. I'll be back soon for that second post tonight.

I'll be posting another chapter up soon. So, yay for double update! 

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