Jiyeon’s POV

His face leaned closer and closer to me. As he lowered his head, I stared intently on his nose avoiding looking at his lips. He made me nervous. I don’t know if it was because I was nervous because I was anticipating a kiss or because I didn’t know how to reject him. I knew something must have been wrong with Hyunseung lately for him to be acting so strange.

There was almost no time left before our lips would touch. In a desperate measure to save myself from this situation, I averted my gaze to the left and was about to rush to the kitchen when our heads bumped into each other. I rubbed the spot in which our heads clashed. He looked back at me as if embarrassed but he didn’t say a thing.

“Ow…” I whined as I waited for him to speak.

“I’m sorry Hyunseung. I thought I saw the… the… water running… so I wanted to check…”

As if my excuse didn’t sound already stupid as it was, I felt as if I was being so dishonest with myself. I didn’t know what I wanted. I wasn’t even sure what he wanted.

“Was that your answer?” he asked clearly upset.

“My answer to what?”

“My feelings”

I didn’t know what to say. I wanted to say something. Anything but my mouth wouldn’t open. I was speechless. Hyunseung looked at me once more before turning toward the door. Slamming the door harshly, I stood there frozen as a statue still trying to figure out what just happened.

Kikwang’s POV

I played with my phone, as I was in debate whether or not I should give a call to Jiyeon. She still owed me four dates and I did want to see her. It’s already been a couple of weeks since I last saw her. I was finally over Hara and I wanted to get to know a particular someone I had my eyes on. It was an odd night. I felt strange. As I decided to call her, Dongwoon walked in without knocking and passed me something unexpected.

“Goo Hara… Kikwang I think this is for you” Dongwoon said as he passed me a letter.

“What is this? Hara?”

Immediately, I ripped the seal of the white envelope. There was a sheet of paper and a handwritten letter from her. I don’t know what else more she needed to say to me but I felt that I needed to give it a chance.

                                      Kikwang,

I’m wondering now, do you hate me? You probably still hate me because

of what I have done. I don’t regret what I did because I think it was for the best. I don’t know if you will ever forgive me

but I want to tell you the truth. I left for the States two months ago. I lied to you when I told you

that I cheated on you. I received my letter of acceptance from Harvard, which is why I decided to leave you. It’s the best this

way right? But I think I regret it

now. I can’t stop thinking about you. I can’t stop missing you and I never stopped loving you. ~ Goo Hara

My hands trembled at this new revelation. The hate that I had harbored for her during the months I haven’t seen her were so great that it had become a part of me now. How can she tell me now that she regrets her decision? Should I be happy? I looked over to Dongwoon who seemed to have already read the letter in advance.

“What are you going to do?” asked Dongwoon.

“Throw this away”

“What?”