" please, let me go." that's the first sentence that i said when i stop crying.
" no, never." he talk to me fastly while still looking into my eyes.
" Sehun-a, this is your dreams, you made it, trust me you don't want to lose it." I talk to him again, and now he just standing there without saying anything.
" i've seen you for this last 3 days, there's so much people who adore you and trust you, you can't lose those people."
" i won't lose them, and i won't lose you too." He still stubborn and not hear any of my word.
" you will, if you stick with me, i can't bear it when my bestfriend EXO's Sehun who dance cooly, singing passionately, performing greatly is back to be Sehun who has nothing."
I finally can talk to him about my real feeling.
" you know that can happen in no time if we keep doing this."
" Suzy-ya, i told you i'll try, i'll do my best, i'll do better." he still persistent and now he talk with really low voice.
" it hurt my heart so much when i think about it only, i'm always crying alone when i thought about you losing this, i don't know what will happen if that's really happening."
I can see Sehun now looking at me with so much love.
" Please, let me go." now i talk to him while holding his one finger.
He looks hesistant, and suddenly he hugging me again.
" do you remember when you said love isn't working for us?" he talk to me while hug me tight. I just reply him with a nod in his arms.
" That's actually work, right?" He hold my shoulder and looking at my face while talking like that. I don't really get it so i just standing there looking at him.
" I'm doing this, because i love you so much, i don't want to see you hurt, i don't want to see you crying anymore"
He slowly kiss my forehead and touch my hair slowly.
" Go." He letting go of my hand, my shoulder, and my hair. He talk to me slowly with his deep and sweet voice.
I took several step away from him, and turn around leaving him who still standing there.

I'm crying non stop when i reach my apartment, i still can't forget when he letting go of my hand. It suddenly feel more hurt than ever.
I have no one to talk about it, Luna will be so mad because she never understand what is really happening between us.
Suddenly, that night, my memories about Sehun is scattered everywhere.

The next morning, i find some article about dating report regarding SNSD's yoona sunbaenim and Seung gi oppa.
I should have been feeling happy for them because Seung gi oppa is someone who always help me, but the truth is my heart feel hurts.
why she can? and Sehun is not? they came from same agencies right?
I want to have relationship that all people is know, i don't want to hide anything like them.
But i know, for now things just gotta be complicated for me and for him.
In this state, there's nothing we can fight about our love.
Now is only our responsibility to fight with those feel.
To save it, to keep it or to throw it and even kill it.