That's part of life right? People change and when people starts to change, even feelings may change. It's normal for any human being to have their feelings changed towards another person right? It's normal for a person to grew bored of the person they love because that person isn't acting the same anymore right? So i guess, it's perfectly normal that Chanyeol's feelings may have changed.

Why hadn't i realized it sooner?

Of course, it's those eyes that i had missed before, Chanyeol's eyes. Whenever they were staring straight into Hyeri's, it displayed some sort of affection. It softened at the sight of her. It hadn't happened just once when i noticed that look in his eyes but i chose to not dwelled on it too much. The affection he has towards Hyeri.

He likes her. Chanyeol likes Hyeri.

How did things turned out this way?

I don't talk much much less behave like the person i once were. Even though at times i acted harshly and cold towards Chanyeol but one in a while i do want to seek comfort from him. He told me that he was confused about me, about how i had been behaving lately but well i'm confused about myself too. Had i cause things to turned out the way it is turning out right now? As i took a peek over at Chanyeol who was currently sleeping soundly on of the bed after the struggles just to get him into the room, my mind replayed the phonecall earlier.

//flashback//

"hello?" i could hear her saying that repeatedly on the other line.

I didn't know if i should just answer it or to just let it be. I slowly picked up the phone and placed it by my ear, just waiting if she's going to say anything else besides hello and she did just that.

"Oppa, did you drop your phone? Anyway, did you get home safely? I was worried about you because you really drank alot and when i asked if i should walk home with you, you said i should head home first because it was late"

He really was with her all night.

"Should i come over tomorrow morning to make sure you're okay? Thank god it's saturday and we have no classes"

Don't you know i'm here? I'm his girlfriend, i will take care of him. Have you forgotten the existence of his girlfriend, Hyeri-ah?

"Oh i'm sorry, ~~~~~ will take care of you right? But if she is still not talking to you, do you want me to come over instead?"

My hands started to shake in anger, what was she trying to do? Don't you dare come here Hyeri-ah..

"I'll come in the morning alright? goodbye oppa, have some sleep. See you tomorrow morning then~" and then she hung up the phone.

Do i really not exist right now?

//ends of flashback//

It's five in the morning, i was still awake as i could barely sleep. The thought of sleeping beside Chanyeol, wasn't right to me at this point in time so i decided to walked over to the kitchen and get a glass of water. Switching on the lights and taking a seat on one of the chairs in the dining area, i conversed by myself in my head on what i should do with my life right now.

My boyfriend became like a total stranger in a matter of just days. It's like i don't even know him anymore. I'm scared. I'm terrified. I'm just afraid. Can one be so afraid of their other half?  I'm scared of Chanyeol and i don't even even know why. Maybe i'm afraid that he'll leave me one day. I don't want to be left by myself. Who am i going to turn to if it isn't him?

I have no one else but him. 

What am i going to do now? Everything is a mess. I glanced over to my left and looked at my reflection on the mirror. I stood up from my chair and walked towards it. Looking over at my own self standing infront of the mirror.

I need to stop crying. My eyes are puffy and swollen, the eyebags are getting worse. Nothing benefits from crying every single time but what else am i suppose to do? I couldn't just sit down at home and do nothing. I couldn't just let myself cry all day long.

I can't pretend nothing happened. I cant. Instead i could pretend not to know anything infront of Chanyeol, right?  There were no concrete evidence that Chanyeol likes Hyeri right? I'm just assuming things but then again i couldn't be imagining things. He do likes her. I can see it so clearly but until the very day i am so sure of myself, well honestly, i don't want that to happen but i know one day it will happen eventually.

I looked over at myself again, this time staring directly into the reflection of my eyes as i tell myself, that i can't let myself to get hurt anymore. I'm going to pretend i don't know anything. I know nothing at all.

Chanyeol wouldn't know that i