Young saeng parted himself from the bed heading to the bathroom immediately as soon as he got up from bed,,he opened the metal faucet to wash his face,,he doesn't know how long he slept since he was exhausted yesterday at their tour with his bestfriend which is a lover in the first place,,,he tilted his head and look at the mirror infront of him,,what happen? he asked all of  sudden., confuse with something he thought of its real..no one will gonna answer of course,,he touch his lips and run his index finger along with his middle finger on them,,,he then remembered how intimate they are yeasterday, with hyun joong, skin touching closely, no gap at all between his shoulder to hyun joong's chest, face almost an inch away, they even heard and feel each one's breath,,,it's soothing him,,it makes his temperature rise, it makes a goosebumps and shivered all over his body,,,he shook his head, desperately, and shut his eyes to clear that thing,,,he can't feel this matter towards his bestfriend,,he thought,, is it just i miss him? is it a desire? is it an affection instead?, he shakes his head all over again when a sudden instance of a scene came to his mind,,,"i love you and i promise i will make you remember everything,, how much we love each other, i will show you to the world,,he snapped out,,eyes being narrowed at his own imagination of them kissing and see how serious hyun joong with those words, how he ring the boy's neck from his arms and lock those fingers behind,,he dreamt last night,,but why? why he dreamt about him and hyun joong kissing and making out all of a sudden and what is that promise? love? he loves me? yeah im his.best.friend? but why he kissed me and i.kissed.him.too?,,,,,ahhhhhh what's with him? what's up witth you young saeng?,,,,he wiggled frustratedly....is he fallen for me? did he confess to me before i got an accident?..or did i confess to him and rejected me and i got in an accident,,,owhhh no,,no,,,no,,no...impossible we're not,,,,we're not,,,,in a relationship.. right? impossible,,we are both male and,,,and,,,and,,yahhhh young saeng?!!!!! what are you thinking,,?,,and,,and,,,and,,,when did you become so erted one and you,,,you,,,you're fantasizing your bestfriend aren't you,,what a shame on you? are you two sided gender?,,he wiggled more and yelled at himself to the mirror....he paused and glance at the mirror again, he stared at his face,,he gulped as he stopped his sight to his lips and remembered when they are inches away,,he looked at those lips and suddenly makes him wanted them,,,he shook his head many times and bang his head mentally,,,he face palm himself and bent down to wash his face,,he lift up his face and look at the innocent mirror and turn to look to the shower area,,he step in quickly and immediately run the shower,,,taking his bath makes those ert dreams and desire to delete in his brain,,he supposed,,,he took  an hour of soaking himself under the shower strands and came out after,,,still the same, nothing had change,,,he sighed for the nth time,,it's just th start of the day yet his mind was full of exhausting pieces of puzzled that he can't connect,,,

"Young saeng!!!! you have  visitor!! his eomma shouted downstairs,,,

He heard it..a visitor..he mumbled...at this early? he furrowed his brows,,ahhhh i forgot!! he snap his thumb and middle finger  and quickened his pace,,he almost forgot,,hyun joong told him to fetch him the next day,,and it is the day,, to go around again,yeah of course.....but he stopped when he remembered his sily and shameful dream,,,Etteokke!!! he scream his thought and wiggled ont he bed like a kid, burrying his face on the soft sheets...

''eoo!!! this smell,,,he mumbled and lift his face up,, he smelled the sheet again,,,it's really the same,,,,he pouted,,ahhh whatever!!!! he shouted and pushed himself up to leave the soothing fragrance from his bed...

"hwaiting young saeng!!! he said and gestured his fist to console himself,,he pat his own shoulder and exited the door when he heard the second call from his mom...

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Hyun joong who didn't get enough sleep last night rushed to  take his shower...his schedule is in the morning anyway at 10 am,,a photoshoot for his upcoming photobook,,,he promised young saeng to tour him again this afternoon but since the schedule is before lunchtime, he told the boy to fetch him 30 minutes before the said time of his scheduled photo shoot,,,,

"he sighed while fixing himself and dressing himself casually,,,he told the manager and the stylist to just go over the venue and he will follow because he had something to do beforehand...he breathed heavily many times,, just like what the other did since this early morning,,why i didn't get enough sleep? he mumbled infront of the mirror,,,nothing's bothering him the last night aside from looking back at the scene yesterday, how he almost kissed the boy...that's all,,so reckless and too much carelessness,,

He exited his room and rushed to his car,,he drove it and sped up to the boy's house,,feeling excited yet still nervous,,it's the third day of them being together,, first, the surprise visit and sleep over,that it's a good day since he slept with his lover again, second, the tour, the date for him it is, he doesn't know what is it from the other,,the intimacy of them both,,the almost kissing...that's felt too better than never touch the boy forever,,,third,,today will be the third,,yeahh he mumbled things that will make his courage gathered all to face the boy,,he was thinking what to do..shall he take him to the house they lived together, their house,,,mybe it will help the boy remember everything,,well maybe not all,, but it will gonna help, almost all the memories were on that house, how they fought, how they become friends and how they started to feel something in the same way,,,and how they fall ain love and finally confess to each other,,,,he sighed again as he stopped infront of his in-laws house,, his lover's place,,,

He step out his car and opened the door of the house himself,,he is always welcome to the family and free to come in and come out from the house anyway,,,he greeted the elders who were at the balcony, just like it was his own house, a son who comes home,,that's how much they welcomed him to the family,,

"Owh,,,hyun joong,,you came,,,eommeonim said.."Young saeng!!!! you have  visitor!!,,she shouted calling his son who was still at his room..

"de...i'll fetch saengie,,,he answered anxiously..

"are you sure you're ok? hyun joong,,you can just let saengie know everything,,why you want to keep the truth to him,,,eomma said feeling a pity to the man...

"NO..eommeonim,,i want him to remember on his own,,,i don't want to force him to remember me as his~~~~,,,hyun joong was cut off when the boy came,,,

"Owh hi,,,saengie greeted as he popped out from the door cutting the conversation between his known bestfriend and eomma,,,suddenlt the atmosphere became quiet,,,

"Yeahh,,,we'll go ahead,,,hyun joong bowed politely to the elders and looked at the mother giving a begging eyes, begging to not say anything to the boy yet...

"what's going on? saengie blurted softly when he notice the atmosphere was too awkward and all of them were looking somewhere avoiding his presence,,,

''Nothing,,let's go,,,hyun joong said and forced a grin on his face,,,

"de,,you must go now before it goes dark,,,,,abeoji spoke and reminded the two....eomma just turned around to keep his watery eyes,,,

"we'll not going home for tonight,i'll take him there,,,,hyun joong told,,,

"Where.are.we.going? is it too far that we won't able to go home? saengie asked curiously...making a glance to everyone,,it is somewhat weird,,he felt something that maes it too awkward to all of them,,,

"the place where we met,,,hyun joong answered and took saengie's hand clasping them together,,,

Saengie agaped to those hands...the other's hand was locked comfortably to his,,he look at the man who was walking a step ahead to him and shifted to their hands again,,he felt something hit his chest and it thumps fast,,like a racing car that sped up to take the first place,,but it feels awkward,,the more skinships they had the more he have been too curious to the man,,how intimate they are, up to what level does their friendship goes,is it to the level that they consider themselves as brothers? a bilogical brother maybe, that's possible, every childhood friends treat each other like that but what is that thumps in his chest?,or it's more than that..why his heart race too fast everytime the other do something like that,,his heart race even if it's just a singe glance or just even a slight beam on the face from the other..he never felt it before though he met few guys in london, mostly their neighborhood over there, he met korean boy in london too but he never felt like this to that neighbor,,,

Hyun joong opened the door for him, the same door he entered yesterday,,and sitted the same seat yesterday,,,the drive was silent,,it took 10 minutes of ride before they both broke it,,,,saengie did it,,he questioned again,,"What.were you talking about? with eomma? he uttered shyly...

"eo! nothing,,,just something,,,hyun joong replies unsure of what to answer,,by the way,,,i have a photoshoot,,it takes an hour only, just wait for me in the car and don't ever go outside,,,just wait inside the car,,,call me if there's something you want and di'll go quickly down,,get it? he said changing the topic, instructing the boy on what to do and what not while he is alone..,,,

"Saengie needless to answer,,the man seems have no plan to tell him the exact answer he wanted,,,he just nodded and remain looking outside the window...somewhat there is something he wanted to ask but he doesn't know what exactly it is,,,what exactly the words to say..is it, how? what? where?..he sighed,,i want to recall everything,,,he mumbled under his breath,,,,

"Hyun joong notice the boy sighing non stop,,he couldn't ignore it,,he knows something is bothering him,,,he felt sorry for the boy fo not remembering anything, it frustrates the hell of him,,,he wished the boy to remember everything too but it seems it is not easy to do,,he can't force the boy,,he wanted him to regain his memory on his own,,telling him exactly the truth, finds it not helping since the boy showed coldness on their possible relationship as lover, uninteretedly to that matter,,,seems the boy really can't imagine the love relaationship between them,,so he decided to remain as bestfriend, even if it hurts himself more,,even if the boy nows how much this man wanted him so much,,even if the boy knows how much the man wanted to capture those lips, but the boy have no interest to that,,he thought it many times,,he even plead to the boy's parents not to tell anything,,he just hope the boy will recall everything sooner,,,,

Not knowing, saengie is totally puzzled about their relationship, what exactly the kind of relationship they have,,at first the boy can't imagine the relationship as lovers, as boyfriends uninterested to that matter but now that he is with the man and saw him personally and those weirdest feelings he felt to the man the first day he met him 3 days ago,,he definitely find his self wanted to know deeper than he knows right now...he wants to ask the man if they did kiss before considering the dream he had,,he wants to ask, did he promise him something,,it was too complicated things but he can't tell the other about his dreams, afraid that the man will  just laugh at him,,,

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Hyun joong left the car leaving him with just two words,,,take care,,he reminded and covered the front window so no one would ever saw that there is someone inside...

Young saeng just look at the man fixing the cover of the front view and watch him unbuckled the seatbelt for him to make him comfortable,,,

He was left alone in the car with those puzzle that had never connected even just two pices of it and there is this thing that added his curiousity about,,,he knows something is bothering between his family and the man,,a secret that both parties doesn't want to let them know the boy,,,He rested his back, inclining the seat to lay a bit,,he closed his eyes, decided to get a nap since its an hour of waiting alone,,,i love you..the three words ring his ear again and his image being pleasured by the man appeared in his thought,,,he hit his head with his fist,,,young saeng wake up!!!!he said to himself,,,he got up and he is being annoyed already at that dream,,that scene never leaves his mind since this morning,,,he already felt ashame to his bestfriend even though he didn't told him about,,,

He looked around  as he lifted slightly the cover of the window and look at the both sides to check if there are people roaming around,,it's suffocating himself inside because of that thinking,,,he thought he might needed some air to shoo those things in his mind...

He opened the door slowly and check around again... he step out his feet flatted them to the rocky ground, still sitting on the same seat,,,,playing his feet together make his toes kissed, he took out his phone, and had the idea to search on web about the man,,, he typed the name KIM HYUN JOONG and there all the possible sites about the guy appeared, news, blogs, etc,,,he opened an article about the engagement about hyun joong and Uee?...he pouted while browsing to the pictures,,,Uee? do i know her? he mumbled..sighing,, he closed the web sudenlt his chest tightened about that short article,,so he is engage then,then why are you thinking about him kissing you,you idiot,,,he said scolding his head,,,poking the temple repeatedly like a hundredth times,,,,

It has been an hour of boredom and waiting since he was left alone,,,so boring,,,

"yeobeoseyo? he muttered as h dialled the number of the other,,,...

"Eo wae? the man behind answered,,,

"i'm bored,,,,he said,,,

"i'm coming just wait for another 5 minutes,,you didn't go out right? the man confirming...

"ahhh,,,ah de..im inside the car,,,,he lied of course, he was out already,,,come quickly,,,im hungry,,,,he grumble over the phone..

The phone hang after he heard the other chuckled,,,he was about to get inside the car before hyun joong will caught him being outside when someone came to him with a shock expression all over the face...Young saeng ssi,,that person uttered in question,,,

Young saeng was surprised,,,he doesn't know what to do,,,he doesn't recognize the person in the first place,,,he bit his lower lip and  starts to think,,the person is familiar but doesn't recognize who it was,,,

"Young saeng ssi,,,,,the person called and hold him to the arm when young saeng moved to get in...

''I'm sorry,,,he said, he wanted to shove the hand holding unto his arm,,,he is in panic now,,,how could he escape from this sudden situation...he remembered how hyun joong reminded him not to talk to anyone...

"Can we talk? where have you been? when did you came back? several questions was brought from the stranger,,,several flashes came to his mind,,he cupped his head with his both hands and winced in pain,,his head hurts,,,the memories of the person being with hyun joong on bed, he run when he saw them both on the bed, he was angry, furious and hyun joong trailing behind him,,trying to catch him,,,the scene is clearly them,,but was unclear what is that all about,,why he is angry at them,,,why hyun joong run to him,,,,,he burried his face to his palms,,

"young saeng ssi,,,young saeng ssi,,,he heard that name repetedly,, the more he hwas hearing the voice the more flashes repeating the saem scene in his mind,,,

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He took the photoshoot perfectly and tried not to make mistkes,,he doesn't want to take the shoot too long,,his lover is waiting for him and he's a bit worried that the boy will disobey him from going outside,,,and someone might recogize the boy,,,

"You look inspired today hyun joong ssi,,all the shots were perfectly done,,the photograper commented,,,

"de thank you,,,he smiled and bowed to everyone,,he received a call from the boy, he answered as he step away from everyone and talked as silent as he can...the boy was rushing him,,,

"De, "i'm coming just wait for another 5 minutes,,you didn't go out right? he confirmed,,making sure the boy obeyed him,,

He was satisfied when young saeng told that he didn't go outside the car and stayed inside only..He chuckled and the call ended..sighing in relief and flashed a smile on his face,,he went to his manager and told him that he'll be taking his car and will go home immediately,,,,since there is no following schedule for today,,he cancelled the others to accompany his boyfriend,,,his bestfriend,,

He took the elevator,,it stops every floors down,,he was at 6th floor so he waited patiently to pass by those floors to gone by basement.,,it seems he was waiting too long before reaching the lowest floor,,he tapped his phone on his jeans..and finally he reach it,,he took few steps and turns before meeting the car spot,,he saw someone standing besie his car....he run,,uee what are you doing here? he questioned, immediately shoving the hand holding the boy's arm,,,

"what happen to him? uee asked when she saw the boy in panic...

"Young saeng,, it's me,,look at me,,he eyed the girl and went to the boy who was in pain,,,,What did you do?!! he yelled at the girl....

"I..I didn't do anything,,i just came to talk to him,,,the girl stuttered with her eyes narrowed in nervous,,,he can't believe that it was really young saeng,,it wasn't a dream that her fake fiance have his true love again,,they were pretending back then and they continued it even though saengie was gone though hyun joong refuses to do it already but the company and uee insisted still,,but he didn't mind it a long time ago aside from occsionally meeting of the company with uee where uee signed a contract to the same agency and some company's  demanded both to make commercials etc,,...

"i'm warning you..don't tell anyone about seeing him here..do you understand?,,he warned pointing to the girl's face....the girl just nod only...

"Hyun joong closed the door and went to the driver's seat,,he lifted the boy's face,,cupping the face,,,it's ok,,she's just someone,,,you don't have to remember her,  do you get me? it's alright now,,,he told and wiped the sweats formed on the boy's forehead....

"i want to go home,,,i want to rest,,, saengie talked when he calmed down  bit,,,,

"we're going to where we live before,,you can rest there..hyun joong replied..

"i want to go home!!! you didn't heard me?! to my house,,,,saengie suddenly screamed...

"young saeng,,that's our home too,,,halmeoni and harabeoji bought~~~~hyun joong tried to convince the boy,,,

Saengie opened his door and ready to leave ignoring the man, he doesn't want to hear anything,,any conversation annoys his day,,,he felt so annoyed all of a sudden....hyun joong grab him back,,"Arrasseo,,,i'll take you home,,,he said, he agreed,,he is afraid that the boy will run again just like before,,what if the past will happen again,,what if the boy will get into accident again when he run..he is afraid,,scared of losing the boy again,,,he might be hurting how the boy yelled at him with whatever reason that he doesn't know but he needed to be understanding,,,

''I'll take you home,,,just dont run away...hyun joong repeated,,,i'm sorry..let's just go there some other time,,he continued...he felt disappointed,,he is ready to show the past to the boy but it fails him to do so just because of the sudden showed up of the girl,,,everything he had pln was wasted...

Saengie sat back,,spacing out already as he remembered the face of the girl...that scene..was he jealous? was he annoyed because of that flash back then that he doesn't know what is it,,if that flash was real or just part of his dream before,,it killing his mind,,he tightened his grip to the hem of his shirt,,,

Hyun joong lean closer to help him buckle the seatbelt when saengie shifted and became jumpy when he saw the other was close to him.."i' alright i can do it,,he said snatching the seatbelt from the man,,,,he buckled it himself...Hyun joong was hurting more,,the boy started to refuse with such actions,,,he rossed his arms on top of the steering wheel before he started the engine,,he forced a smile under his shaky breath,,,he drives the boy home...it was just not more than 2 hours since they left the house and its not more than that when he told the elders that they won't able to go home but there they are infront of the gate already,,,they were silent nd no one spoke the whole ride,,,

Hyun joong ried to unbuckle the other's seatbelt but young saeng grab it with his hands and unbuckled it without a word,,,saengie exited the car and headed inside,,,hyun joong followed behind,,,

Th elders wonder why the two came back in just few hours but they didn't ask anything, since they saw their son walk pass them and hyun joong just bowed to them and tailed behind the boy...

Saengie closed the door and locked it without letting the other go inside,,,hyun joong just laugh at himself,,he lean his back  to the door,,and let the crystals poured from his eyes,,,

"hyun joong,,,,,eomma came and saw the boy sitting down the floor with those tears,,she is sure those tears were for her son..he felt sorry for the hardship of the boy,,,she pat the boy's head and console him with his embrace,,,

"Mianhae,,saengie~~~~saengie just don't remember how precious you are to him,,,mom told in low tone,,,

"I won't give up eommeonim,,,i'll make him remember me,,,i love him,,i'll extend my patience,,i assure you that..he'll remember me,,,hyun joong said in his reassuring tone,,,

"i know,,my son needs you,,thank you for understanding him,,,,mom said thankful to their second son...go home and rest...

"Its alright,,i'll wait for him to sleep before i go,,i want to see him,,eomma i miss him so much,,i miss him,,i want to hug im like before but i can't,,i can't move normally,,,,please let me stay for a while,,,hyun joong said, controlling his sobs,,careful to not make an echo of his cries,,,

"of course, you can,,eomma said as she wiped the boy's tears and held him up to go down stairs,,,

On the other hand sengie just sited on his bed, sulking to whatever he wasn't sure about,,he heard conversation outide his door,,,he went closer to the door and heard what was the conversation,,,

"Hyun joong,,why you love me? why are you crying because of me? what is it that you wanted me to remember,,what is all about us? he thought questoning those things but he can't delir those questions to hyun joong,,

He lean his back to the door and slide down the floor,,he felt so guilty for making the man cry,,did he yell him out to be hurt like that, to cry like that? is he had been over board,,guiltily, he hit his head for making the other cry becuase of his attitude,,assuming the reason, he conitnued scolding itself,,,,

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Uee was stunned until the car left,,that was young saeng, she thought,,she can't believe that she met the long lost rival to hyun joong's heart, the missing icon in the world of entertainment,,the source and cause of commotion on KKJ ENT,, the source of cries of fans,,,

"Eotteokke? she asked,,what do i do? hyun joong,,are we really over? she concluded,,,shall i tell the company? she thought again,,,no..hyun joong will leave me if i do,, eotteokke,,,eottokke,,,Uee think, think, think,,,he hummed,,

"but what happen to him? he don't recognize me? why did he panic like that? she wonder.....where the hell did he came from and now he's back? and hyun joong knows? it means he knows since the day young saeng was gone and pretended that he didn't..did he hid him from the pulic? she came to so many conclusions and assumptions,,,she bit his lip and snapped out from her thinking when her manager called from the van,,,,

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Hyun joong entered the room silently after few knocks,,the door was unlock already, so he entered,,he saw the boy sleeping on the fllor with his head burried on the edge of the bed,,he tried to shake the boy,, he held him up, carried hm whent he boy never gives a response,,he lay him on the bed,,settling him comfortably,,,,he lean closer and utter just a simple yet important words,,,i love you,,,those three words that he could utter only if the other won't listening,,,,he lean more closer and made a quick peck on the boy's lips, only touching the tip of the lips makes him satisfies for now,,he won't ask for more,,,he caress the face and shove lightly the fringe covering the eyes, cautiously run his hand to the other's nose,,,so pretty, as always,,he commented and smiled,,he squeezed the hand softly before standing up to leave,,he already  saw the other's face,he was contented on that and it will make him at ease for the night,,,he felt a tightened on his hand,,he looked at their hands and the boy seems having a dream and he tightened his grip,,

"Are you dreaming of me? he asked the boy who was sleeping,,,i missed you,,,he said and paused just smiling to the sleeping boy on the bed,,, he carefully held out his hand from the boy and kiss the other's forehead before exiting the room,,,,

The day wasn't perfect,,,it was ruined totally,,,but it was still ok with him,,at least he was with his lover this morning,,fighting is just part of a relationship, though it was totally different,, he considered it as their short term fight,,,,that tomorrow will be back to normal,,,

Hoping,,whatever the boy up to when he came back to him at the car,,whatever the reason the boy made him annoys,,whatever the reason why the boy yelled at him,,still was alright,,whatever it is, no matter what he needs to reconsider everything as part of their trials as lovers,, can consider it as his punishment for making the boy be in accident,,,though it wasn't intentional and it wasn't his fault,, he still blame himself for it,,that makes his ego be satisfied to what the boy can give to him though it it isn't the thing he wanted from him,,,,he needs the boy's love and herart but the presence of the boy is enough for now,,,,

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another update,,comment and enjoy...thankyu for waiting patiently,,silent readers,,please comment too,,,kekeke,,,your authornim became too greedy over the comments,,,,nd orry for always delaying,,,your authornim is busy lately helping her dongsaengie chingu in the dorm from packing their things,,,and who knows about webtoon? i want to make something like that,,im practicing making characters through paint but i need more useful oline paint any pplication or tool you know? cn share with me? i want my tory to have pictures of scenes or whatever,,,,