Hyun joong fell  asleep at his husband's room,,,waiting for him the whole night,,,He woke up, something is noisy,,he opened his eyes just to see his husband packing few clothing,,,

"what are you doing? he asked as he sat up from the bed still hugging the pillow...

"don't you see,,,packing some clothes,,,saengie answered not even looking at the man,,,

"why? hyun joong asked in low tone,,he knows already what were those clothes for,,,

"i have to stay in the hotel near juhyun's place,,i have to watch her for a while,,saengie answered again...

"don't,,you're leaving me? hyun  joong questioned...

"i just have to,,just few days,,,and don't tell halmeoni and harabeoji about this,,i promise i will come back as soon as she will recovered,, saengie said pointing to his husband's face....a warning,,,

"promise,,he mumbled,,,you once broke your promise....hyun joong uttered and pulled out himself from the bed...

"what? saengie had stop with his business and asked the man..

"nothing,,,hyun joong said stepping out from the room slamming the door,,,

"hyun joong!!!! saengie called but the other was already exited the room,,he followed him,, he open the slight opened door of hyun joong's room and entered in,,,what are you talking about?

"i said nothing,,just go,,hyun joong said covering his self from his blanket...

"what's happening to you? what promise you ae talki~~~~~ saengie cut his words, he sighed,,face palming himself when he remembered,,,hyun joong im sorry,,,,im really sorry,,,i really wanted to go home but~~~~he immediately apologise as soon as his head hit the point...

"~~she told you to stay? hyun joong continued not taking off the blanket...

"look,,im really sorry about that...is that the reason why you are acting like that? saengie said,,,you're so childish,,he added and laughed...

"whatever,,,,can you leave now? she's waiting for you,,,hyun joong said,,,

"owh come on hyun joong,,,saengie went to him pulling slowly the blanket until it removed fully,,,,

"give me that damn blanket and go,,,,hyun joong said rolling his eyes from his husband...

"ok,,what do you want  me to do as a compensation,,,i really want to go home last night,,,i swear,,,saengie said trying to please the astonished guy...

"don't leave,,,if you can't do it,,then just just leave,,that's all,,,hyun joong replied...

"i can't,,,hyun joong you are acting so strange,,she is my girlfriend i can't just ignore the fact that she was sick because of me...saengie explained...

"then you should have called me last night if that's the case..i've waited you know because you promise,,hyun joong raise his voice..

"i don't have my phone you know it,,,and i can't go out to find a payphone,,im really sorry if i made you that upset,,,,saengie response,,

"im not upset because of that,,i was just worried, i thought every negative things until my mind broke down and i fell asleep, which is good for me because if not maybe im wondering outside just by looking where  you are,,,!!! hyun joong totally raised his voice annoyed...

"yahh,,can we settle this now,,i will be gone for few days,,i don't want to leave this mess,,i mean,,i don't want to leave this matter unsettled,,so can you just forgive me this time,,can we? saengie broke the big gap between them cupping the face of his partner as he gave him a peck on the lips...

"don't take me with those lips,,,hyun joong said pulling out himself from the other,,,you are so unfair you know? he muttered...maybe it is good for us to be separated even just few days,,i want to settle myself,,,i don't want to end up being hurt alone,,i know i told you we can do the same as we planned but it's not what i am doing, it was opposite on what i said,,maybe i should think at how we can divorce soon, if you are not around, maybe i could think of  it better..,,now,,,just leave,,,he add up and immediately entered his bathroom,,,

Young saeng was speechless, the words left by hyun joong were added in the puzzle,,those words,,is that mean he is really falling for him,,is he really do love him now,,those were few questions that saengie added in his confusion,,,he didn't bother to call hyun joong back or tried to ask him again,,,he went closer to the bathroom door and knock once,,im leaving,,,can you just showed up to me before i leave? he spoke softly..

"why would i,,you saw me already a while ago,,,im taking my bath,,i have my schedule today,,so just leave first,,,im alright,,you don't have to worry,,,hyun joong said but his breath was heavy that the other could hear,,the stiff words coming from the other's lips was obvious that he was keeping a pain in his chest..,,

Young saeng exited the room still in question,,he left the house,, leaving the boy who just confessed for the second time,,he doesn't know whether to ignore it or not,,because if he take it seriously,,big trouble will add up to their current trouble,,,they willl end up hurting paople,,,if he will ignore,,maybe things go find the right way or else the other assumption,,both will get hurt,their selves suffer being hurt...

Hyun joong didn't showed up after saying those words,,not because he was embarrassed but because he really meant those words aside from the divorce,,he doesn't want to end up their force marriage, the truth, but he thought they needed now,,,confessing to him, he didn't regretted it but the more he confessed the more he was longing for the other's love,,,slowly, he finds his heart beating for the boy and let his mind to think he was already ignoring his girl...it wasn't easy for him to fall for the boy and it wasn't easy for him to force himself, to persuade himself that he still deeply inlove with his girl which is, it was the opposite now,,He really doesn't know since when, but he suddenly felt this way,,,he always waited for the boy,,he always long for him, always misses him,,always feel to care for him,,worried when he is not around, feel happy when he is with him, even just a simple smile from the boy, he feels like he was in heaven,,,,that smile that he didn't saw at their first meeting had melted his heart when he finally saw it,,

He hates everything about saengie before, the rude bahaviour, coldness, being mean to elders and parents, being his rival in the industry,,but now the more he knew about him the more he was falling for him,,,being a crybaby, weak, caring, the smile, the eyes, the lips,,,everything about saengie became his everyday routine, smile back to him,,care back to him, see him, make fun with him, sleep with him, eat with him,,those things were simple things that makes his heart race in fast,,,he never felt it with his girlfriend but he felt it with saengie which is the fact, he was he same as him that was fantacize by all girls,,,

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Young saeng arrived at juhyun's place after going to the hotel he was staying,,approaching the girl but his mind was lost,,,still thinking about hyun joong's words,,"divorce" that word can't be gone to his mind,,,is he really meant that? he wanted to end it already? he mumbled asking,,,but am i already ready for that?...he keeps mumbling, he didn't even thought he was with his girl...

"what is it oppa? problem? juhyun spoke,

"he snap out and come to his senses hearing the voice...eo,,,no,,i mean,,nothing,,i just thought of what hyun joong had told me...he response...

"he told you what? juhyun asked again...

"ahhh, it's about the divorce,,,but i think it's noit the right time yet....saengie honestly told the girl,,,

"why,,isn't that good,,,oppa just do it,,,there is no reason for both of you to live together,,juhyun suggested,,,

"but~~~ im not ready yet,,i just can't,,,,i mean,,,owhh what i mean is,,,i am not ready to have explanations to my parents especially to halmeoni,,saengie said and stood up immediately avoiding follow up questions from his girl,,anythiung you want to eat? i will cook for you,,,he said changing the topic,,,

"anything will do,,,juhyun nswered as she pursed her lips,,,

"ok,,i'll be back,,saengie paeck her on the forehead and left the bed where juhyun was laying...

He went to the kitchen grabbing anything he could pick but he really doesn't know what to cook,,"divorce" it keeps banging his head over and over again,,,he shook his head,,,jinjja young saeng stop it,,why you keep thinking about divorce,,and what are you talking about? you are not prepared yet? what the hell? just do what your husband told you? he scolded himself stabbing the knife he was holding on the wooden chopping board,,,

"Husband? huh,,,he chuckled,,,you are supposedly the husband but you have your husband, then what are you? he questioned himself just to discourage his heart from thinking about not being ready..

"oppa!!! is it really hard for you to get that divorce? juhyun came out entering the kitchen as she questioned the boy again...

"eo,,why you get up from your bed,,just go back there and i'll be quick,,,don't think about that,,,,he said trying to push his girl..

"oppa!!! are you falling for him? juhyun asked biting his lip...

"fal~~~ling for him? he questioned back almost whispering...

"tskkk,,you do?

"im~~~ not? i am not,,why would i? i told you,,it was just hard to give explanations to the elders,,i am still thinking what to reason about the divorce...he said as he stuttered at first,,no exact explanation of how he feels over hyun joong, though it was really obvious that he cared for the other but then he can't just believe it was what it is....

"oppa,,you are a guy and you have a girlfriend,,you can't fall to a guy like hyun joong,,you can't.. and you are, both of you are popular, you can't disappoint your fans,,,your relationship won't work,,juhyun reminded him how forbidden is to love in homo uality,,,

"i know,,i know that,,and i won't fall for him,,,go back to your room now,,don't stress out yourself,,you have to be alright,,dream concert is in just two weeks time,,we still need to practice more,,especially you,,you are lost according to your members..you got me,,? now go to rest,,,saengie just don't know what to replied,,won't fall for him,,but he was sure he was already in that state, he just can't tell it to himself,,,he peck the girl's lips and held him again on the bedroom as he goes back to the kitchen after....

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Few days had past, hyun joong is exhausting himself from practice since the concert is in just few weeks..,he still waiting for him,,,waiting for him to come home but saengie didn't showed up, even just a single call,,,he threw his phone and hit the photo frame on the wall,, it was their picture,,it was shot few days after they do the agreement just to show the elders tht they were living as a couple...

He pick it up as it landed on the floor after hitting it with his now broken phone,,,as soon as he pick it the broken glass cut his palm,,"uhhggggg,,the hell hyun joong you are so careless,,he scolded himself as he pressed his hand and the blood wells up on his hand,,,he burried his face between his knees while he just let the blood drip on the floor..he sighed as deep as he do,,,,

"Omo!!! what happen here? why the house in a mess? s voice spoke from the door,,

He lift his head up,,he beam a smile as he saw the boy standing on the door,,"eo you cam ehome already? he said sarcastically as he smiled weakly,,

Young saeng came in putting aside his bag and pick the broken phone and the small pieces of broken glass,,the more he got closer to the man's spot the more the red spot liquid was traced,,he grab the frame the man's was holding and it has a read stain on the left broken glass,,Hyun joong why are you bleeding?!! saengie finally notice and panic...

"you don't have to care for me,,,hyun joong said shoving the other's hand from the wounded palm of him..

"mwo? what are you doing to yourself,,why is your phone was broken,,and why your hand is bleeding? saengie asked upset..he can't believe he can still see his husband being angry with him still...

"i said you don't have to care!!!!!!!!! you didn't heard me? hyun joong shouted,,,he stood up pushing the guy and walked,,he was limping going upstairs,,,

Young saeng was looking, observing,,"and why would i not care for you!!!! you are my husband,,!!!! he shouted back,,,

"just until now..we will be having a divorce soon,,hyun joong said,,

Young saeng stood from his spot and grab the man's hand pulling him to his room,,,we need to cure that,,it was bleeding too much,,he said, didn't mind how far is the anger of the other...

"i said don't touch it,,,hyun joong said freeing his hand from the other...you just have stayed with your girl..you just have not come again so that i won't be hurting like this!!! he screamed shaking,,,

"is that so? then why you got hurt, why your phone is broken? and why you are acting like this,,,because you want to see me, because you are waiting for my call, because you can't forget me,,,isn't that what you suposedly saying,,,? that you miss me, you want me? you wan to hear words from me and you can't forget me,,,saengie confronted the guy...

"you are just to confident for that,,,hyun joong said chuckling...

"because it was the truth,,,hyun joong you won't care for me, you won't act like an idiot, if you those words are not true,,you won't have with me if you don't like me, if you don't want me,,,saengie continued..he himself doesn't know how far the confrontation will go,,,

"enough,,just leave me alone,,,hyun joong said,,that was the only phrase he could response...

"but hyun  joong,,i won't let you have with me i don't like it,,,hyun joong i lov~~~~ saengie uttered but was cut...

"~~that was just ,,i just want your body,,i just find your body too hot,,i just need it,,we were living in the same house and i was just always being temted,,so now,,if you have nothingto say,,just leave me me alone,,,hyun joong said not even let the other finished his words,,,

YOung saeng had widened his eyes,,? huh,,!!! is that so,, you just want my body? you just want a from me? is that so? so iwaswrong,,and you are a liar..you don't like me,,you even love me,,,,? and you are just acting that you were hurting,,

"tskkk,,,love,,how can we love each other,,,i love my girlfriend,,and this wound, this blood i just accidentally threw my phone to the frame and i cut myself,,,,hyun joong laughed...

"what? then why did you threw your phone? saengie can't believe what hyun joong was sying right now,,opposite to what he heard the last time and the day they were in the honeymoon..

"i was called by harabeoji and was demanding for something again,,he wanted me to treat you out,,,my goodness until when we follow their stupid demands,,,,im sick of it,,,,hyun joong said but the the truth he was lying,he was being dishonest,,he never received call from harabeoji and being told to do things according to the elders will,,,those things are his own plan...

~~~flashback~~~

"halmeoni,,, can you tell saengie that we will be havingour honeymoon and tell him you planned this long timeago,,,hyun joong said begging for the elderswhom he treated outside for lunch...

"Honeymoon? the two elders excplaimed in excitement...

"yes,,i want to go to have fun with him,,he was stress out this days,,,

"ok,,,call,,,we will tomorrow morning we will go to your house,,,so prepare early,,,,

...The next day the elders came and due to schedules, the favor was gone into his mind, he forgot about it until he heard a commotion downstairs and panic for tnot preparing himself that they even slept separately,,so it goes in a rush,,all was an act from hyun joong, act like he was innocent about that,,but the truth he planned it all but he didn't know tat day was saengie and his girl's anniversary...he felt guilty about that...

~~end flashback~~

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How dare you play with me? saengie said, teeth gritted in anger as he gave the man a slap on the face...

"you said you like it too, is good right? so why don't we do it now..been days since you left,,,hyun joong gave a devilish smirked as he grab the boy on waist and lay him forcefully on the bed he kissed him like a harsh fellow longing for ..he lift the guy's shirt and kisssed him elsewhere while the boy start tearing in pieces....

"stop it,,,i should have not told myself that i like you too,,i should have shrug all those tings..i should have not thought of it,,i should have not let myself fall for someone like you,,,saengie let his sobs down and pushed the man on his top,,he exited the room after throwing the bandage to him and fixing his shirt,,,

Hyun joong was stunned to where he was pushed,,can't believe what he had heard,,, can't believe the he was loved back by the other..what he had done just right now? he lied to himself, he lied to him,, he took back his words of love to him, he disrespect the boy, di he just ruined the molded love of his partner..?

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...here is the update,,happy cold afternoon.. and thankyu for new subbies,,,and please comment,,,i need inspirations,,,love ya all..hope this chappy is good...