3 months later......

"kim hyun joong~~hyun joong~~~~kim hyun jooo~~oong~~~~ saengie murmured repeatedly, childishly playing with his finger while walking back and forth and scratch his head desperately when he can't  remember anything about the name kim hyun joong..,,,

"Young saeng ah~~~~ a man called the boy and stopped him from waking back and forth...

"hyung~~~i am young saeng,,HEO YOUNG SAENG right? my name is heo young saeng? and you said kim hyun joong is a precious man to me..wae? is he my father? our father? ahmm my bestfriend? that kim hyun joong is a guy right so it is impossible that he is my lover,,,ahhh~~~saengie said and imagined and shook his head when he thinks about him being  a lover,,,

"saengie,,sit down first,,,you make hyung feel dizzy,,the older said and sat the boy to the chair beside him,,,

"but hyung why i can't remember him,,,what he looks like? you said i am a singer..is he a singer too? or ahhh maybe we are partner,,are we bandmate? but who are the other members...? saengie starts to question the same again,,the same questions he asked everyday,,,

"no,,you are soloist and he is a oloist too..soon you will meet him,,he is busy and he doesn't have much time,,,the hyung said giving him a glass of orange juice and his medicine...

"hyuuu~~~ng,,,call him and tell him to come,,,can we just go back to korea? if he can't fly here immediately why don't we go fly over there...zooommmmmm~~~...saengie said and pretend to fly running around the space of the garden...

"aigoo..yahhhh!! saengie,,sit down...come here,, a girl came and held the boy to sit again..aigoo...look at yurself,,you're thinking too much again,,you play too much again,,you're sweating already..yeobeo, i told you to stop him running around!!,,.the noona scolded the boy while wiping the sweat and blame the husband,,,

"noona,,,,hyung doesn't want to go to korea,,i want to know more about kim hyun joong,,KIM HYUN JOONG~~~ saengie said smiling while emphasizing every syllables of the name that he cant even remember what he looks like in person,,all he knows is the kim hyun joong that his known hyung and noona had told him about,,,he wiggled a lot as he whined for it...

"aigoo,,saengie,,stop wiggling,, you're perspiring too much,,you want to go back to the doctor? i will give you to doctor jung,,you want to stay with him?,,noona threatened the boy childishly...

"eooo!!!eo!!!no! no! no!,,,hyung~~~ saengie cried and pouted like a litte 3 year old kid...

"aigoo..arasseo...we won't give you to him,,,get inside now and take your bath,,,,we will need to go visit your therapist,,,,hyung said and pat the head...

"ahhhh that beautiful miss choi? azzaaa! saengie said brightly with wide smile on his face and dashed inside to get his bath...

"aigoo,,that kid,,if he just know his past,...the older boy said as he look at saengie disappearing inside..

"so what were your plans about him? is hyun joong really coming? you always tell him that hope....i'm sure  his family really worried about their son,,,coming here just once in a whie will not help their son to recover sooner,,why don't we just take him in korea so that he'll remember everything?..take him to hyun joong and live with him,,,,.the girl said...or just tell him whose hyun joong is...she suggested..

"i don't know,,they are not ready yet for the situation to be revealed,,and besides it's their plan to hide saengie.....the man said..

It had been 3 months since they took saengi  to london and there had his medication,,,but because of some damages he had from the accident..the memories he had were banished,,he could remember names but the interactions to those names were unclear and he can't remember,,,his childishness also is a result from it,,,

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Hyun joong exhaustedly flop down to the couch at the resting area,,,waiting for his next song to sing when spica members passed by the room,,the door is happened to be opened and so juhyun saw him and knock,,,"can i come in? juhyun asked for permission from the boy..

"eo,,you can,,,,hyun joong answered softly...

"oppa,,is there any news about young saeng oppa? she asked...expectedly by hyun joong...

"hyun joong just smiled,and look up to the ceiling...isn't your agency responsible in looking for him? but seems you're the only one concern about it? ask them maybe they have news already....he said with a little chuckle...

"oppa...mianhae,,,im really sorry,,juhyun said bowing to the man infront of him whom hadn't even face her...

"what to sorry for? everything was already done... hyun joong said and heaving a deep sigh....but able to give the girl a smile as he look at her through the mirror...

"Hyun joong,,it's your turn...his manager called and inform him..

"i have to go,,,,hyun joong stood up as he told the girl whose head still facing the floor..."ahh by the way don't worry about him,,,im sure saengie is happy to where he is right now,,we just need to hope for the best and find him,,,he added and walked pass her,,he took his phone from his pocket and smiled as he glance at his lover hat was on his screen smiling happily.,,,,he smiled too, a smile as if nothing is bothering him,,,"miss you so much baby..he mumbled and put back his phone on his pocket before entering the stage again...

"before i go on,,,i want to tell everyone how much i miss the person whom i loved and the person whom i will not tired to love,,,i'm sorry to everyone if my words will upset you but i want to be true now,,mmaybe this will cause me to fall but i am reay to face it now and i won't get scared of it,,,if my ratings will go down, that means you hate me, but if it goes on the level,, thank you for that,,,it had been more than a year since i found the true love to him,,yes it's HIM,,but now, i don't think this love will exist still,, but wherever you are right now or whatever you are doing,i want everyone to know that i love you and i miss you. i'm still waiting for you,,,he announced, at last he able to let everyone knows his heart, controlling himself to cry, he smiled as he bowed to everyone for a minute,,,

After few minutes of silence,, the sounds started to play,,,it may not be a pleased to the station and to the viewers what was he had done on stage right now,,still he is ready to face the consequences in the future,,,he lift up his face and saw everyone in awe until he started to sing the first lyrics and there the screams and fanchants started to boost and make noise in the audience area..he smiled,,,while singing and dance to it,,it may not be clear of  what was that chant for, he sure knows that his chest had refresh from being too loaded in pains and his mind become wider and scrapped all the worries from the netizens...

Right after the performance which is his last he took his way to his restroom again with his managerbehind,,rushing like he is in an urgent call..he change into casual suit and exited the room,,,

"Hyun joong!! the manager calls,,,where are you going? you'll search for young saeng again? look,,why don't you just leave everything to his agency and his family?, the manager told...

"i'm his family,,,hyun joong nonchalantly cut the manager,,,

"look,,,what i mean is,,you're tired and busy, there are lots of people who has much more time to find him,,,just get rest,im sure everything will go well,,,the manager said,,,and one more thing,, do you know what have you done there? what have you said there?

"forget it,, i don't need to explain about that,,just wait for the result,,if it turns bad then you can throw me and abandon me,, then if my rating remains the same then lucky for me,,,,,,hyun joong replied and turn his back running away from his manager, taking his own car and drive, just drive continuosly without any stop,,,turning the stereo loudly and sped up his car,,,

Soon when he gets tired driving alone in the lonely road,,he decided to stop and go home,,,all memories pass by his thought as everytime he goes home at their couple house,,reminiscing the memories and bad things that hppened in that house, how they fought, how they argue,,but inspite of those memories,,he laughed like a crazy man, alone, and cried after,,,he excitedly exited his car and entered the house,,flopping his body on saengie's bed and sniff unto it..the scent of the perfume of his lover that he sprayed to that bedsheets and pillows and to the whole room, it makes himself feeling great and addicted more as he misses the lover more,,

"Ahhhhhh i want to see you soon,,,i miss you so much,,hope watever you are doing now,,you are fine and healthy, and also happy,,,i will be happy if you are,,,,,,he talked to the frame on the side table,,,

""Ahhhh im hungry,,,shall we cook? i want to eat with you,,,shall we? he said and poke the picture....aigoo so pretty,,he commented and smiled...he blinked several time and hit his temple,,,crazy!!! he yelled in his mind,,,he knows, his yearning to see the lover again mkes himself being too crazy and upset sometimes,,,it makes his routine everyday to smile alone and laugh,,,,he hugged the pillow, sniff the scent again before exiting the room and headed to the kitchen to please his growling stomach...he lazily opened the instant cup noodles and pour a hot water,,he sat down  to the chair and wait for it to be cooked,,,remembering his conversation to kyu jong,,,saengie's bestfriend and representative,,,

~flashback~

"why did you call me? he asked as soon as he reach the meeting place,,,

"sit down first,,,kyu told,,,

"if you are asking me about~~~~ hyun joong talked while sitting..

"Hyun joong,,just tell me if you know where he is,,,i am still his bestfriend and i have the right to~~~kyu jong cut the boy but he was then cut by the man,,

"bestfriend? since when?...if you are his bestfriend,, why did you let him suffer,,you never showed any sign of friendship when he was with us,,,instead you forbid him to where he can be happy,,,

"because it will ruin his life. his career..

"owhhh you mean i can be the one to ruin his life,,,,,but do you know how much we love each other? i bet no,,or you just don't want to know...

"look, there is nothing like happiness in your relationship,, both of you are respectful hallyu star,,,i've done that because i am his bestfriend,, i care for him,,,,

"no..you've done those things because you are his employer,,you are the president of his agency who is responsible to the talent's rising and just knows how to protect his reputation,,of course saengie will be a big issue to your company,,and it is too shameful for you that your agency is raising a talent who has a relationship homoualy,,right?

"look,,,hyun joong~~~im not here to have such arguments,,,,

"don't ask me again about the whreabout of your talent coz i don't know where he is,,,or, it is possible that you are keeping him and asking me is just a trick so that no one will suspect that you have this guy...am i thinking too weird or am i assuming the truth? hyun joong sarcastically said with his smirk and left,,,,

~end flashback~

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Days had passing through the stressful busy achedues of hyun joong, and the days that young saeng had suffered of remembering every single memories of him,,,

Hyun joong overcome every hour of yearning to his lover while saengie try to overcome the unclear memories of his life,,,hyun joong misses his lover but saengie is eager and curious to the name he first mentioned as he woke up from his nightmare,,,Kim hyun joong,,he always force himself to remember what is so good to that name, what is so important to tht name,,

Weeks then passed, months by months until some of the memories had been easily cleared his mind, but the thing he was curious about is the mysterious person he can't remember a single thing,,,only the letters composing the complete whole name was a remembrance to his mind,,he went back to his right mind along his right age, ,he is not a boy with 3 year old memory now,,the progress of his theraphy is too helpful for his past recovery,,,he remembers the family members but was left the memories of  hyun joong's case even the hyung who was taking care of him right now, there is no memory of him being his brother,,,

After meeting his therapist, he decided to leave a note, decided to leave the current country and go back to korea to search for the remaining memories,,,

NOTE:attach to the refrigerator...

Hyung, i know i'm a bit rude,,i talked to ms.choi and got permitted to travel back to korea,,she has a good friend who just came back from canada,, a good therapist too,,,,i had my memories back, well some but she told me i can go back there along with a guardian, but since i know you wont permit me, i took my passport while you're gone from home,,i'm sorry, im in the airport right now and the moment you are reading this note, maybe im departing already,,no need to follow me to the airport, sorry,,i really miss eomma, appa, and halmeoni, and i am dying of knowing who is hyun joong,, i want to meet him,,i took his contact number from your address book too,,i saw that name,,there's only one kim hyun joong right?,,i will just call eomm to fetch me to seoul airport, im sure they will be surprise from me and they will be happy to see me,,see you soon in korea hyung,,,,,,

Saengie excitedly entered the boarding plane...he sat comfortably, he wore his shades and hat to be safe since he was told by his hyung that he needs to be careful to any media because he is too popular around the world especially in korea,,,he breathed heavily and smiled,,he can't even make a nap while waiting for the plane to land,,he is so excited and he keeps whispering the name of kim hyun joong again,,it became a routine for him to mention the name whenever he is desperately wanted to know about him,,,,

Soon the announer spoke to fasten their seatbelt and clearly mention that they already arrived the vicinity of seoul,,,he blew air from his mouth and fasten his seabelt as he gasped more air while the plane is slowly taking his land to the landing area...then finally he was releived and the plane landed safely,,he peek on the window,,,,waahhhh!!!!this is korea?!!!! yahhh kim hyun joong~~~let's meet arasseo? he mumbled and walked out of the plane with  wide grin on his face...

He was walking after he took his luggage, searching for the number of his eomma that he had saved to his smart phone,,,carelessly not looking on his way, he bumped unto someone and there some screams came..he wonder and a piece of memory with screaming went through his mind,,,,he stopped as he patted his temple,,,

"are you alright? a man asked...

He lift his head and apologize politely when he came to his senses,,,,"im sorry,, i didn't notice you coming and i am busy looking at my phone,,he apologize as he bowed,,

"You~~~young saeng? a man who is the reason of commotion and  the screams and noise to all the people with banners mentioned the name with wide eyes..shocked of what he ws seeing right now, he is in disbelief,,,the boy was covered with sunglasses and cap but he knows as his heart skip a bit as soon as he sw that guy...

"eo~~~shhhhhh...you know me?,,i'm sorry but please don't mention it,,hyung told me to be careful,,i had some memory problem so please don't tell anyone that you saw me....saengie said as he begged to the man,,,

"de?~~the man esponse in awe, he can't utter his words,,,,

Saengie then run away to avoid the crowd leaving the stunned man,,,"eo!!!eomma!!!it's me young saeng..i'm in seoul airport right now,,can you fetch me? i'll be waiting,,there are lots of people so be quick,,call me as soon as you arrive here...bye!!,,,,he said  as soon as his call was answered and drop it immediately after informing his eomma that he arrive seoul already and he needs a fetch,,,

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Hyun joong just arrive from overseas event,, he waved to the fans,,his spot to the industry remains the same now after his cofession about his love, thought the first week had goes down, he immediately recovered the trust of the fans,,he is wavinf with his smile when someone make in his way and bumped unto him,,,

"are you alright? he asked immediately as soon as he saw the guy seems feeling unwell...

'The lift his head and apologize immediately,,"im sorry,, i didn't notice you coming and i am busy looking at my phone,,the guy said..

"yo~~young sae? he mentioned in disbelief,,he knows it the moment the guy lift his head, his heart beat faster,,eeing his lover infront of him,,he may not sure with the disguise the guy have, and he knows that the lover he knows is in london and not in korea, unless his lover came back again,,,

"eo~~~shhhhhh...you know me?,,i'm sorry but please don't mention it,,hyung told me to be careful,,i had some memory problem so please don't tell anyone that you saw me....the guy said as he begged to him,,,

Hyun joong can't utter his words,,he is sure now, that guy is his lover,,his tears fell down his cheeks,,he fought ot his mind whether to hug the guy or not with that crowd and not only that, he froze when the guy didn't even remember him...

The guy runs, his eyes widened more as the tears escaped to hi big eyes,,,,he gulped,,he look behind to check the guy but he was gone already,,,Young saeng~~~he uttered in low tone,,he walk fast to search forgetting that there is fans he needed to greet and entertain....saengie~~~ he mumbled as he look around the many people who were on the airport but saengi is nowhere to find,,,

The fans came to him until he can't escape anymore,,,he wants to run and search again but he can't do it,,the chance hug his lover again was gone,,,...The manager took him from the crowd,,,and take him to the vanunconscious mentally...

"Yahhh! what happen to you,,you seems you saw a ghost or what an why you run to that crowd suddenly? are you crazy? the manager scolded the man...

"saengie~~~he mumbled again not even listening to his manager..his phone rang, he answered but the moment he answered his eyes went teary again,,,,

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Young saeng run outside,,he peek inside again to look for the man he had bumped to a while ago,,,who is he? and is there an artist or what,,there are so many fans,,,he thought asking,,,,he keeps roaming his eyes,,hoping to see  the man again,,,then he finally saw him running and looking for something,,who is he looking to? wahhhh is he an artist too?, he murmur when he saw the fans coming to the man chasing him,,, lucky me? but he knows me...is he a seonbaenim?,,is he gad he saw me? why he cried? i saaw those tears,,is he close to me,,ahhh so stupid young saeng,,why you can't remember anything other than your family...haisstttt... i just wish he will not tell the other artist that he saw me,,,,he mumbled and turn around when the man was blocked by fans and he can't see him anymore....

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...update...please leave a comment,,,,i know its too fast but lets make it to the next level....thakyu for reading,,,did i mess in this chapter? did i mess your mind rather..? keke,,,,

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