Hyun joong can't actually believe on what or who he had met at the airport,,he was thinking still, is he really that person? if yes what is he doing here? he can't remember yet,,,no!!!! he mumbled shaking his head frustratedly,,,he facepalm himself, burrying his exhausted face with his both palms,,,he took out his phone from his pocket when it rings suddenly,,, he shifted from his seat,,,he suddenly felt nervous when he saw the caller i.d its his older brother who lives in london and currently his lover's guardian,,,

It was already months long when his cousin hyung jun bump to saengie, the time saengie had run away from the hospital bringing with him the two names he don't recognize,,even though he mentioned his name, he didn't realize that it was his,,and the other is kim hyun joong,,,three words composing a single name that he doesn't know to whom it belong though he saw the owner of that name the moment he woke up from his bed in the hospital..

~flashback~

Hyung jun was on his way to the hospital to visit his cousin's lover,,and that is young saeng, who happened run away from the ward and it was a pure coinsidence when he saw him walking with the hospittal clothes still and with lots of bandages in every part,,,

He stopped the car and chase after the wounded and injured man,,,,when he catched him, the boy immediately asked who he was,,,

"''Who are you? the injured boy asked back surprisingly to him,,

"Me? you~~~ you don't know me? im....i am,,,,i am ,,,your hyung,,,,he denied, pretend to be one, thinking that if he answers him that he was just someone he knows, the boy will panic and try to run away from him,,,,let's go back to the hospital huh,,hyun jun said a bit shocke,,,,

"Hyung? saengie thought,,,,no i don't like to go to the hospital,,,i want to go home, he refused,,and why i have this bandages,,,saengie frantically told the guy,,,

"eo,,,he can't really remember? eotteokke,,,where~~~~ shall i~~~~ hyung jun keeps thinking on what to do, shall he just drop him home or take him to his home,,or just take him to the hospital,,,but this guy is really popular,,,if any paparazzi will see his condition,,it's a big news to all,,,no!!! that can't be,,i need to hide him,,he said and carefully take him inside the car and drove...

"YAhhh where will you take me? saengie yelled,,,,

"somewhere nice,,,hyung will take you to his secret place,,hyung jun said with a naughty grin in his face,,,

"mwo? yahhhh helpppppp!!!! kidnapper!!!! help!!!! saengie scream like a kid,,he cried while seeking for a rescue,,,

"yahhhh!!! no one will hear you,,no one will help you,,only hyung could help you,,stop crying like a baby,,,aigoo,,,,the man, said,,,,,

Saengie shut his mouth and pouted,,frowning and sniffing non stop,,,

Hyung jun took him in their house, the couple house,,,,the boy hold his head feeling  a bit dizzy and head aches...he sat him on the couch and finally remembers he need to call his cousin to inform,,,

"While on the other hand hyun joong were panicking at the hospital, and stopped rummaging every wards when someone had spoken and told that he saw a patients who was taken by someone,,,They were about to report to the police when hyun joong's phone rang,,,

"de? we are busy here,,i thought you were coming?!!! saengie is missing!!! he yelled to the phone,,,

"I know hyung,,,he's with me,,i saw him outside so i took him,,,,he doesn't want to go back to the hospital,,,hyung jun announced...

"Mwo? where are you? hyun joong asked...

"To your house,,,the cousin answered,,,bring a doctor,,,he's crying,,,he said his head is in pain,,,hyung,,,faster,,,,,hyung jun starts to panic behind the call...

"De..we're coming,,don't leave him,,,we'll be there in a few minutes...hyun joong said,,,ending the call and inform te others,,he ran to the information to call for an available doctor,,soon the docotr who was checking the patient came to the information and left the hospital to attend the whereabout of the patient,...

They reach the house quickly,,,and saw the boy passed out,,it was just a day since the accident happen and it was just a miracle that he made his conscious in just an overnight,,but now seeing the patient passing out and almost not breathing, sweating beads,, it is just a sign that he is not really recovered yet,,,

Hyun joong immediately carried the boy up to the room following behind is the doctor while the family were worried to death,,,

The doctor treated him temporarily to calm the boy,,injecting some pain relievers and some medicines that he didn't able to take the whole day,,that makes the boy in so much pain,,,

Saengie had calm down,,he breathed normally but the pulse is unstable,,,soon,,the ambulance came and immediately rushed him again to the emergency room to check him again,,,,it was nearly midnight when he was done examining by the doctors and nurses,,,

Hyun joong, though he was still worried of the condition of his beloved boyfriend had able to calmed down and felt a little relief, at least the boy was found and nothing had happened to him while in that state...he sighed heavily and came to his cousin to thank,, he didn't utter more words but just a simple thank you and a pat on the head with a smile,,,just saying and wanted to show to the younger how pthankful he was,,,On the other hand the younger just smile and rub the back of his hyung as a sign of comfort,,,

All were at peace at the moment,,,saengie is sleeping quietly aside from a once in a while of wince and frown while sleeping,,maybe it is a sign of pain,,but the doctor regulary attend the patient to see the condition and inject some pain relievers everytime the boy wince in pain...

It has been days already and the patient hadn't woke up,,,hyun joong who is worried from everything,,,especially the condition of his lover and followed by the fact that media keeps looking for informations of why the name has gone in the screen and some shows that he supposedly attending were all cancelled,,,to avoid any commotion and make the boy in peace,,hyun joong, as a lover decided to take permission from his lover's parents to take him overseas and there continue to take medications,,,and it was approved,believing the man and trusting him like before...

He took his lover secretly overseas along with the doctor he requested to accompany the patient while travelling,,they arrived london and the doctor recommended them to his doctor friend in there,,,Hyun joong's brother who were living in london with his wife ask them to be the guardian while saengie was recovering,,,

Weeks and months had passed but the boy can't remember anything still,,,all he knows  is that his current guardian is his biological brother which is not,,,He was visited by his parents once in a while,,all the things he believe were true just tolerated by the parents, not wanted to cause any rucus to their son's mind and thought that if they contradict everything, their will just mess his memory more,,, just like how he believed that the name kim hyun joong is just a bestfriend to him,,,

~end flashback~

"hyun joong, you're phone is ringing,,don't you want to answer it? the manager snap him from his deep thought...

"eo!!! finally he woke up and saw his phone still ringing non stop,,,"Yeoboseyo? he answered...

"Yahhh why are you not picking up your call? i called you many times and i even texted you,,what are you doing? his hyung who is behind that call yelled immediately in panic,,,saengie is in korea right now...he didn't inform me,,,he just left home while we were out,,,,

"De...i saw him but he didn't recognize me yet,,,,hyun joong said in a bit disappointed tone, lowering his voice to not able to let the manager and other in thevan will know who is he talking to, and carefully not mentioning any names,,,,though he knows that his lover has his amnesia and no need to expect much,,he was still feels so upset,,he is the lover but even a single thing, he doesn't remember but the name only,,,...No one knows the whereabout of saengie even his bestfriend and CEO kyu jong,,he and their family are the ones who kept the secret and they didn't let the public knows about it,,,

"mianhae,,,his hyung apologize...

"nothing to sorry hyung,,i bothered you too much already,,thank you for taking care of him,,,i don't need to worry too,,he remembers his family already,,,,he added more upset...

"But he will remember everything soon,,you can stay beside him,,he wants to see you that's why he decided to go back there in korea,,,he always ask about you,,he is curious,,,but i am not sure if he willo accept the fact that you are his boyfriend,,,,,his hyung said,,

"De hyung gomawo,,i'll take your words,,,hyun joong makes himself worried more and and upset because of those words,,,he hang the phone,,looking out the tinted window of the van,,caressing his chin with his index finger while biting the lower lip, he was thinking,,what if saengie won't really accept him as a lover? is this the end of them? is this really their fate? is this how their love ends, it's cruel if it will end just like this,,,he'd rather accept being dump by saengie if he is in his right mind rather than being dump not knowing what is true about their love...

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Young saeng patiently waiting his eomma to fetch him from the airport,,he drew invisible circles on the tiled floor of the airport with his foot hugging his backpack while sitting on his luggage,,

"Saengie yah~~ an older voice of woman called....

"Eomma~~~~ saengie childishly run towards his mom to hug her,,with his wide smile, he looks really happy seeing his mom and behind her is his beloved halmeoni who is waiting to be recognized...

"halmeoni~~~ saengie finally approached the old lady and gave her a tight hug,,,i missed you,,,

"aigoo~~` i thought you can't remember me,,,,the old lady said as he patted his grandsonon the back,,,

"aigoo~~~ halmeoni,,i remember all of you,,,slowly,,,soon i will able to remember everything,,that's why i came back here with you,,and i want to see someone,,,saengie said excitedly,,,

"ahhh hyun joong,,,,he misses you so much,,,halmeoni said,,,,

" yes halmeoni,,,i want to see my beloved bestfriend,,,he didn't even visited me while i am there,,he just always write...saengie spat out,,

''de...your~~~ your bestfriend,,halmeoni said agreeing to the boy's belief, looking away,,she can't show how hurt she was and how she pitying the frandson who couldn't recognize his love to the man,,,

They depart from the airport, heading home,,he fell asleep from the way,,the two ladies were silent,,,just an hour later they arrived home, he hopped immediately to his bed,,,to the bed that has a different scent,,a familiar scent,,"ahhh the scent so sweet,,,he mumbled,,sniffing the cottonsheet of the bed,,,he seems sddicted on that smell,,,maybe it is his favorite perfume that he uses when he was there,,,,,,,,

He roam around the room,,checking his clothes,,,curiously checking every clothes he had on that cabinet,,what style he used way back then, his stuff,,there's no much stuff left,,he pouted,,he thought maybe his eomma kept them to not spoil,,he took out his variety of perfumes, that was lined up to the three layered stand on the side of his cabinet,,he smiled,,thinking what is the possible favorite perfume he uses the most,,,he sniff every scent, finding the scent he had smell on that bed...he widely grin as he saw the last one,,with a blue shades of bottle,,maybe this one,,he uttered, he took it with excitement and sprayed a little,,with his disappointment,,the expected smell he wanted wasn't that one,,he sighed,,staring at the bed,,,,he lazily walked towards the bed and hug the pillow which has the same scent,,,

"is this a fabric conditioner? he questioned himself,,,,he threw both of his arms on his side and closed his eyes and  blank face pass the dark vision,,,he fell asleep dreaming of the familiar guy,,,he was reaching he hand but it's like just an air that he can't touch,,,

"comeback!!!! he shouted in his dream,,,he shifted And his eyes opened with his breathing to deep and fast..."dreaming again..he murmured,,he got up and exited the room,,it is still 4 in the afternoon but it seems he stayed there for days already,,he felt a bit bored,,,

"Eomma!!! he called,,,,

''Eo! wae? eomma responded appearing from the kitchen...

"Eomma where is hyun joong? i want to meet him,,hyung said he is the one who saved me,,,aishhhhhh,,im so excited to meet him,,,but i can't remember his face,,,why there's no picture on my room? all my stuffs..did you kept them? and the scent of my bedsheets,,,what fabric conditioner did you use?,,do you use that oftenly? or did i ask you to use that,,i like that smell,,,saengie questioned after a question...

"that thing,,,eomma can't find an answer, remembering what is happening while he is not around,,"hyun joong is staying at your own house,,,,yes he saved you,,,your stuff were placed at your own house,,,that scent,,that scent is maybe your husband's scent,,,those were the answers she wanted to say but she can't,,she kept silent until saengie just left,,,,

Saengie left his eomma without having an answer,he used to it,, can't have any answers oftenly,,maybe he questioned a lot that everybody got annoyed to him so he just shrug his own questions and just let it slide and hoping one day he could find those answers still...

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......

Hyun joong with his manager arrived at the company,,he headed straightly to the practice room,,,he dance one of his song and fell down the floor after,, laying on the hard floor he lay flat his arms, stretching them widely,,staring at the ceiling and spacing out,,,he can't imagine his life being without his lover,,,he can't imagine himself being just a bestfriend of his boyfriend,,how can he endure it,,how can he able to feel easy,,,how can he not feel guilty,,,"Is this a karma on what i have done? it was an accident...he thought,,he place his arm on his forehead as the tears fell down from his side eyes,,,"baby im sorry,,,he mumbled repeatedly,,,i'm sorry,,,

He remembered his fault, he remembered his selfishness,,he remembered how his plan had failed,,,he hired someone to hit someone and cause an accident,,,

~flashback~

"Yahhh kim hyun joong,,you're seeing young saeng again right?! jungmin yelled with fury..

"and so what? he is my boyfriend,,and look,,the rumour had gone,,,so please stop interfering with our business,,,he yelled back...

"Mwo? yahhhh,,get married,,,marry her,,,jungmin said,,more on commanding him...

"Mwoo!!! hyun joong exclaimed,,that's impossible,,,even if its just a contract marriage,,i can't do it,,you know how much uee likes this plan,,she gets serious on this,,i don't want to give her the hopes to this relationship,,no,,definitely no!!!!he screamed refusingly 

"Whether you like it or not,,you will do the contract marriage,,remember hyun joong,,your contract is worth a billion,,i'm telling you,,i don't want to loose a billion of amount,,,jungmin told shaking his head,,,

"im not your pet,,,,hyun joong replied angrily,,,

"you are my PET,,hyun joong,,as longas the contract is not ended,,you are mine and you will do whatever i instructed you!!!! go!!!! jungmin yells more...

He left with his angry face,,,slamming the door,,thinking what he could possibly do this time,,,how can he now tell his boyfriend,,,he panic mentally,,his vision became blank,,,he called someone,,someone he knew wayback inhis highschool,,the known gangster wayback then,,that friend recommended someone who could hire him and help with his problem,,,he was directed to that person and soon he gave what he wanted him to do,,,to cause an accident to one person,,

"One day Uee came to his house unexpectedly,,she entered the house and find the boy's room,,saengie is not coming home for tonight,,right timing, he thought,,he called someone while uee was heading upstairs to the room,,,

"De...if she comes out,,just do it,,,he instructed,,,he was desperate already,,,his own desire to make saengie be with him led himself to do this brutal plan,,not totally a brutal,,just wanted to make the girl suffer from injury and make her treated for long and make the marriage be postponed and neglected for a while,,and then saengie and him will leave the country to live their own life and start anew,,

While doing the plan,,it is unexpected too that saengie came and saw the both of them laying on the bed that makes a misunderstanding to them,,,saengie run outside the dark road,,with the sudden commotion,,,and with the dark area,,it was a mistake that saengie is the one who got hit,,his mind went blank,,,

~end flashback~

He sniff, still remembering the details of his plan that ended up a failure and now his lover is the one suffering and he is suffering from guiltiness,,,suffering on how he could get back his lover,,,

"practicing? a female voice spoke,, you're working too hard,,,can we go out? she asked...

Hyun joong didn't bother to look at her,,he knows it is uee,,,what are you doing here? we're done a long time ago,,,the contract had ended the time saengie was gone,,,he reminded her..

"I know,,i just want to eat outside,,,look,,,young saeng ssi is gone,,why keep thinking baout him,,he left you already,,,why don;t you start your life with me,,,,,uee said, advising the boy,,,

"We're done,,nothing will change uee so stop your craziness,,don't appear infront of,,whenever i see you,,you just reminding me what i have done to him,,,,you should be the one who have gone and not him! hyun joong raise a voice while gripping to the girl's arm,,

"mwo!!! uee wonder as he pulloed his arm from the grip of the man,,,

Hyun joong blink his eyes several times letting his tears fell again,,he stood up and run but was stopped at the door when a call came,,,an unknown user,,he slowly answered it...

"Hi,,is this kim hyun joong? a voice behind asked,,a familiar voice, soft, calm,,bright,,,

"Yes it is,,,who is this? he asked,,,

"ahhh de..it's young saeng,,,HEO YOUNG SAENG,,,you know what happen to me right? i got amnesia and i cna't still remember you,,they said you're my bestfriend,i want ot know and thank you for saving me,,,can we meet tonight? i know you are busy,,i'll be heading to your place already,,i got your address from my eomma,,,see you later,,i'll be waiting,,,saengie said and cut the line,,,,,

Hyun joong became frozen on that door,,he grip tightly to the door frame,,feeling numb and weak on his knees...he didn't able to answer or utter words,,,,

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ENJOY!!!!!!!LOL

a bit late greetings,, happy easter,,it's palm sunday today,,,,

love is unconditional just like how Our ALMIGHTY suffered from being tortured for the sake of HIS sons and daughters,,,He never complained how painful it was, every hit, every blood dripping and bruise He got,, He endured everything for US to be saved,,he never complained that we resent him, we denied HIM, He never forsake us though we do it to Him,,,

BUt us human always complained how hurtful and painful being heartbroken,,being dumped by the one you like,,we compalained being alone, complained that you waited 10 minutes because your lover is late,,complained that your lover is incapable of giving you a dozen of white roses,,not being treated at a fine restaurant,,we argue in just small things,,,we never been satisfied in everything, everything's not enough, there is always missing,,we never be contended to the love alone,,

Let's talk to Him once in a while,,,i know all of us have differentreligions and belief but we only worship one God, and that's the one who saved us from Sins..i respect every religions,,it is not the religion matters it is how we believe in Him,,,