Seeing him with the roses made me smile in the slightest; how sweet I thought

“Hey, I’m going to…you know…”

“Go on, shoo” Heechul said, making a ‘shooing’ motion with his hands, “Shoo!!”

“Alright” I said, rolling my eyes

“Good luck!” Hae and Sungmin yelled after me.

Deep breathe, you can do this; they were alright with it…may- no the reaction will be the same, it will! I repeated to myself, slowly making my way to Dongho.

Lifting a shaking hand I tapped his shoulder, closing her eyes

“I’m sorry, I’m waiting for someone” opening my eyes I looked at him

“Oh really? Fine then I’ll just go and wait for my date who was two hours late”

“Two hours? What a jerk”

“Oh for god sake, it’s me Dongho! Aiden!”

I wish I taped his reaction, his eyes widen so much it makes me laugh, “What the hell are you wearing?”

“Heechul’s idea” I say, “Those for me?”

“Huh? Oh, yeah…” he said shyly, handing her the bouquet “I’m sorry”

I take it and smile even more, “Thank you…”

“I hope I didn’t miss the chance to dance with you…Also, you look very pretty”

“Thank you, again. And no, still just in time”

“Good” I felt him hold my hand, “Because then I would have been upset” he said, twirling me around.

“Alright, now for the couples; a slow dance for you all!” I laughed quietly

“How do you have the perfect timing?” I ask, Dongho just shrugs, smirking

“I’m just lucky”

“I guess so” I said, before he twirled me around and brought me close

Spinning around, slow steps; it was my second time dancing to such a slow song, I stared at my feet. Embarrassed by how close we were; when the song ended his face came closer but I pull away, to his disappointment.

“I’m gonna go out and get some fresh air”

“O-Okay, I’ll get something to drink and meet you out there?”

“Sure” Dongho said, smiling slightly; walking out of the gym.

I rush to Sungmin’s side, immediately saying “I don’t think I can do this anymore!”

“What?” he asked then asked “Why?”

“I’m afraid, what if he rejects the real me…”

“Aiden” he says sternly “You need to man up and tell him the truth okay? Everything will be alright” he finished hugging me before shooing me away. I sighed and got a drink before going outside and found Dongho under a tree; taking a deep breath I walked over to him, leaning against the tree, head slightly bowed

“Quieter out here…” he says, I nod in agreement

“Ne, my poor ears…” chuckling he looks over at me

“You okay? You seem out of it…”

“…You can say that…” I spoke softly, looking up a bit, towards the sky.

“What’s on your mind?”

And there it was; the start of the truth.

“If I tell you; will you listen…to the end…and try to understand…”

“Of course” he stood in front of me and rests his hand on my shoulder, “Please tell me”

“Okay; first off, remember the very first day I came to the dorm?” he nodded and smiled

“Well….that morning; when I landed in Seoul…I was excited to see Eli; my only brother, but he thought I was someone else since it had been years since he seen me. Thinking it was a good idea…I pretended to be who he thought, because I was afraid of rejection.” I glanced to him through my bangs and saw his expression; confusion.

“It was hard at first, but it became easier as time went on; but lately I’ve found it hard to hide it again and felt that I have to end it now.” I said softly

“End what?” Dongho asked softly

Swallowing hard I slowly grabbed his hands and placed them by his side and moved away a bit; just in case.

“My real name is Kim Adrian…and I am a girl…I’m truly sorry for lying to you…” I waited, and waited; then I heard him laughing

“Nice one Aiden; you really had me…going…there….for a second…” his laughter died slowly as I turn towards him slightly; giving him a sad expression

“Y-Your kidding right?” he asked, he sounded angry, “Tell me you are joking Aiden, this isn’t funny”

“No I am not joking; what I just said is the truth” I said facing him; and I wish I didn’t.

Dongho’s expression was pure rage; I knew I messed up big time

“So you lied to us?” He asked, taking a step closer, and I take one back

“I was afraid of rejection”

“It’s better than lying!” I flinched as he raised his voice, “How could you lie to us, lie to me!?”

“I-I’m sorr-”

“You know damn well sorry isn’t going to cut!!”

“D-Dongh-”

“Shut up, just…don’t ever talk to me; better yet, stay away from me and the dorm. I don’t ever want to see you again!!” he yelled before walking pass me, not without bumping shoulders with me; I fell to the ground, I felt weak; I lost him.

I felt tears run down my face, and at the point I was crying my heart out. I knew I should have said something in the beginning; but now it’s too late now.

I didn’t care if other students stared at me; I was broken.

While crying I didn’t notice a jacket being laid over my body until I heard a soft voice

“Come here Adrian” I looked up and saw Leeteuk, his arms outstretched; I immediately fell into his arms and cried on his shoulder

“It’s alright…everything will be alright….” Leeteuk whispered to me, trying to calm me down

“I-I messed up….b-b-big time” I sobbed, feeling hopeless.

“It’s alright…everyone makes mistakes…”

I didn’t know how long I had been crying but I soon fell asleep in his arms; thinking that I’ve messed up for good.