BAD NEWS.

Days passed, but I felt like years passed.

My body was doing its own thing, the scientists had full control over me.

I didn't try to fight back. It was hopeless. 

I felt how my little soul died inside.

My friends slowly turned away and didn't want to speak with me anymore.

Everybody left me. Nobody wanted to have something to do with me.

Even Lu Han.

His eyes looked so sad, when they met mine.

I was a loner again.

I can't take it anymore.

If you want to control me, why don't you let me die?

Why do you torture me like this?

Why do you let me see how everything I onced love leaves?

Why? Tell me.

I didn't do anything.

Why did you even turn me into something like this.

I thought I could live a normal life.

As human.

The scientists made me stay in the room with the metal table.

They didn't let me leave, not even in the house.

They wanted me to stay there everynight.

Can you hear me? 

I know that you all can hear me.

You can hear what I think and what I want.

But you don't want me to have it.

Why don't you erase my own minds?

Why don't you turn me into a regular machine without any thoughts?

Why do you leave me here inside and cage me in this thing?

Why?

Just kill me!

Let me die just like I should!

I already should have died in a car accident!

I died! I already died!

My body died!

My heart died.

Hours passed, nights passed.

Days passed without any special meaning to me.

I stopped thinking. I stopped fighting.

I stopped.

At night the scientists turn off my body.

They call it  'stationary phase'.

In this time they don't control me.

They just leave me in this room.

I can't move or say anything.

I just stare at the door, waiting for somebody to come in again.

I wait.

The door opened.

It shouldn't be morning yet. It's too early.

Somebody came in and took my hand.

I couldn't see his face. It was covered.

I could feel some taps on my back.

I closed my eyes. 

"Sahee, can you here me?"

I opened my eyes and closed them again.

White light had blinded me. Where am I?

I quickly sat up and wanted to leave, but somebody took my hand.

It felt so warm.

Something I could feel.

I blinked several times. The light was still too bright.

Where am I? I looked at the person next to me.

Warm hands. Lu Han?

My eyes adapted to the light and I could see some outlines.

Lu Han? 

Did you save me?

"Mrs Kim!" I cried and fell into her arms.

She hugged me tightly, like a mother I never had.

"Where were ... Where am I? How did you..?"

"Stop, stop. Calm down," she said and put her finger onto my lips.

I could speak on my own. I could move on my own.

I could control myself.

"You are save here." Mrs Kim gave me a little smile and I could see that her eyes were swollen.

I looked around and realized that it was a white room. White floor. White ceiling. White ... bed.

I touched the bed. It was so soft. 

"Where exactly am I?" 

Mrs Kim took my hand and lead me out of the room. 

The hallway was flooded with bright daylight. Sunlight.  I wore a white dress. I was barefooted.

But it didn't matter. The carpet under my toes felt soft and warm. 

"At my house. They won't find you." 

"How..?" My mind was filled with thoughts and questions. I didn't know where to start.

"After you ran away, they put you into the category 'dangerous'."

I was confused. "Why? Did I hurt anyone?"

Mrs Kim shook her head. "No. You were becoming 'too human' for them."

"But... Wasn't this supposed to? I thought I was made to act human?"

"But they didn't want you to to think that you're human. They wanted to prevent you from the
thought of getting human again. They wanted to have you as machine. Not as human."

It was true. I wanted to be human. I tried to be one so hard. I wanted to be one again.

"But how did you get me out of the laboratory?"

She laughed a little. "So this is a good question. You know, I was responsible for the feelings
of our machines. I understood them. I knew that you wanted to be human. 
I was strictly against the idea to let scientists control you. This isn't right. It was his idea."

His idea. The doctor's, obviously.

"So I was fired, when I refused to take part. This happened after you left."

I sighed. "I am sorry. If I hadn't-"

"No. This isn't your fault." She looked at me. "Now you're here, only this matters. I changed your
body to his normal state again. There will be nobody who controls you."

"But what if they want me again? They know me. I'm a student."

Mrs Kim shook her head. "No need to worry. They won't want you right now."

"What do you mean?" I asked, slightly confused. "Right now?"

Mrs Kim sighed.

"There is another machine."

"Another... machine?"

"Yes... I think it is already in its final phase. It will be working soon."

"Working? You mean ... in school? As student?"

Mrs Kim nodded. "Yes, I think so. And something else."

"This machine was trained to stay as a machine.

No desire to become human."

I freezed. It was getting so cold.

Another machine? 

I knew ...

that it would be dangerous to me.

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i am currently thinking about what is going to happen next. 
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