Song Ji hyo 

'am I die' , is the first words enter my head when I get my conscious back . I will never and ever forget this accident for my whole life . My head hurt like I was punched by professional boxer . I opened my eyes slowly afraid of one person . I am afraid that he will never leave me alone after this accident.  When my eyes fully open , I eyes betrayed my prayers ,cause the only one person I wanted to avoid was staring at me with his rage eyes.  This scene isn't differ from previous one , I am still in the same position , in the same room with the same person . I wondered how long I fainted and how long is he staring at me intensely . For the very first time , I wanted to blame myself for not lacking conscious for a time long enough so I can make him go away and leave me alone . He slowly picked up the photos that  cluttered on the floor . He raised the photos and looked at me in the eyes . 

"There are fifteen photos in total ... Go and make fifteen different dishes in two and half hour " my eyes windened 'if he out of his mind !! How can I manage to do all of 15 dishes in two and half hour ' . He let out a dry laugh and then walk toward me like I am some kind of prey . He squads to my level and yanks my chin roughly . 

"Do what I said or else the result isn't quite so good " his whispers are so scary and I nodded my head intensely . I quickly get up from my place na went to the kitchen . Let say , through out the dishes , I burn my hands and I can't even wipe my sweat because I am afraid it would take my precious two and half hour . I mostly choose veggies cause I don't need much time to cook them . Sometime , I wonder what is my life now ? Am I even own my life ? All my life I have this feeling being controlled by my dad cause let it be real ... I didn't even get the knowledge how it would be like in a prom . I can't go out for a long time , except kwangsoo I didn't have male friends cause my father bannned me from that . And when I got my first boyfriend he told me that my boyfriend will leave me if he knew about my fertilization . Althoght I don't want to admit it ...my dad was right , my boyfriend left me at our 3 years anniversary after he learned about my condition that the girl he dated for thread years can't give him a heir . Sometime , I hate the life of a woman , they have to suffer after they became woman , they have to suffer from period pain , from heartbreak , from toxic society , from toxic men . And for me , I can't never escape from toxic men , firs