Dear Mr. Kim JaeJoong,

I finally went out today. It is sunny, there are no clouds.

I went to visit our oak tree. Mr. Kim JaeJoong, it is dying. Our oak tree seems to have gotten smaller over the past month or two. Are you forgetting about me? Can you feel that I have given up on this empty life? Maybe, one day, we can start over. I will wait, will you?

I would like to rediscover myself. I want to forget about all my problems, I want to forget about what is killing me.

Mr. Kim JaeJoong, you are causing my heart so much grief, so much pain it is unbearbale. I can't continue much longer.

I am in love with you. This is all I know, it is all I can think of. In a few days, I will finally meet with you. I will love you, and you will love me back. We will be undeniably, irrevocably in love.

{ day 351. }