Dear Mr. Kim JaeJoong,

Someone new has come into my life. I met him at the hospital the day before I left. His name;

Kim Junsu.

You would have liked him. He made me laugh, something I haven't done in years. It was a real laugh, not the forced ones that you would always do when my mom told a bad joke.

His voice is squeeky, like a dolphin. Just looking at his strange facial expressios would make me burst out laughing.

For a few minutes my depression disappeared. The happiness resembled something only you could bring me. Then, I remembered.

You were gone.

Once again, I sunk back into that dark, black hole of despair. Not even Mr. Kim Junsu's silly jokes and bright smile could make me forget about you.

Why does everything have to remind me of you? I wonder, will I ever get any peace?

Or are you guarding my heart for yourself?

{ day 180. }