Dear Mr. Kim JaeJoong,

I took a walk today. I'm suprised I can still walk, but I did it. It had help from Mr. Kim Junsu, though.

Mr. Kim JaeJoong, knowing you, I have a feeling you would be really jealous right now. It makes me laugh, imagining your reaction. But you know, I will always love you the most.

You made my childhood a happy time. Even through all the beatings, I was happy. I knew it would happen eventually, anyway. My mom had a history of drinking problem. She even drove my dad off.

That's what I assumed. I've only seen photos of him. He was a handsome man, I had his caring eyes and straight nose. The only thing was, why didn't he take me away from mother? Why did he leave me? Somehow, I am thankful he did not take me when he left. I would have never gotten to meet you.

I feel like everyone is leaving me, am I that worthless?

I just want someone there for me.

Someone who will not leave before I do.

{ day 217. }

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{ COMMENTS. }

may__chick - Thanks for supporting me. (: I'm not Christian, either (my mom is. ) BUT I'M BUDDHIST. My dad is Buddhist and we still celebrate Christmas. What a coincidence, eh? (<- I use 'eh.' I'M CANADIAN. :D) Don't worry, you're not annoying. I LOVE COMMENTS. (:

HeartAngel - I think lots of readers read your story and support it (silently). I even read a couple of chapters of your story and I was about to comment but my mom dragged me off of the computer to look at her stock. ): It's okay if you're busy, at least your not like my family. It feels like my parents don't have friends because they never invite anyone over. LMFAO.

RicePower - I attempted to add someone in, but I'm not sure what to do from this point. Oh well, we'll just have to see. (:

chie - THANK YOU. :D I like saying thank you to readers. (: I'm trying to keep it meaningful, but it's kind of hard. You know, after a lotta chapters, you just give up on thinking of original things. ): Well, here's the updates. (: Keep reading, hunny.

babbykrazi4u - Thanks for, er, crying. (: I always end up crying like a baby during sad dramas, so I wanted to make a story like that. Keep on reading.

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I feel as though I'm losing my readers. Is it getting that bad? LMFAO.

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I just realized I had problems spelling Mr. Kim JaeJoong's name. It always comes out "jajoong" or "JaeJjong" or something like that. (: And the word "just. " Ooh, and "suprised." Thats about it. (:

Tuesday, December 22. 2009
3:13 PM