Hye said not to but I cannot myself from thinking about quitting work. I know where she is coming from, that she doesn’t want me to be other person. She doesn’t want my life to be filled only by her. But that was just as an unfair as not loving her, maybe if I am in her shoes I would do the same. I sighed.  “But the real deal is I am not in her shoes.” I am in the position that anyone would sacrifice everything for her. I am on the edge of the wall where giving my life is the only way. And I am glad to give it away.

“Can’t sleep?” Hye whispered.

“No, I’m currently dreaming right now.” I smiled at her.

She wiggled her head and smiled back. “Sleep you have work tomorrow.” She touched my face and softly caressed them for me to sleep.

I closed my eyes. I hope when I wake up tomorrow she would still do this. “Good night, Hye.”

Her quiet smile responded saying a good night for me.

***

I turned around on our bed as I cannot feel anyone beside me anymore. I am not used to not having her when I wake up anymore, I checked the clock and it is just four o’clock in the morning. “Hye?” I whispered and grab my jacket as I open the door. The light is on on my way to our kitchen and I am hearing her humming peacefully. I cannot help but to wear a smile in this morning since my wife seems to be preparing our breakfast. I want to give her a warm back hug but I don’t want to ruin this memory of mine seeing her so calm and gentle. I slowly grab a chair and stare at her as she do her business. The weird thing pop on my mind is like I look like a crazy stalker right now. I bit my lip so my breathing will be normal, I swear to God this day is the best day for me.

I saw her wiggling her head.

“For God’s sake, how long are you going to gaze at me like that? It feels kind of weird, you know?” Then she looked at me as her expression seems to be bullying me. “You are so childish when you pulled the chair, did you really think I did not notice that?” She laughs harder this time and turned back to what she is doing.

I lost. Her laugh is my weakness. I stood up and slowly back hugged her. “You know, I really want this to do when I saw you. But gazing at you was magic.”

She sighed. “This is my job, you’ll get used to this and will not be a magic sooner or later. I can bet to that.”

“If so, I will bet my whole life that you are going to lose.” I whispered to her. “What are you cooking for me?”

“I am baking not cooking.” She said straight. “No rice for you in the morning.”

I smiled. “Bread is good.”

Hye turned to me. “Why are you pouting?” She said.

“No, I’m not. I love bread, especially with hot coffee. Right coffee, I will make for you and me.” I pinch her cheek.

“Good, because I really work hard for this.” She smiled. “Thanks for the coffee.”

Actually, I think I am expecting for something grand. Like a breakfa