Luhan POV: There was a serious problem with me. It wasn't like this was the first time Kris went to back to China, so why did I feel so depressed inside? Kris' past stay was for sure his longest stay, and I'd gotten used to him being around, but I think it was because I didn't want anything to change that I was so sad. I was simply being selfish. Sehun had done that to me, made me want more than I needed, and expect more than I should. I used to be so selfless, independent and strong. But Sehun turned me into some wimpy kid that needed someone to look after him all the time, yet I wasn't sure if I totally hated that fact. "I'll call you when I land, okay?" "Okay..." "Hey, don't look so depressed. You'll make me feel bad." "Huh?" Kris smiled as we walked down the tiled flooring, "You're not sad because I'm leaving Luhan, you're sad because Sehun is here and once I leave, he has to leave too." Kris smiled and patted my head, turning around and walking further towards the gate. "No! You're wrong!" "I am not!" I chased after him to walk him to his gate, looking back to see Sehun sitting on one of the chairs, talking on the phone. He looked pretty stressed out, and I wondered if what I had said at graduation caused him complications at work. "Kris, has Sehun been okay lately?" "Yeah he's been fine... Busy though." "Busy?" Sehun always had work, so I suppose he was usually busy, but he was never busy busy- well never busy enough that he didn't have time for me at least. "Yeah, I don't know Luhan, I think things at work are getting complicated for him." "Really?!" I started to get worried. "Yes but you didn't hear it from me and it's not your fault. Luhan, this is my gate." Staring at Kris, I realized that I'd just spent my last few minutes with Kris, talking about Sehun. I'd become so selfish. "I'm so sorry... I just talked about Sehun the whole time and I didn't even ask how you and Tao were or anything. And I care! I really do care about you two and I want to know, but I just..." Sehun was taking over my whole life and I didn't even realize that until now. When was the last time I cried and called Kris? When was the last time I- I never even talked to him about Seoul. But worse- I didn't even wake him up when I came home the other night. He didn't even know... Did he? "Kris the other night-" "I know you came home. And I know you're agonizing over how we've seemed to have grown apart. But we haven't." Kris smiled and hugged me tightly, "You're just growing up, but it doesn't mean you love me less or love Sehun more. It's just how things go, and I don't intend to ever stop being there for you." "I'm sorry all I've talked about was Sehun, you really mean a lot to me." Kris chuckled into my ear, "It's okay. For once, we talked about something other than my life in China, and I like to listen to things that make you happy." "I've just become so selfish.." "You're not being selfish, you're being normal." Normal? "Passengers in rows 1 through 10 please get ready to board at gate 6." "That's me." I looked at Kris after we backed away from our hug, and I couldn't help but tear up. He was indeed my best friend, and I couldn't wait until he ree day.. "I love you, Kris." "I love you too, Luhan." It probably looked like a gay fest over in the corner but I didn't care, "Call me okay?" "Of course. I'll see you soon." I watched Kris board his flight, dragging his carry on behind him. "Yeah.. Soon." "Everything okay?" I felt a hand on my shoulder, and I wasn't surprised. Of course it was Sehun, and I really needed his comfort. Soon. I turned around and hugged Sehun, and this time I knew people were staring at me. "Luhan?" "That's the problem!" "What's the problem?" "Soon. How soon? Tomorrow? A month? A year?!" How long... "How long is he going to leave me this time? Sehun, Kris never says goodbye when he leaves, he just says he'll see me soon. But every time he gets on a damn plane I'm scared he won't make it, even if it's a few hours, or if it's 16 hours." "He'll be alright, Luhan. This isn't the first time he's left, right?" "No, but-" "We should go, I'll even wait with you at your dorm until he gets home. Okay?" "Okay..." I didn't know why my emotions suddenly hit me, but I think I realized how much Kris really meant to me and I didn't want to lose him. Not now, not ever. Sehun POV: Luhan seemed awfully quiet, and honestly, for the first time, I didn't really know why. Assuming it was because Kris left, I suggested I wait with him until he could calm down. But I suspected that he was a little home sick. "How are you holding up? I know the other night was hard for you." "I'm better now, for sure.. But I guess I just..." Luhan had a habit of trailing off, but I think that what he wanted to say, he couldn't because of his roommate. Who I already was unimpressed with. Luhan was having one of his meltdowns, so he was laying in bed with the covers pulled up over his head, leaving a small hold for his mouth so he could breathe. He looked quite humorous though. "So you're Professor Oh?" "Yes. Luhan don't e-" "I'm Wonshik, but everyone calls me Ravi." "Nice to meet you. Luhan p-" "Luhan already told me you guys are dating so... Don't hold back because I'm here." Oh please. 'Ravi' probably thought he knew everything about our relationship, but he didn't. There was tension between us, and Luhan was right in the middle. "Luhan I bet you're happy because school starts tomorrow." "Absolutely not." "Really? I thought you'd be happy because Prof-" "Luhan, I just forgot. I have a meeting at 6:00 today." "Oh... Okay. Well, thanks for dropping me off, I'll text you after Kris calls." I nodded while staring at Ravi, 'Zip it.' I snapped at him as loudly as a silent mouthing would give. "Will you be alright?" "Yeah, I've calmed down a lot now." I may have underestimated Ravi's knowledge. Luhan POV: Now I was truly alone. Sehun was at work, Kris was on an airplane and Ravi- well, I didn't want to bother with him. Looking through my phone, I scavenged to find someone to talk to. "Hmm I could call Chen.." But was calling your ex-boss weird? Probably. "Kyungsoo?" No he was probably with Jongin, so both were out of the picture. "I could.. Oh." Byun Baekhyun "No, I'd rather not." I laid in bed, thinking of all that had happened between us. It was strange that a few months ago, I was close to hating Baekhyun because of exposing my secret, and how far we actually came was amazing. Baekhyun stood up for me and he... Well he was there when Kris couldn't physically be there and when Sehun couldn't emotionally be there. Maybe I should call. Ring ring! But then again... Ring ring! Would he really want to hear from me so soon? R- "Luhan?!" "Uh, hi... Baekhyun? It's me, Luhan." "THANK GOODNESS. I THOUGHT YOU ACTUALLY HATED ME! WHY DIDN'T YOU CALL? I WAS SO WORRIED." That was not what I expected, but I smiled, "Actually, do you have some time?" "Today? Yeah, I'm free, why?" "Well, could you meet me halfway? I'm already at school." "No, I owe it to you, I'll come down there. I'll text you an address for a coffee shop I know of, let's meet there!" "I'll see you then." For some reason, just talking to someone made me feel less anxious. The plans were made really quickly, but with the emotional state I was in- I needed to see someone soon or I may have exploded. I decided to go to the shop a little early and just sit down, and it was nice. The shop was quiet, but not too quiet, and it had a nice homely feeling to it so I didn't feel anxious. Well, I didn't feel anxious until I watched Baekhyun stumble through the door way, curse at the door and then wave at me while everyone stared. Classic Baekhyun. "Hey, you're here! I-" Baekhyun hugged me almost violently and then sat me back down in my chair. "You son of a ." "..excuse me?" "I thought you hated me, so I didn't call. And then to get a call from you today, I was so happy! I was worried about you." "I'm sorry, I just thought maybe it would have been too soon.." "Too soon? I wish you had called me the day after we graduated." Baekhyun smiled and went to order something, leaving me there. After a few moments, I realized how wrong is been, I wasn't alone. I'd always have someone to lean on, and I already felt better. "So, how are you and Professor Oh? How's school?" Sipping his hot coffee, Baekhyun bombarded me with questions. It wasn't that I minded at all, it was actually nice to know someone cared about my life. "Well, I miss Sehun like crazy, but school is good. Actually, classes don't start until Monday so I'm really anxious." "Oh really? Man... You know, I remember you from freshmen year. It was a long time ago now, and we actually had class with Professor Oh together. And I remember back then how weird I thought he was, but now it all makes sense." "What do you mean, weird?" "Well, maybe you didn't notice. But he stared at you a lot. Actually, now that I think about it, he was kinda creepy because anytime I'd see you, he'd be there too." I never knew that, I guess I just didn't remember. But I began to miss my high school days, and the secrets only Sehun and I shared. "You know, I think you two are perfect for each other." "You do? Most people that know are really surprised because we're so different." "But that's the whole point!" Baekhyun sprang up and then say back down, I could see where he was going with our conversation. "You're supposed to be different. I'm all energetic and Chanyeol is a block of wood. You're really kind hearted and Professor Oh is a block of ice! You make up for what the other doesn't have..." I smiled, "Yeah, you're right." "Of course I am." Baekhyun and I laughed, talking about the future but also reminiscing over old times- which was only a few months ago. "Are you doing alright without Professor Oh?" It was already getting a little dark, Baekhyun and I had been chatting for hours. "To be honest," Baekhyun was someone I could trust and depend on, and I was glad that I could let myself relax and be open about how I really felt. I didn't need to hide anything from him anymore. "I'm doing horrible. I'm lonely, I miss him and I actually miss our time in school together when we had to avoid each other because at least I could walk past him and see him. Now all I get is a wimpy phone call and radiation." Baekhyun frowned, but then smiled again. "Well you know, you can always visit on the weekends. And if you had a really tough day, a half hour train ride won't be the end of the world right? Maybe it's not everything you want... But you have him now, that's what matters." "I know, but it's just that I have him, but I feel like I don't." It was strange really, how I could feel so many things at once. "Hey isn't that..." "YAH! PARK CHANYEOL! WHO SAID YOU COULD LOOK FOR ME." Chanyeol walked through the doors with his usual bored look. "You said you'd be done by 6:00." "Well I was busy Mr. Selfish!" "Hi Luhan, sorry I barged in." "No it's okay, I think we've talked enough for today. We can get together again another time." Chanyeol nodded although he only seemed to be half listening. "Well, sorry Luhan... Is it alright?" "Of course. My roommate is probably waiting for me anyways." I lied. "Alright! Well it was great seeing you. I'll text you, Kay? Good luck tomorrow!" Tomorrow?- oh. First day of school. I watched Chanyeol drag Baekhyun out of the cafe, and although my question of how he even know baekhyun's exact location and traveled all the way down here was still unanswered, I smiled and began to leave for my dorm. Ring ring! My phone startled me so much I almost screamed. Ring r- "Hello?" "Hey, Luhan. I'm home now and I'm safe. I'm sorry it took me so long to call but I was working on something." "Oh that's alright, I'm glad you're okay Kris." It was bad, but I had actually forgotten about him while talking to Baekhyun. "I sent you an email with a link to a photo album I uploaded today... I think you'd like it. Take a look at them, I think they'll help your nerves for tomorrow." "I'll take a look, thank you.." "Oh! And Tao says hi!" Tomorrow? Oh that's right. I began school, And I was terrified.