"Where are you?" I knelt down as the park began to close. After searching everywhere, I began to lose hope and I could feel my body burning for air as if been running around for hours. Of course it wasn't like I'd never see him again, I knew the way home and he had a car, but I wasn't going to leave him like his father did. 

I just couldn't. 

"I can't believe I lost you..." I shook my head in disbelief and got up to start looking again. Now that everyone was pretty much gone, I could call out to him and he would hear me- hopefully. 

"Sehun! Sehun! Where are you?! SEHUN! Please..." Again, I began to cry as a guilt set in. An elderly worker walked up to me, gray in the hair but gentle in the face, and no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't compose myself. 

"Young man, I assume you're looking for someone?"

"Yes, my um... My tutor and I got separated... W-we were on a physics field trip." What a lie. 

"Well, up at the Ferris wheel, there was a man sitting on a bench seeming quite distressed... White-ish hair, black coat? He's probably the man you're looking for, why don't you head down there?" 

"Thank you, thank you so much!" I ran as fast as I could, as fast as my legs would carry me, watching the Ferris wheel get closer and closer. Was I an idiot or what? Sweat came from my forehead making my bangs stick, and tears came from my eyes, making me feel like it was raining.

It had to be him, it couldn't be anyone else. It had to be... 

"Sehun!" It was him. I thought I was going to die from running so fast, my heart pounding in my head and suddenly I started to feel dizzy. Sehun was siting on the bench, seeming calm. But I couldn't relax. I kicked up the dirt as I ran, causing him to stand when he spotted me. I basically stumbled into him, bulldozing him over with a huge hug. But just as I embraced him, I felt my legs tingle a little and suddenly I couldn't stand.

"Woah, woah. Luhan-"

"I- my legs..." 

"Hey come on, just relax." Sehun slowly supported me to the bench and set me down. 

"You over did yourself." Tears sprung from my eyes just by touching Sehun, his warmth and familiar body. Sehun was so kind, always thinking about me. I reached up and pulled him into a hug again, not being able to contain myself. 

"I finally found you! I thought I lost you. I'm so sorry, I love you, Sehun. I'd never leave you, I'm sorry please don't be mad at me." 

"Hey, shh. Calm down... Look at me, you need to calm down." Sehun gently my hair as he sat down beside me. 

"I'm so sorry, I-I really a-" 

"I know you are, but Luhan, you need to calm down. You're a mess right now, I don't want you to pass out. Your face is so red right now, I can tell just from this dim lighting." Always worrying about me, I didn't deserve it! 

"I don't know what to say... I'm the worst."

"What does that mean?" 

"I left you alone just like your dad! I can't believe it, I screwed up." 

 

"You didn't screw up. I still had fun! Minus every ride we went on, and all the screaming kids, and the smell of greasy food, and the hot sun, and sweating, and then getting separated, but other then that, it was great!" Luhan smiled at me, realizing I was trying to make him feel better. I smiled at him, and stood up, pulling him into my arms bridal style, then started walking to the car. 

"You're carrying me?" 

"Of course. I can't let you walk, your legs would give out..." I chuckled a little bit, picturing Luhan's running towards me,

"Haha, you looked so funny."

"Huh?"

"A tomato with legs running towards me, then falling into me and hugging me, ah it was so cute." 

"Stop! You're so embarrassing." 

"Good." I gave off an evil smirk and gently d Luhan's , making him go berserk. I loved teasing him. 

"SEHUN! W-where do you think you're touching?" 

"You don't know? Here I'll try again-" 

"No! No no, please d- stop!" I was so childish, but that was okay. 

As long as it was Luhan, it was okay. 

 

"Luhan," we made it to the car and I began to drive home,

"I want you to understand something. You looked for me and you found me and the fact you looked for me makes me happy. But I'm not a child anymore, and I have a car. If you didn't find me, things would have been okay." 

"But..."

"No, either way, things would have turned out. I don't want you seeing me as a child, I'm not- But thank you for worrying about me." Luhan sighed, and I could tell it was really bothering him even though he was trying to get over it. 

"Come on, Luhan. We're together now, right? Let's move on."

"Okay, I guess." 

 

Luhan POV: 

Sometimes I wondered how Sehun could move on so easily, but then I reminded myself that I was wired with emotions and Sehun was not. 

"But let me just tell you this," Sehun started raising his voice, oh no, when he raises his voice, I know I'm in for a whooping! 

"You, Mr, scared the living hell out of me!" And the scolding began. 

"If we go out in public, don't leave my sight! I almost cried because I thought I lost you." 

"R-really?" 

"Stop smiling, I was really worried about you, Luhan." Sehun lowered his voice, speaking softer, 

"When you didn't answer your phone, I thought something bad had happened. So... Never leave my sight! Okay? Do you understand?" 

"I understand! I'm sorry, I didn't know you were so worried."

"Of course I was worried, a dummy like you was in the loose." We both laughed. Even though Sehun teased and scolded me, I knew he did it because he loved me, yet, if I was his age, would he still tease me and reprimand me the way he does? Would he baby me?  

I wanted to be independent so I could be the one Sehun could rely on... But it was hopeless. If I could get an A on a math test, Sehun could ace it and somehow get extra credit. If I could do one thing great, Sehun could do it better. I started realizing how much of a burden I was becoming to Sehun. He had bags under his eyes for the first time, and he seemed slower and less sharp during class. I had kept him up late countless times, and couldn't help but wonder if his tiredness was because of me. 

 

"Hey, Sehun?" 

"Hmm?" Sehun and I started walking inside after a long day. The apartment was warm when we stepped inside, compared to the cold temperature outside. 

"Can I ask you a question? I've been meaning to ask it for a while..." 

"Sure." The more I thought about asking him, the more I decided it was a bad idea because he'd tell me I was being silly. Actually, I didn't want him to even say yes to my question, but I didn't want to be a burden to him even more. 

"A-actually. Never mind." I started walking to our room after kicking my shoes off. 

"Never mind?" Sehun followed. 

"Yeah, now isn't the right time." We'd gotten so used to one another, we just changed into our pajamas freely. Usually we'd take a shower, but it was so late already... 

"No, ask me. Ask me everything you want." I sighed, 

"Well, I've just noticed you haven't been very- You've seem tired lately. And I know I've kept you awake a lot at night, or I wake you in the middle of the night,"

"Luhan?" 

"So, c-can I try living somewhere else?" No matter what I did, Sehun would always be seven years older than me. And no matter how hard I tried, I'd never be as good as him. But if I just didn't have to rely on him, maybe he'd treat me like an adult. 

"Where would you go?" For some reason, an automatic no disappointed me, even if I didn't want him to say no. 

"I don't have much saved for a house because of college. But-"

"Where?"

"Home... I could go home." Sehun walked over to me from across the room seeming angry. When he gave me a sharp stare, his anger was confirmed.

"Don't ask that again." Sehun pointed his finger at me as I put mine up in defense, 

"Sehun, I didn't mean-" 

"No. I said no. You will leave." Sehun dropped his finger and sighed, shaking his head a little, 

"Sorry, I got too worked up." 

"Sehun, why can't you just tell me what you really mean? I'm dense, and unless you tell me what's going on inside your head, I'll never know..." It was true. I could never read him, his face being too serious. Then, before I even thought about it, I asked him to speak his mind. 

Would he actually let me in? 

"You want me to be straight up? Fine. Don't ask me to leave, my answer will always be no."

"Ah, wait that's not exactly what I mea-"

"This is your home, do not refer to that trashy hole as your home. And while I'm telling you what I feel, I'm your boyfriend. Me. I am. Not Kris or Jongin, so don't touch them and don't let them touch you." Sehun sounded so prissy. What a control fr-

"And don't call me names inside your head, if you want to say something say it." 

"And another thing," 

"Sehun.. This is a little-"

"You asked for it, so sit down and shut up." 

"From now on we leave early in the morning, if we're too late and we'll be seen, you're staying home because yes I am jealous and I don't want you with Jongin. Have your phone on you at all times, I'll seriously kick your if you don't answer the first time I call. And another thing!..." As I watched Sehun babble on, I couldn't help but smile while tuning out what he was even saying. He was an over protective freak, but I loved him. The feeling inside me was just growing more and more, and my body moved on its own. I threw my arms around Sehun without thinking, pulling myself close to him, smiling into his neck.

"Luhan, I wasn't done. Please refrain from intur-"

"I love you, Sehun. I'm so happy here! As long as I have you, I don't need anything else. Please stay by my side..." Silence. 

WHAT DID I JUST SAY? I JUST WENT ALL GIRLY. I JUST WANTED HIM TO KNOW I LIKED IT HERE...

"...haha just kidding~! What am I saying? Haha..." I tried to release him, but he captured me and squeezed his arms around me. 

"Was that a confession of your love?" 

C-C-C-CONFESSION? 

"HAH? I've said it before!"

"Not like that you haven't." Sehun smiled and I knew that no matter how embarrassed I was, I had to get over it. As long as my embarrassment meant he was happy... I didn't mind. 

"I love you, too, Luhan." And he did. Sehun didn't lie, not when it came to serious things... That's why I could trust him. That's why I could always believe in him, because he believed in me first. I guess I over worried that he'd hate me because I lost him like his father, but the difference was: 

Sehun was grown up.