So I was going to post this note when I was much closer to finishing Born to Die but life had other plans so I thought I'd do it now. If you read Born to Die, you'll know I was planning on finishing it by February but I don't think I can do that anymore because I just broke up with my girlfriend of 4 years and I haven't felt like doing much of anything. Which brings me to why I'm writing this in the first place. I'll first give you guys a little bit of context so you know why I'm doing what I'm doing. I've had depression for a while now and I finally managed to come out and tell my friends and family. They've all been supportive and want to get me proper help.

The thing is EXO/kpop no longer make me very happy, instead it causes me anxiety sometimes and sadness. There's a lot of things wrong in the industry and the fandom I'm not going to get into that, and I know I shouldn't let that control my moods but I've always been a bit too empathetic and horrible stuff happening in the industry/fandoms really bring me down, as in I sometimes go through a whole day feeling like . You might think it's a but melodramatic, but I'll put it this way, I no longer watch/read the news because I know terrible things are happening around the world and I will literally never be able to get out of bed because I'll be so down about it. It's happened before, I've missed so many days off uni last year because I couldn't get out of bed because of something terrible that happened in the world or kpop or my parents offhandly said something to me and I over thought it.

This is why I'm going to take a break from the fandom and get actual help because I can't keep going on like this. I've spared you a lot of detail for my depression because you don't need to know that. What you do need to know is that after I finish Born to Die, I stop writing fanfiction and I don't know when I'll be back, or if I'll be back at all, depression doesn't get cured over night. I don't like the idea of abandoning my fics so I'll post a spoiler chapter containing all the details of how the story would've progressed. A lot of you will still think of this as abandoning my fics but this is the best I can give you because I really need to do something for my mental health as I have destructive tendencies and they need to be stopped. I won't delete my account so you guys can keep on reading my other stories.

I'm sorry for doing this but I hope you all understand.