“Good afternoon sir” Sehun-ssi bowed at me, I suddenly remembered what happened earlier. “Did you guys make up yet?” I asked making him flustered, “I… she… she… she won’t listen” he stammered.

“I know it’s not my business so I’ll back off. I hope you guys do make up soon enough” he stepped to the side, allowing me to walk through, which I gladly did. The moment I was about to go up the stairs Hayoung walked towards me and handed me a tux, “madam told me to tell you to get ready, young master”

 I took the tux from her, “get ready for what exactly?”

“Dinner with the Li sir”

I scoffed inwardly, is this what Sara was talking about? About wanting to make up my mind? And how exactly is she going to do that?

“Thanks” I nodded at Hayoung and went to my room.

I threw the tux on the beanbag then laid on my bed whilst fishing out my phone. “What exactly are you planning to do?” I said over the phone. “What do you mean fiancé?” hearing her mocking voice made me instantly in a bad mood.

 “The dinner”

 “Oh that? It wasn’t planned by me silly, my father brought it up and how could I refuse? Are you in the middle of getting ready?”

“Getting ready my . I’m not going at all”

“So you say” She giggled on the other line before hanging up. I turned to my stomach then started to punch my bed. Now I know what Cecilia felt, I would want to punch her face too.

 Before I knew it I was already in deep sleep, only to be woken by the knocking on my door. “It’s open!” I yelled out, not bothering to stand move or even open my eyes.

“Yah, you!” someone suddenly came beside me and smack my shoulder. “What the hell!” I turned towards the person, and yep, it was Yoojin. Who else would have the courage to hit me?

“You’re supposed to be ready you bum”

 “I’m not going, so what’s the point” I moved around my bed till I found a comfortable position to sleep again. I heard her sigh and sat down on the corner of my bed.

“I know you don’t like her-”

“Hate her… I know you hate her” I corrected.

“Whatever. I know that she is a bad person too, and I know you don’t want this marriage to happen. You’re still young, which means that you guys will only be engaged till your parents and her parents feel that it is a good time to get married. Your dad’s business is going down and you know how important it is to him, how he can just let it crumble just like that”

 Yoojin sighed before continuing, “other than that, don’t you ever wonder why she would agree on the engagement in the first place? Don’t you ever wonder why she is acting the way she is? I know she left you before, but why? You can’t judge anything by just knowing one side of the story”

 I scoffed, and just decided to close my eyes. I don’t care what anyone says, I don’t care what she’ll say, no way in hell am I ever going to marry that witch.

 “I think… you should at least give her a chance, give her some time to explain herself, maybe even prove herself wrong. I know that you think I’m crazy, but maybe the way she’s acting is her way to tell you that she likes you”

“Your starting to sound like you want me and Sara to get married Yoojin” I mumbled, expecting her to say I’m crazy and laugh it off, but she did the exact opposite. “I don’t know, maybe I do”

What I don’t understand is that with just one sentence, her one sentence made my heart dropped and crushed to pieces. Suddenly anger is bubbling inside me without no reason. I opened my eyes and sat up, facing her and she turned her body to face me. “This could be fate talking here Mark. You guys were together before, then your together again”

“or maybe it’s just nonsense. Fate or not, I don’t give a damn about her anymore” I spatted. Yoojin sighed and shrugged her shoulders.

“with you acting like this… its like your telling me to be hers already, to be her husband, to be legally Sara’s and for Sara to be my wife… the one that I would have to spend and share my life with” I said desperate for her to disagree, desperate for her to tell me I’m crazy and exit my room to forget about this whole conversation, but she gave me a small smile and nodded.

“You don’t mean that” I suddenly scowled, looking at her straight in the eyes which she held the gaze, not wavering as she said “yes Mark. I do”

 Gosh why does the world suddenly felt heavy… why do I suddenly feel like going crazy? Why do I feel so mad, so disappointed, and so sad that she’s agreeing to the marriage? She didn’t say anything afterwards and left what it looks like my dress shoes on my bed and went out. I placed my face on my pillows and started to shout out all of anger out of me.

Yoojin’s POV:

I’m such a horrible person, how could I do this to my best friend, how could I betray him? I feel like I’m such a criminal, I feel so horrible. He was the cause of all of this; he was the reason why I am feeling this way.

“Yoojin!” Bambam rushed towards me, I sighed and forced a smile on my face. “What’s wrong baby girl?” Jackson walked next to Bambam. “Nothing” I laughed.

 “Jinnie, Jackson can even tell that something is wrong with you, and you expect me to not know?”

“I just feel tired and stressed because of school” I covered up. It was half true so I wouldn’t call it lying… right? Jackson suddenly grabbed my head and kissed my forehead. “What do you think you’re doing?!” Bambam pushed Jackson of me which made me cracked up, “I’m just giving her strength!” “Sure” someone came behind Jackson and hit him on the head. Well looks like the person that I want to avoid, is here.

“Mark what the hell?!” Jackson put up his hand and tried to hit him back but Mark blocked it.

Well yes, that’s right Mark was the reason why I feel guilty. And why is that you ask? Well because he’s suddenly always barging into my mind, whenever or wherever I am he’s constantly on my mind without even realising it.

He’s the reason why my heart suddenly started beating like crazy when he’s around and whenever we have a skinship I get so much butterflies in my stomach.

 I’m not stupid, I know that I’m starting to look at Mark more than a friend or whatever we are, I know that I like him, which is stupid because from the very start I’ve told myself he is the person that I would not give a second glance too, but now I look at him every time.

I got shock when Mark suddenly started to rub my forehead. “w-what..?” I flinched back and he chuckled, “I was trying to get Jackson’s kiss off” he was about to do it again, and you guys have no idea how much my heart is thumping just seeing his hand go closer to me.

 Bambam suddenly grabbed my hand and pulled me towards him, “go to class Yoojin” he whispered to me.

 “It’s too early” I responded, looking up at him, which I instantly regrated because I can’t stand looking at him straight in the eye without feeling guilty.

“Just please…” Bambam begged. I don’t know why I suddenly that something was going on, but then again, I’m hiding something too, I’m no different. “Okay” I nodded and turned to my heels.

Don’t worry Bambam, I’ll do my best to get this stupid nonsense feeling off. I can’t like Mark anyway, and Bambam isn’t the only reason. We’re not suited for each other, were different and there’s a huge gap that separates me and him, and there’s no way that the gap will get smaller. I have to remind myself that every time so that I know that these feelings are useless.

 I actually don’t know how my feelings for Bambam stopped; could it be because that I see him more of a brother now or what? I’m not sure. And I also don’t know when my feelings for Mark started, but I know that I have to end it soon. 

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“with you acting like this… it’s like your telling me to be hers already, to be her husband, to be legally Sara’s and for Sara to be my wife… the one that I would have to spend and share my life with” Mark questioned me.

We were both in his room, and I’ve been persuading him to start to rethink bout Sara, which he keeps on refusing about. If I’m going to get rid of my feelings, I have to start persuading him that he and I aren’t meant for each other. I know the way Sara act is rude and mean to people, I just feel that she doesn’t really know how to express her feelings.

If he’s going to be with someone, I feel like it would be better to me if he is with someone who deserves him as much as he should deserve her. I know the way Sara looks at him, she’s desperate for him to notice her, she likes him a lot, and I could feel it. But why is it so hard to accept the fact that they’re going to be together.

I didn’t have the courage to answer him with words, since I feel like my voice is going to shake witch will give him a clue that I’m not true to what I was telling him, so I just smiled and nodded.

His eyes shows determination, I can tell he really wants to see if I’ll back down. Maybe he could tell I was lying, maybe he knows I don’t want them to be together.

“You don’t mean that” he said, looking at me in the eye.

 ‘Of course not idiot. Why would I want to see you with another woman?’

I wanted to say those words to him, I want him to know, but of course I wouldn’t have the courage to. I took a deep breath and curled my hand into a fist. I need the courage to tell him to be with another woman. I already made it this far, I already had the courage to tell him to look at her, even though my heart was hurting, I can’t let that off, it would be just a waste.

 I responded his gaze, “Yes Mark. I do”

He didn’t say a word afterwards and I thought it was time for me to go because if I stayed any longer, I know I would just take back all of my words and tell him what I really feel. But I have to stay strong, and this time listen to my head instead my heart.

I was in Mr Tuan’s study room, cleaning up the papers that was scattered all over the floor. “I’m sorry for the mess dear, I just don’t know what to do anymore” Mr Tuan sighed as he placed back his books on the shelf. “No sir, it’s alright. I know your stressed a lot these days anyways. I understand” I picked up the last piece and fixed the stack before placing it on his desk.

“I’ll do the rest sir, you’re suit is going to get ruined” I reassured Mr Tuan with a smile, which he copied.

 “Dad, let’s get going” Mark entered the room and his eyes met mine. I couldn’t help but to avoid it and grabbed the books from Mr Tuan and continued cleaning.  “Yah, didn’t Hayoung give you a tux? Why are you wearing such things?!” Mr Tuan shouted. I took a quick glance at what’s Mark was wearing and scoffed,

‘Typical’

He was wearing black jeans, one of his Nike collections and just a white polo. “This is formal!” Mark glanced down his outfit. “No! Go change!” Mr Tuan dragged him out the room.

After a couple minutes I heard the door open, “Jinnie-ah~” I quickly turned around and saw Bambam waving at me. “What are you doing here?” I stopped what I was doing and quickly give him a hug. “I asked Mrs Tuan before coming here, if I could hang out with you for a while. Since you’re stressed, I wanted to help you relax, even if it’s just for a little bit”

He brought my face in his hand and pouted while touching my eye bags, “my baby hasn’t been sleeping?” he asked, half concerned, half mad. Before I could answer the Mark came inside, he eyed me and Bambam’s position and looked a little uncomfortable.

“Were going now” he stated firmly. “Okay, take care” Bambam looked at him and smiled, not bothering to take his hands of me, so I did it for him. “I need to see them out” I told Bambam and he nodded and came with me.

I watched as the Tuan’s get into their car one by one. “Help Yoojin relax Bambam. I’m counting on you” Mrs Tuan yelled out, Bambam chuckled and give an okay sign to her. Mark gave Bambam and I  a long look before getting into the car, slamming the door behind him. “Someone’s on a bad mood” Bambam commented.

 I bit my lip and pretended I didn’t hear it. Could it be because he was still mad that I wanted him to be nice to Sara or…?

No, I didn’t even want to think about him. I pushed all of my worries aside and when the Tuan’s were gone, I grabbed Bambam’s hand.

“let’s go!” I beamed at him, he laughed and nodded, “go go go!”

Author's Note:

I realised that i havent really mention Bambam alot, oops~ So, next chapter is going to be some YoojinxBambam moments!!

And i need to somehow wrapped this story up quickly, coz it took longer than i thought, so um yeah. Yoojin is noticing her feelings for Mark, any shippers? xD

 LOOK AT HIM IN A SUIT, JUST LOOK AT HIM!! GOD!! HE LOOKS SO Y WTF!!

 what's more perfect than 7 beautiful guys in suits?? ♥♥♥