Jessica's POV

"Yul...“

She lifted her head and stood up as she saw me. We froze at our spots, looking at each other's eyes. I barely recognized her, she lost so much weight. She even has black circles around her eyes. 

What happened to you, Yul? 

I feel like a bad person thinking that I just kissed another girl a few minutes ago even though I knew that I haven't gotten over Yuri yet. Am I wrong for wanting to be happy? Soo makes me smile but I can't deny that I'm still in love with Yul. 

My heart hurts so much seeing her like this. I wanted to run in her arms so bad but I remember what I promised to her mother. My mind went back to the day as Mrs. Kwon made me promise to keep away from Yuri but someone pulled me in to a hug.

"Sica...“ her voice cracked as she hid her face on my neck.

Something warm dropped on my neck. She's crying.

"Why can't you love me?“ She said between her sobs "Why can't you love me for who I am? I can be anything for you Sica, but I can't be a man. If you ask for something else, I'll fight for you. I'll do anything“

I could hear the agony in her voice. It was all a lie, Yul. All those things I told you that day was all a lie. I don't want a man, it's you I want, my heart is screaming. 

"It hurts so much, Sica“

"I'm sorry...“ I whisp