Things to say to Ren

I really liked you, I found you as an amazing friend, someone to look up to. But why would you turn your back and do something so evil to me? I know I didn’t turn into the being that you thought I would, but I feel like you will continuously do it until I actually do turn. Just what were you planning to do with me after I turned anyways? Whatever it is, I want to know. I have the right to know too. 

I hope no one finds out. Especially JR. I don’t know why you guys hate each other so much, but what I do know is that if he finds out, he’ll kill you single handedly. Or maybe he won’t, maybe you’re stronger than him and you’ll be the one to take him down. I just don’t know.

Rinka paused, tapping her pencil on the page lightly, trying to think. She lifted her hand to her neck, her fingers slowly and carefully tracing over the area where his fangs sank into her skin. To her surprise, there was nothing there.

She couldn’t remember if the nurse put a bandage over it or not, but if she didn’t, why the hell didn’t she?! She sighed, the ball point of her pen lightly touched the paper, and she began to write again. The more she wrote the more she realized her handwriting was getting sloppier.

I don’t know what to feel towards you right now. I don’t know if I’m angry at you, or if I forgave you so easily. I don’t even know if I should forgive you, but I’m not the type to hold grudges.

She gave a small laugh, realizing that most of what she had written down was,
“I don’t know”. She really was clueless about everything. Finally, she wrote:

I guess I’ll just have to find out on my own later.

She scoffed at her stupid, unnecessary questions. She really didn’t have an idea or clue of anything. She didn’t even know what her own name meant for God’s sake! No one wanted to tell her, and those who wanted to, didn’t know themselves either. She felt sorry for herself, really. Her life was far from normal and dealing with a school with nothing but vampires wasn't helping her life style get any better. 

She was about to lift her pen again, when she noticed how silent it really was. She had been thinking about Ren so much that she didn’t even realize that if she dropped her pen right now, it would sound like North Korea’s bomb attack.

Her head slowly turned to the left, her eyes gazing at Strawberry Girl peacefully sleeping. Her chest slowly arising at each breath she took at an eased pace. Rinka smiled to herself, she was enjoying her slumber.

She couldn’t fall asleep, so why not watch other people do it?

Oh god no, please don’t turn all Edward on yourself, Rinka. She sarcastically thought and her gaze finally returned to look at her diary.

The door knob twisted and turned, someone was about to come in. (Obviously lol) Rinka still had her diary sitting in her lap and she stole another quick glance at Strawberry Girl and also noticed she had fallen to sleep listening to music.

Something Rinka has never done before.

She shook her head, quickly slamming her journal closed and lifted her mattress just high enough for her to carelessly throw it under. Her journal was safe and hidden just in time for the door’s opening. Her glance flickered over to the “someone” who had just walked in.

A girl with beautiful auburn colored hair that was held into a high and secure bun, closed the door behind her. Despite her looking exhausted, she was gorgeous. She was breathing heavily and she had a red, hot face.

This must be MinEun. Rinka warned herself, studying her features harder. No wonder JR would train with her. She was so…pretty. And Rinka was so…bleh.

How was JR anyways? Rinka’s thoughts of him were erased when MinEun took a glare at Rinka, memorizing her from head to toe. Strange hair…MinEun thought looking skeptical. Her stares were questioning, but she ended them with a small smile.

“You must be our new roommate?” She had a simple girly voice. No, it wasn’t the girly voices like,
“Oh Em Gee let’s totally go get our nails done! –giggle, giggle—“

It was something smooth, soothing voice that Rinka really liked. She didn’t know why she felt sudden envy for her, when she’s never even spoken to her. Was it the fact that she was a vampire, and could basically possess any power that’s given to her, just like JR?

Or is it the simple fact that she and JR had trained together, and she felt like she already claimed JR as her territory without even realizing it. 
Brushing her thoughts off, Rinka returned her a warm smile and nodded. "Yes. You're MinEun, right? YunJae told me all about you." She gestured her index finger towards the sleeping girl, and Minee gave a small chuckle. 

"Yeah, that's me. Welcome to the dorm room, and...school." She nodded at Rinka, smiled, and made her way to her own bed that was covered with polk-a-dots. The walls next to her bed were covered up with posters that had quotes of them. Some funny, some sad, some inspirational. 

Rather than Rinka thanking her for her warm welcome, she read through her posters and there was a poster that caught her eye. It hung just above Minee's headboard. She found herself reading it out loud. 

"Evilness is not the vampire itself, but what the vampire makes of himself. (-Lesley T.)" Her eyebrows were furrowed, her eyes squinted, and Minee smiled as she settled herself in her bed, fluffing the throw pillows that were beside her. 
"That's my favorite quote, believe it or not, they help me whenever I'm about to do something that I'll regret later." It did really seem like it had that kind of impact on someone. It gave a strong message. 

But Rinka obviously couldn't understand, considering she was a human. Due to RInka's silence, Minee switched the subject. 
"So, what is a human, such as yourself, doing at this school anyway? Are you not scared to death by us? You know what we really are, so why aren't you running?" She had some ignorance in her voice, but RInka pushed it aside. 

She wanted to tell her how her was a vampire, and how Ren selfishly bit her and almost got her turned into one as well. She also wanted to ask why she didn't get turned. Every soul that is bitten by a vampire, is bound to turn into that same being, right? 

Looking up at Minee's face, she realized that the redness on her face from all her training had gone away and her natural milky skin replaced it. 
"My mother...she just signed me up here. I didn't know this place was reserved for vampires, and the headmaster didn't bother on asking me why I was here either. He actually looked thrilled when he saw me." Now that she thought back at it, Headmaster Kwang was too thrilled to see her. Almost as if she had been a relative or a long time friend of his and they haven't seen eachother in a long time, 

She sat herself on her own bed, feeling awkward and unwanted after the few moments of Minee not responding. They sat together in slince, both easily hearing Yunjae's slow and peacefull breathing. 

Finally, MinEun spoke, "I don't understand why he decided to keep you here. No one, unless they're one of us, is allowed to even step foot in the perimeter of this place." She was skeptical, as well as Rinka. Thoughts roamed through her mind. Maybe he let me stay because I asked him a question about the Kim Ilhoon paintings around the school? But then again, there's really no point of him letting me stay if that was the reason. 

Rinka shrugged simply, hoping she would end the conversation. Hoping Minee would just fall asleep and she could write in her diary again. 
"Well, it was nice meeting you. Call me Minee by the way." Minee smiled, then turned her head to face Rinka. "I hope we don't cause you any trouble as new dormmates." 

She really is a nice girl..Another reason why JR was probably training with her. Rinka's jealousy was getting to her again and she mentally thumped her head. Stop! Jealousy leads to hatred and you know you dislike to hate others! 

She shook her head, throwing her thoughts away and gave a small smile, nodding at MInee. She still missed ShinYeon and SooYoung. She already missed their gossip talks at night, pink everywhere, and them taunting Rinka about how she should hook up with Ren or something. 

That's got to change thought, she thought mentally pouting. There's nothing I can do about it. 

"Thanks-" Rinka stopped herself, realizing that Minee had already fallen asleep. She gave a small smile before resting her back on her headboard, looking foreward. "Thank you." She whispered, knowing that Minee obviously couldn't hear her, but she decided to say it anyway. 

No matter how hard she tried, Ren was out of her thoughts already and JR's memories came in. Where is he even? She asked herself. To her it felt like she hasn't seen him in years, but in reality, it was just a day or two. 

"I wonder if I can find him.." She whispered before slowly tiptoeing her way to the door, creaking it open.

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Another dream has ended, but I'll show you a new one, next night.

Hey guys! Oh God I'm SOOO sorry for not updating these couple...months. OTL. I just have had a writer's block and I got this wirtten down a couple weeks ago but I kept forgetting to edit it and check through it and stuff. I'll try my best do continue with regular updates ;;

I hope you'll forgive me because I have these hot gifs/pictures of JR and Ren so uhm, yeah I'm forgiven bc perfection (-: