Friends, Foes, and Who-Knows?

In Search of Meaning
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Hyuk hurried home to put Amber back in his house, and then rushed back out wrapping an apron around his waist. His shift started at 5:30 and it was already a quarter past six. He kicked himself for taking so long at the vet, but the delay was necessary for Amber's sake. When he finally arrived at the cafe, he was an hour late.

"Hyukkie!" Krystal scolded him as he ran through the dining room towards the kitchen. "Where have you been?"

"I'm sorry," Hyuk said to the waitress as he passed by the table she was helping. "I had to take Amber to the vet, and I thought I had enough time."

"Well, it's only an hour and a half til closing time," the older waitress interjected from the counter. "You might as well just go on home. We aren't that busy tonight anyway."

"But-" Hyuk was going to argue, feeling guilty for being late and causing his sunbaes trouble.

"Don't worry about it," the waitress interrupted with a no-nonsense tone. "We can survive without an extra cook, now get!"

The young man bowed his head in apology, and was about to walk back out the door when Krystal stepped into his path.

"By the way," she said. "You know how yesterday I thought I saw the man on that missing persons poster that was up on the board?"

"Yeah." Hyuk replied, looking at the tackboard for said sheet but couldn't find it. "What about it?"

"Well, my grandma called the number on the poster, and the guy that answered actually came to this town to look for him. He stopped by the cafe today."

"Okay. And?" Hyuk asked, unsure of how he should respond to the story.

"That means that if it wasn't for me, he wouldn't be this close to finding him. It feels great that I got to help someone find a missing person." Krystal's eyes sparkled with excitement and a little bit of pride.

"Did he find him, then?" Hyuk questioned, and Krystal's enthusiasm deflated slightly, the sparkles in her eyes dying out.

"Actually, I don't know." She replied. "I haven't seen him since this afternoon."

"Then don't celebrate just yet." Hyuk said, and started walking to the door. "You should get back to work before Hae Sook yells at you again. See you later."

He gave Krystal a curt wave as he passed through the exit, and strode out into the evening to head home. The air was cooling down as the sun came closer to the horizon, and the gentle breeze felt refreshing against Hyuk's skin. Taking a deep breath, he revelled in the smell of pine that carried on the wind. Even though his house was a fifteen minute walk from the cafe, he enjoyed the trek for the fresh air he got every time he walked it. His route took him to the main street, where he would soon turn down an alley that led to his house. When Hyuk turned the corner into the said alley, he froze.

In the dimming light of the setting sun, he could make out the trash cans and garbage bags that had always crowded the small space. But lying in between the trash cans was the figure of a man with his back resting against the building to the right. Hyuk approached cautiously, his heart rate increasing in anxiety at the sight of the stranger.

"Excuse me, sir." Hyuk spoke softly, like he was afraid the man would get angry at him for disturbing his sleep. "Are you okay?"

He was standing in front of the man now, so he could see his face more clearly. Hyuk's breath caught in his throat when he noticed how handsome the man was, but the thought was instantly forgotten when he saw the red stain on the side of the man's white t-shirt. 

"Oh my god, you're hurt!" Hyuk knelt down and placed his hand on the red blotch. He was surprised when he didn't feel as much wetness under his palm as he thought he would, so he lifted the shirt to get a better look at the injury. The large gash on the man's side was already scabbing over, and had stopped bleeding long ago. For a moment, he thought he saw something shine within the wound, as if there was something metallic inside.

A bullet, maybe? Hyuk wondered, and tilted his head trying to see if it would shine again. When it didn't, he assumed he was just seeing things.

He noticed that the man's breathing was even and smooth, so Hyuk concluded that the man was just sleeping and not dying. Putting the shirt back in its place, he gently shook the man's shoulder.

"Sir, you shouldn't sleep here." The handsome man's head only rolled down to his chest, showing no signs of waking up. Hyuk shook his head and sighed. For a moment, he just looked the unconscious man up and down thinking about what he should do. Just leaving him was out of the question, and he felt awkward about searching the man's body for some sort of ID that would help him figure out who this person is.

Maybe I should take him to my house, and give him a proper bandage and bed to sleep in.

Hyuk decided that was the best option for now, so he took one of the man's arms and pulled him up off the ground. The taller man nearly collapsed under the extra weight at his side.

Christ of Jesus, this guy is heavy! 

After taking a few steps dragging the stranger along, Hyuk was already huffing and puffing like he was running a marathon.

"What does this guy eat?" He asked himself between pants.

His house was only five minutes away from the alley, but he had to stop multiple times to catch his breath which extended the time to twenty minutes. He rejoiced silently when his house came into view. With great determination, Hyuk hauled the body up the stairs of his front porch and plowed through the door stumbling into his house. Hyuk's legs felt shaky under him, exhausted from the effort. Shuffling into the living room, he saw the couch that was five feet away but that distance felt more like a mile.

"Come on, Hyukkie." He chanted to himself in a strangled voice, encouraging himself like a fan would to their favorite soccer player. "Almost there. Just a little more."

Finally, the couch was within reach and he let the man fall onto the soft cushions. Hyuk collapsed onto the floor next to the piece of furniture, panting and sweating heavily like he had just finished the marathon. He raised a closed fist to the air in victory.

"Goal~" he said in a long drawn out groan. Amber came running to him from down the hall, and his face happy to see her master home. "Hey sweetie. Go to your kennel, 'kay?" Instantly, the pomeranian ran back down the hall and disappeared down the stairs at the end.

When he caught his breath after a few minutes of lying in a pool of his own sweat, he remembered the reason why he brought the stranger into his house. He grimaced as he pushed himself up, and clumsily walked to the medicine cabinet in the bathroom where he kept the first aid supplies. After grabbing gauze and antibiotic ointment, he stopped into his bedroom to grab a clean t-shirt to replace the stained one the man was currently wearing.

As Hyuk entered the living room again, he jumped and cried out in shock, dropping the ointment and t-shirt. The man was sitting up on the couch and glaring daggers at him, fully conscious.

"Where am I?" the man grumbled.

"Um..." Hyuk's mind raced to find the answer, but his thoughts were jumbled in fear of the man's threatening aura. "M-my house." Hyuk managed to stutter out the words, his eyes never leaving the stranger's burning gaze. 

"Why?" asked the man as he eased himself off the couch, and even though it was a slow movement it scared Hyuk.

Taking frightened steps back, he replied, "Because, y-you were hurt. I-I... wanted to help." His heart pounded in his chest at an alarming speed, and he was preparing to run to the safety of his bathroom any second now.

The man's face remained emotionless as he took step after step towards Hyuk. Even though he didn't express any sort of emotion, his glowering eyes told him that he didn't believe a word he'd said. Realizing the danger he was in, Hyuk whirled around to lock himself in the bathroom that was only feet away. But before he could take a single step, a hand grabbed the back of his shirt and flung him backwards onto the floor of the living room. Panicking, Hyuk scramb

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Kasou9
#1
Chapter 46: Hi i know its been a long time since you wrote this but anyway...i understand that you are no longer a starlight its sad but things like that hapoen to every fan ..... i also know that a lot of people love this story just like me and honestly i really want a happy ending for this the main reason is jonghyun because i only started reading this this week and when i first saw his name i was really sad he was in the fic then i realised you wrote this in 2015 _2016 and as the story went on i couldn't help but somehow just wish this would end happily because jonghyun is alive here and he gets to live and be happy in the end idk its weird to think that way but i felt glad he was in the fic and i was grateful to you but like
Dont remove him please it would be too sad at least like this remember him from time to time ppl will remember him while reading this fic i would really want to see the rest of the fic but its your choice after all and in case you dont finish it i still wanna thank you for the story it was lovely and thank you for sharing our love for vixx and shinee even if it ended somehow ♡
BlingBlingTiger
#2
Chapter 46: I think you need to do what you feel is best for you. We all need time to grieve and come to terms with what happened. I cried for days when I got the news and it feels like a part of me has been ripped away. I understand you not wanting to continue with him as a character in the story.
As for VIXX... Everyone has different opinions and ways of seeing things and dealing with situations...personally, when I see them exhausted and struggling, I worry about them, I want to lift some of the burden somehow. I want to tell them to rest and take care of themselves, but I also want to tell them to keep doing their best. I believe that VIXX and Starlights are a unit together and that it's our job to support and encourage each other. I love them all so, so much and their well-being (physically, mentally and emotionally) is of the utmost importance to me and so I worry a lot but I am also immensely proud of them. They always do their best and work hard to be the best that they can be while showing their appreciation for Starlights and I find that really admirable. Even exhausted, they give it their all to show their fans something amazing because they love Starlights and their passion for what they do is boundless. Seeing their determination despite the difficulties they face just makes me love them even more. To be honest, I could never abandon them like that. Leaving them because they were tired... is not a good reason. It's a shame that you couldn't grasp the immense effort they put in to show you a good performance.
Do what you want with the story and don't continue if you really can't, but please try to be more understanding of others in the future. We are all human beings and it is imperative to remember that they are humans too.
SuperShinee2pm2ne1 #3
Chapter 46: I think you should still continue writing the story. Though I understand the point about Jonghyun and with that I think you can 3 things with his character. The 1st option is to keep writing it with him in it, 2nd option is to exchange someone from another group with him and take the time to rewrite his parts to fit said new character and the 3rd option is to remove home out of the story completely. I personally would be sad if you take his character out but it's not my story to say any of the final stuff regarding the story. What ever you end up doing I'll respect it.
lunaticJTW
#4
Chapter 1: Whoa Taek calm ur
shuzyah
#5
Chapter 46: I am fine with not reading Jonghyun in the story for the time being, as it will hurt for the fans, and it will be tough for you too since you are questioning it. As for supporting VIXX.. considering what happen to Jonghyun, everyone r humans, including VIXX & yourself. If u need to stop the story, or keep it on hitaus, or continue, it is totally up to u, and i will support u & respect ur decision.
JungHyunRi
#6
Chapter 46: Hi authornim.. Finally u are back.. Or atleast have inform ur whereabouts..
1stly.. I am very agree with ChaYuume comment bellow..
Its up to u.. If u want to resume this story or not.. If u alr lost interest abt this story.. Bcz If u keep write this story.. U'll feel burden in fact.. U also can't give soul to ur story..
2nd abt ur experience in VIXX concert.. Well
I have my own experience for VIXX in SEA last July.. And truth to be told as ChaYuumee said.. We can't decide that some idols not give them all to fans (I telk this not only in name of VIXX but every idol in general)
Yepp u must be known that before VIXX have a concert at ur country, they alr had many scheduled they done.. And don't u think they stamina and energy almost zero? But they keep their scheduled over ur country.. If that not a way of their act to show Starlight Canada how they really appreciate ur invite?

Truth be told.. I alr attend Super Show concert in my countries for 5 times.. And the 2 times I attend were SS4 when they held 3 days a row in my country.. And they seriously exhausted at the 2nd day (1st day I attend the concert) And when I attended the last days (I atrended the 2nd and 3rd days).. They looked so hype and excited.. Maybe bcz that day is their last so they could rest.. And they really gave their all out energy in the final days..

Its humanly abt idol tho..

So If u seriously thinking,u couldn't be a starlight anymore just bcz of ur 1st experience,, well sorry to say.. Im a little bit disappointes with ur fell tho.. Huhu..

If u told them not give their all just bcz of ur guessing abt they weren't as excited as the fans there.. Its not wise for them too.. ㅠㅠ
Sorry..
edrylla_Dya #7
Chapter 46: I love this story. I love it's character. I hope the characters stays until the end. But if it's hard for you, I can understand. Thank you for your hard work author-nim

In the light of Jonghyun's passing and in the light of your experience to VIXX concert. Shinee is forever one of my favourite group. They're the second one after tvxq. When I love a group, that's mean no picking biases because I love them all. It tattered me very much, as a person who's much less experiencing the same mental illness. He could have a better future but maybe this is the best for him. And VIXX is, we can see from their schedule how packed it is. Entertaining people seem easy because we're watching without experiencing. Somehow, I hope you still love them the same.

-for we're neither immortal nor invincible-
verse2wo
#8
Chapter 46: While I would like for this story to continue, I understand why you would want to stop.
In light of recent events, it would be a different story without Jonghyun.
I wish you well and support whatever choices you make.
ChaYuume
#9
Hello~!☆
So, first of all...
Your story is one of the best I ever read, the suspense and all were really... Overwhelming?
Anyway thank for writing such a story.
But, if you feels like you can't continue to write it, I think we can all understand it.
It's true that only you knows what future you had reserved to the characters of this story, and with Jonghyun's passing, I understand that it's harder, knowing also what the story is about.
Whether we are fans or not, it affect us all. We all knows who Shinee are, their songs, they had a major impact on kpop.
Even if it's in different ways, even if we dont have the same way to cope with that, to mourn, or whatsoever, it'll leave an impact on all of us.
(It's still a sensible point, I'll move on...)

Secondly, concerning your experience at VIXX's concert.... Well...They are humans.
You can't expect idols to always give it their all when they are exhausted or feels down, even if they are trying it could also not works sometimes. You can't say that they dont care for their fans, not after all they do FOR their fans. Even over their exhaustion, Idols gives you a good performance, even if they're feeling down or aren't in the mood, they take over themselves.
Say, when you are exhausted, are you in a state where you can do anything else aside from resting?
So why would it be different for idols, they are not robots. They push themselves and push their problem asides for the sake of their carreer. For the sake of their own health. The recent situation is sadly the proof of that.
You don't know what is really happening in their lives, they all have their own problems, whichever idol it can be.
And, with all that we know about Korea's idol industry,...

With all of that said, if you lost your motivation over this concert experience and the loss of Jonghyun; if you don't want to continue this story, I think that it's better to just stop it there (even if, I'm sure, we would have liked a proper ending).
In the end, its your story, we are your readers; as long as you feels good with your decision, we must respect it.

Thanks for your hard work~*