Goodbye, Good Morning

In Search of Meaning
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A/N: Y'all are going to hate me for this... *opens door to bomb shelter*

Sunlight streamed into the bedroom through the window, illuminating the sleeping face of Cha Hakyeon. Slowly, the veterinarian scrunched up his nose, and squeezed his closed eyes tighter as the light leaked through his eyelids. Blinking sleepily, he trapped a groan in his throat as he stretched a single arm over his head. He would have stretched his left arm, too; if it wasn't for the warm body clinging onto it.

Wait a second, Hakyeon thought as he opened his eyes wider, and lifted his head to look at what was weighing down on the left side of his body.

The first thing he noticed was the black head of hair with a pair of grey wolf ears sticking out resting on his shoulder. His gaze trailed down to the arms wrapped around his left one, and the leg thrown over both of his own. Finally, at the end of the bed he saw a fuzzy wolf tail curling around his left calf.

When he saw Leo's ears twitch in his sleep, the only thing Hakyeon could think was, Cuuuuute. Then, Leo shifted his head off of his shoulder, and nuzzled his nose into the sleeve of his sweatshirt. CUUUUUUUTE!

Hakyeon couldn't stop the smile from stretching across his face. However, as much as he wanted to stay there to watch the wolf man sleep, there was a pressure in his groin calling out to the bathroom. Reluctantly, Hakyeon gently ruffled Leo's hair.

"Leo?" the vet called in a whisper. "Leo, get up. I need to use the bathroom."

Leo let out a soft canine whine. Half-asleep, he raised his head to give three quick kitten to the skin underneath Hakyeon's chin, before plopping back down on his shoulder. Hakyeon raised his eyebrows at Leo's odd action, but quickly narrowed into crescent eye-smiles as he chuckled. He still wasn't quite used to the canine behavior that seemed to surface at random times, but he wasn't going to complain.

He ruffled Leo's hair a little rougher than the first time, "Come on, Leo. Wake up."

With a groan, Leo finally opened his eyes. The sunlight made him squint as he looked up at Hakyeon, and mumbled, "Five more minutes?"

"Nope," Hakyeon grunted as he tried to sit up with Leo still latched onto him, only to fall back onto the mattress. "You're already awake, so there's no point in trying to sleep for an extra five minutes. Now, get off of me."

The wolf man shook his head, and tightened his grip on Hakyeon. This forced the vet to take drastic measures.

"If you don't get up, I won't make any bacon for breakfast," Hakyeon threatened.

Leo immediately snapped up to a sitting position at the edge of the queen-sized bed, with his hair disheveled, eyes closed, and ears droopy with sleep. The oversized long-sleeved shirt he wore as a pajama top had a wide collar that was stretching to his right shoulder, exposing his collarbones to the world. Scratching his neck, Leo yawned before he his lips drowsily as he thought about bacon strips.

"Cute~" Hakyeon cooed, causing Leo to peak one eye open at him.

"I'm not cute," the wolf man grumbled before slowly climbing off the bed.

Hakyeon followed suit, "Yes, you are. Sometimes, I think your aegyo is stronger than Jaehwan's and Hyuk's combined."

Leo groaned in annoyance as they exited the bedroom, and together they walked down the hall to the stairs. While they descended the steps, they continued to bicker about the wolf man's adorableness. By the time they reached the bottom, Hakyeon had won.

"I'm making some cereal," Leo told the vet as he started walking to the kitchen. "Do you want any?"

"Sure," Hakyeon replied over his shoulder as he strolled to the bathroom. "Thanks, Leo."

Just as he was about to shut the bathroom door, a loud Thud! resounded from the living room followed by a pained groan. Hakyeon took a step back over the threshold of the rest room, and saw Woohyun laying on top of a squirming Hongbin. The assistant mechanic had fallen off of the couch, and landed directly on the slumbering cyborg. Ironically, Woohyun was still asleep, while Hongbin struggled to get the smaller man back up onto the couch. 

"Good morning, Hongbin," Hakyeon said with a grin.

Hongbin looked up from his position on the floor, arms extended upward to hold Woohyun above him, "'Morning, hyung."

 

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Fifteen minutes later, Hakyeon was sitting at the kitchen island enjoying a bowl of Fruit Loops, with Leo sitting next to him doing the same. Hongbin was eating his breakfast out in the living room with Woohyun, complaining to the other about the manner he was woken up in. Hyuk shuffled into the kitchen, and sat down at the end of the island next to Hakyeon.

"Good morning, hyungs," Hyuk mumbled tiredly.

"Morning, Hyukkie," Hakyeon replied, while Leo only gave a curt nod in response.

"So, did you and Leo have yet?" Hyuk asked bluntly, causing Hakyeon to sputter and choke on his cereal in a coughing fit.

Patting his chest, Hakyeon looked at Hyuk questioningly, "No. Why would you ask me that?"

"Because I'm tired of seeing you guys beating around the bush," Hyuk answered, only to fire another question. "How far did you two get, then?"

"We've only kissed," Leo answered, to Hakyeon's surprise.

"Really?" Hyuk tilted his head curiously, and Hakyeon nodded as he took a sip of his water. "Huh, Hongbin and I went further than you, then."

For the second time that day, the vet sputtered, spraying water all over his cereal and the table surface surrounding it. Leo patted Hakyeon's back as he continued to eat his cereal unfazed by the plain-spoken maknae. 

Once he regained his composure, Hakyeon looked at Hyuk sternly, "What do you mean you and Hongbin went further?"

Hyuk's cheek flared a bright red, and he cast his gaze down as he replied, "U-um, I'd rather not explain."

Hakyeon huffed indignantly, "Oh, so you only get embarrassed when you're talking about your own life?"

"Hyuk has a life?" Jonghyun asked as he stumbled into the kitchen, scratching the back of his head. "Since when?"

"Since last night," Key joined in, appearing from behind the mechanic with a spring in his step. He sat down across from Hakyeon, and carried on to explain, "I heard them getting it on in the bathroom sometime last night. Cheetah ears."

"Woohyun didn't need cheetah ears to hear us, though," Hyuk added. "He was a little mad."

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Kasou9
#1
Chapter 46: Hi i know its been a long time since you wrote this but anyway...i understand that you are no longer a starlight its sad but things like that hapoen to every fan ..... i also know that a lot of people love this story just like me and honestly i really want a happy ending for this the main reason is jonghyun because i only started reading this this week and when i first saw his name i was really sad he was in the fic then i realised you wrote this in 2015 _2016 and as the story went on i couldn't help but somehow just wish this would end happily because jonghyun is alive here and he gets to live and be happy in the end idk its weird to think that way but i felt glad he was in the fic and i was grateful to you but like
Dont remove him please it would be too sad at least like this remember him from time to time ppl will remember him while reading this fic i would really want to see the rest of the fic but its your choice after all and in case you dont finish it i still wanna thank you for the story it was lovely and thank you for sharing our love for vixx and shinee even if it ended somehow ♡
BlingBlingTiger
#2
Chapter 46: I think you need to do what you feel is best for you. We all need time to grieve and come to terms with what happened. I cried for days when I got the news and it feels like a part of me has been ripped away. I understand you not wanting to continue with him as a character in the story.
As for VIXX... Everyone has different opinions and ways of seeing things and dealing with situations...personally, when I see them exhausted and struggling, I worry about them, I want to lift some of the burden somehow. I want to tell them to rest and take care of themselves, but I also want to tell them to keep doing their best. I believe that VIXX and Starlights are a unit together and that it's our job to support and encourage each other. I love them all so, so much and their well-being (physically, mentally and emotionally) is of the utmost importance to me and so I worry a lot but I am also immensely proud of them. They always do their best and work hard to be the best that they can be while showing their appreciation for Starlights and I find that really admirable. Even exhausted, they give it their all to show their fans something amazing because they love Starlights and their passion for what they do is boundless. Seeing their determination despite the difficulties they face just makes me love them even more. To be honest, I could never abandon them like that. Leaving them because they were tired... is not a good reason. It's a shame that you couldn't grasp the immense effort they put in to show you a good performance.
Do what you want with the story and don't continue if you really can't, but please try to be more understanding of others in the future. We are all human beings and it is imperative to remember that they are humans too.
SuperShinee2pm2ne1 #3
Chapter 46: I think you should still continue writing the story. Though I understand the point about Jonghyun and with that I think you can 3 things with his character. The 1st option is to keep writing it with him in it, 2nd option is to exchange someone from another group with him and take the time to rewrite his parts to fit said new character and the 3rd option is to remove home out of the story completely. I personally would be sad if you take his character out but it's not my story to say any of the final stuff regarding the story. What ever you end up doing I'll respect it.
lunaticJTW
#4
Chapter 1: Whoa Taek calm ur
shuzyah
#5
Chapter 46: I am fine with not reading Jonghyun in the story for the time being, as it will hurt for the fans, and it will be tough for you too since you are questioning it. As for supporting VIXX.. considering what happen to Jonghyun, everyone r humans, including VIXX & yourself. If u need to stop the story, or keep it on hitaus, or continue, it is totally up to u, and i will support u & respect ur decision.
JungHyunRi
#6
Chapter 46: Hi authornim.. Finally u are back.. Or atleast have inform ur whereabouts..
1stly.. I am very agree with ChaYuume comment bellow..
Its up to u.. If u want to resume this story or not.. If u alr lost interest abt this story.. Bcz If u keep write this story.. U'll feel burden in fact.. U also can't give soul to ur story..
2nd abt ur experience in VIXX concert.. Well
I have my own experience for VIXX in SEA last July.. And truth to be told as ChaYuumee said.. We can't decide that some idols not give them all to fans (I telk this not only in name of VIXX but every idol in general)
Yepp u must be known that before VIXX have a concert at ur country, they alr had many scheduled they done.. And don't u think they stamina and energy almost zero? But they keep their scheduled over ur country.. If that not a way of their act to show Starlight Canada how they really appreciate ur invite?

Truth be told.. I alr attend Super Show concert in my countries for 5 times.. And the 2 times I attend were SS4 when they held 3 days a row in my country.. And they seriously exhausted at the 2nd day (1st day I attend the concert) And when I attended the last days (I atrended the 2nd and 3rd days).. They looked so hype and excited.. Maybe bcz that day is their last so they could rest.. And they really gave their all out energy in the final days..

Its humanly abt idol tho..

So If u seriously thinking,u couldn't be a starlight anymore just bcz of ur 1st experience,, well sorry to say.. Im a little bit disappointes with ur fell tho.. Huhu..

If u told them not give their all just bcz of ur guessing abt they weren't as excited as the fans there.. Its not wise for them too.. ㅠㅠ
Sorry..
edrylla_Dya #7
Chapter 46: I love this story. I love it's character. I hope the characters stays until the end. But if it's hard for you, I can understand. Thank you for your hard work author-nim

In the light of Jonghyun's passing and in the light of your experience to VIXX concert. Shinee is forever one of my favourite group. They're the second one after tvxq. When I love a group, that's mean no picking biases because I love them all. It tattered me very much, as a person who's much less experiencing the same mental illness. He could have a better future but maybe this is the best for him. And VIXX is, we can see from their schedule how packed it is. Entertaining people seem easy because we're watching without experiencing. Somehow, I hope you still love them the same.

-for we're neither immortal nor invincible-
verse2wo
#8
Chapter 46: While I would like for this story to continue, I understand why you would want to stop.
In light of recent events, it would be a different story without Jonghyun.
I wish you well and support whatever choices you make.
ChaYuume
#9
Hello~!☆
So, first of all...
Your story is one of the best I ever read, the suspense and all were really... Overwhelming?
Anyway thank for writing such a story.
But, if you feels like you can't continue to write it, I think we can all understand it.
It's true that only you knows what future you had reserved to the characters of this story, and with Jonghyun's passing, I understand that it's harder, knowing also what the story is about.
Whether we are fans or not, it affect us all. We all knows who Shinee are, their songs, they had a major impact on kpop.
Even if it's in different ways, even if we dont have the same way to cope with that, to mourn, or whatsoever, it'll leave an impact on all of us.
(It's still a sensible point, I'll move on...)

Secondly, concerning your experience at VIXX's concert.... Well...They are humans.
You can't expect idols to always give it their all when they are exhausted or feels down, even if they are trying it could also not works sometimes. You can't say that they dont care for their fans, not after all they do FOR their fans. Even over their exhaustion, Idols gives you a good performance, even if they're feeling down or aren't in the mood, they take over themselves.
Say, when you are exhausted, are you in a state where you can do anything else aside from resting?
So why would it be different for idols, they are not robots. They push themselves and push their problem asides for the sake of their carreer. For the sake of their own health. The recent situation is sadly the proof of that.
You don't know what is really happening in their lives, they all have their own problems, whichever idol it can be.
And, with all that we know about Korea's idol industry,...

With all of that said, if you lost your motivation over this concert experience and the loss of Jonghyun; if you don't want to continue this story, I think that it's better to just stop it there (even if, I'm sure, we would have liked a proper ending).
In the end, its your story, we are your readers; as long as you feels good with your decision, we must respect it.

Thanks for your hard work~*