Today is the 31st of December. I’m going to the beach with my cousins to celebrate New Years Eve. I don’t have a face to show up in front of my friends after I kind of leaving them behind for a girl that I finally knew was never worth for any of my time.

I broke up with her – Lee Hyeri. The person I thought was the replacement of Krystal turned out to be the person who ditched me this fast and easily.

I was being fooled. I like her. I thought she’s the one but turned out it was all bull. I should’ve known she was just using me all this time. She was just dating me because of my appearance – for the pride of dating one of EXO member. She was just fooling me around. Maybe God is putting me on Krystal’s shoes now and boy, this hurts like hell.

I did so much wrong to Krystal. I never appreciated her pure heart. Her life was all about my life and me meanwhile I only thought of her as another girlfriend of mine, not more. I thought her only as a sweetener in my days. I thought that I only wanted her, but never needed her. Now turned out that I was wrong; she is more than what I thought of her. She’s the heart I need to live my life.

Nobody treats me the way she treated me. She could stay all night long obeying everything I wanted. Like when I told her I wanted to sleep and not to wake me up, she did – even it’s already passed midnight and I actually had to go home because it’s inappropriate to stay late night at your girlfriend’s home, yet she endured it and would just receive scold from her mother all to her self.

When I told her I wanted to be w