SULLI

At Gwangju.

I went to Luhan's house.

"He's no here... He already went back to Seoul a week ago." said his grandma.

"Ahhh. Is that so? Thanks Halmoni."

Who are telling the truth here? Is he avoiding me?!

I am all upset. I walk through the Gwangju River hoping Luhan will appear.

I am trying to call him.. but still, out of reach.

What's wrong with him?!?

 

I feel guilty.

Am I doing the right thing?

 

I sit at the bench and feel the air. I closed my eyes.

Then someone had just knocked my forehead.

I opened my eyes and see.

"Luhan....."

He sit beside me wearing a warm smile.
I hope he's okay.

I gulp in. Gathering my thoughts.

"I don't know where to find you anymore, that's why I come here." I said.

"I know..." He smiled.

I feel more guilty because of that sweet smile.

 

"Are you, perhaps, avoiding me?!" I asked.

His expression changes.
 

From sweet to bitter smile.


 

"I thought you're not going to look for me anymore. I guess, not getting in touch with you is helpful." he grins.

 

"It's because I am worried about you." I mumbled.

He glare at me.

 

"I do hope so..." he said.




 

It's true. I am really worried about him since the day I lied just to see Taemin 
 

"Let's go back to Seoul." He uttered as he stood up.

I looked at him. He acts as if he knows nothing.... I am going to return this necklace today.


 

"Wait..." I grabbed his sleeves.
 

He held my hand and grabbed me and we walked.

"Wait, Luhan... there is something I want to tell you.." I released my hand from his gripped. We both stopped.

 

He sighed. He looked down.


 

His face turns serious.


 

"Forget it... because I won't listen." He continued walking.


 

I feel even more guilty.



 

I feel like crying... as I watched him walk away from me. To know that he's not ready to listen to what I am going to say... because he knows that it will hurt him.
I really feel guilty.



I followed him.

"Luhan please! Can you listen to me?!" I shouted.

He stopped.
I approached him.

He turns and looked at me.

I see sadness on his face.

"I am sorry...." I mumbled

He wore a bitter smile.
Just before I am about to speak again, he geabbed me then hug me.

"I won't forgive Taemin if he'll hurt you." Seems like he understood immediately what I am going to say.

"I am really sorry, Luhan... I really don't want to hurt you.." I sobbed. Tears are running through my cheeks.

"It's okay... as long as you're happy... but remember this Sulli-yah... I will always love you... I will always be here waiting for you." He answered

I'm still sobbing. Can't find a word to say.

I removed the necklace from my neck and handed it to him.
"I'm not deserving to have this..." I said.

He held the necklace and turns back....
He continued walking as he left me to where I am standing.




 

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It's been a week since I last saw Luhan. It bothers my conscience. His silence bothers me a lot.

Onew, Jonghyun, Key and I are going to attend the engagement ceremony tomorrow night. The bad news is... they're not able to know Minho's whereabouts at the very end.


 

Taemin and I met infront of their house.

Wearing a warm and sweet smile...
"I want you to be there tomorrow night." He reminded,

I nod.

"Yah... What's wrong with you?" He asked. He noticed that I am pale.

I shook my head.

He held my both shoulder... "Are you worried?" He again asked.

No Taemin, I am more than worried.

"If there's something between Victoria and I, it's just a pure business... Arasso?" He mumbled with a glaring look. Still as ever, the bad boy, war-freak, cold-hearted man, Lee Taemin.
"I know.."
"Good..."

"Uhh... How's your mom?" I asked.
I heard that Mrs. Lee disagree about Taemin's early marriage and until now, she's not yet talking to Taemin.

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