- RE-UPLOADING THE LAST TEN CHAPTERS BACK -

               Jungshin oppa was so mad when I told him about what happened in the class this morning. He almost wanted to meet Jongdae and beat him up for doing that to me but he knows it’ll just a waste. I don’t care about him anymore. I hated him. I never thought he could do that to me. I wanted to cry but I couldn’t cry anymore. My tears almost gone because I’ve cried too much these past few days.

                “He’s so stupid. The most stupid person I ever met on this planet.” Jungshin oppa spoke.

                “Honey, don’t waste your tears for him anymore okay. He didn’t even appreciate it.” Haera unnie patted my back.

                “I’m not. Look, I can’t even cry anymore.” I tried to laugh but it turned into a choked.

                “At least one of your problems is solved now. I talked to Minki this morning. He looked so much better. He also felt guilty for treating you like that. He said he’ll drop by this evening to see you and to apologize.”

                Thanked God. At least my best friend had forgiven me now. Although it got nothing to do with Jongdae and I, but still I can have Minki back by side. I need more support and I knew Minki’s support will means a lot to me.

                “Thanks oppa.”

                “Don’t mention it. He’ll be here in any seconds I think. So now I want you to stop thinking about that stupid Jongdae. Just forget everything about him okay pumpkin?”

                I nodded. It won’t be easy, I know. But I’ll try.

                “Good. Now Jungshin and I are going downstairs. We’ll call you when Minki’s here okay?”

                “Okay.”

                Then they both left.

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               Goddammit Jongdae! You’re so stupid!

                Jongdae punched the wall of his bedroom simultaneously. His fist was bleeding but he didn’t care. He’s too mad to himself. Mad at his own stupid act.

                “I should have not done that! Damn it!”

                He could not even understand himself. He didn’t understand how he can calmly say things like that to the whole class.

                “She’ll never forgive me.”

                He turned around, leaned himself on the wall and let himself fell down until he sat on the floor. Then he wrapped both of his knees into his arms and buried his face between it. He rubbed his bleeding fist and sobs.

                He pretended to be happy when he goes out to the public. Pretended like he was okay. Pretended like she wasn’t much of a bother for him. But deep down inside, he was fighting with his own suffer. He wanted to tell her he loves her, and he didn’t want to let her go. He wanted to hug her, to visit her at the café and ask her if she was okay, to seat beside her in class and to spend the rest of the days with her but what did he do today was totally the opposite of what he wanted. But he had reached his limit. He couldn’t pretend anymore.

                The look on her face when she left the hall this morning left a big hole in Jongdae’s heart. It was a look of disappointment, a look of hatred and a look of disgrace to him. But Jongdae knew he deserves that. He just hoped Minki will be next to her right now. So that she’ll forget him quickly and be with the man whom Jongdae thought she loves. Minki.

                But Jongdae was so stupid. So stupid to even at least let her explain what really happened. But it’s already too late for that.