Jonghyun's point of view

The next monday came...

I-I… Jonghyunie… I don’t want you to go...Believe me, you are a precious friend and it would take time to adapt a daily life where you are not in it

I shook my head vigorously… Stop it Jonghyun…

I have to forget whatever happened in the past. I decided to quit and that’s that.

“Oppa did you wait too long?” Se Kyung waved as she went near me. I waved back with rigid hands. She looks beautiful as always. I bet she came from the shooting base on what she is wearing. When she reached me, she immediately locked her arms around my neck. “I miss you oppa.” Se Kyung then tiptoed and closed her eyes. Her face nearing mine and her slightly puckered pink lips are just inches to mine.

She is giving me a kiss…

I know I should receive it and be thankful for it. But as usual I—Kim Jonghyun—is being stupid again. I quickly grabbed her waist and pulled her in an embrace. “People can see us, Se Kyung.” I whispered to her. I think my stupidity did make sense anyway seeing that we are near a street market.

“Humph, I understand,” she said, hearing aegyo in her voice. She pulled away and beamed at me, “oppa, I heard you have a schedule for My Sweet Ordinary Girlfriend, why are you here then?”

I didn’t answer her. She asked for this, she just wants to tease me. Instead, I took out eyeglasses and hats to cover our faces. As I try to put it on her, I accidentally pulled a hairpin from Se Kyung’s hair. “Yah, oppa do I really have to wear this cheap hat, it’s ruining my hair.”

Jonghyunie, you and Se Kyung unnie should buy cheap hats so that people won’t notice you when you go on a secret date!

I blinked twice, trying to forget that memory from the past. “People will see us, please Se Kyung. It’s not good for your reputation.”

“Ani, being with you makes me more popular oppa. But fine I’ll wear it. I can’t possibly say no if you beg to me right?”

I was blown out at what she said. What was that suppose to mean? Popularity never entered my mind when I courted her. Is this the reason why she took me back?

“Let’s walk,” She took hold of my arm and together we strolled down the road. “Where do you want to go oppa?”

“Why don’t we grab something sweet to drink?” I suggested. Se Kyung’s pretty face frowned.

“Tsk, juices and shakes are for kids,” She rolled her eyes and smiled, “anything else?”

I’ll take strawberry Jonghyunie…hmmm maa!

“Yes, they are for childish people,” I commented as that memory popped in my mind. “What about if we just go on and take a stroll in the park.”

“I’m telling you something Kim Jonghyun,” Se kyung faced me and pinched my nose. “You are the coolest person to date but today you’re kind of boring. This is your fake girlfriend's fault; she’s such a bad influence to you.”

I didn’t say anything in response. I am a man but I can also be confused with my feelings. I don’t know what it is but one thing is for sure; I’m not feeling happy right now. I don’t want to talk about her and I definitely don’t want anyone to talk badly about her.

Se Kyung offered to choose the place herself. She said she has a friend who owns a restaurant and that she can ask for a favor so we can have it on our own. “It’s a good place and all the waitresses are good. No one throws glasses to a costumer there.”

And once again the stupid Jonghyun didn’t say a word. I think I’m becoming a mute person. I have known Se Kyung for a long time and she can really be tactless at times. Yes, that’s it she is just being tactless now.

We reached the restaurant and I have to agree at what she said. The place is amazing! Chandeliers, crested seats, handmade curtains…

“A place fitting for idols,” Se Kyung commented giddily.

I nodded silently. Yes, it is a place for idols and somehow… it doesn’t feel right.

The place is very peaceful. There are no other people around aside from us and her friend who will be serving us today. We took the table at the centermost part of the restaurant. As we waited for our order, Se Kyung is playing with my fingers. I notice that there was no scar where the glass hit her. "You're finger is healed." I remarked.

"What finger? Oh, I just made sure I erased the fake blood properly so that it won't ruin my skin."

"WHAT?" I exclaimed in surprise. "what do you mean by fake blood?"

Se Kyung bit her lip, "I mean... I mean... ugh! Fine, I did it to myself okay? I hurt myself! What's so wrong with that, this way you have a reason to be mad at her and no one will blame you for leaving the show!" she smiled, "You should thank me. oppa, it is a cruel thing to be stuck in a show as everyone expects you to love a person you just met."

"Se Kyung-ah, do you know Hyu---she was punished for what you've done?" I said exasperatedly. I was about to say her name but I stopped myself as emotions would overflow if I would.

"She'll be fine, for crying out loud!!!" Se Kyung slammed her hands on the table. She stood up in rage, her delicate eyes almost popping out. "Stop acting like you care for her!!! This was supposed to be a celebration. After this we can go out in public again, no more hiding! You're ruining US oppa!" Tears are starting to form on Se Kyung's eyes.

I stood up and gently make her sit again.

Quietly I did that...

I can't say I'm sorry for depressing her because she's giving me hell right now. I can't even look at her without being angry anymore. "Se Kyung--ah..."

"I know oppa," she smiled innocently at me and gripped my hand. "You're welcome. We're almost there, soon we can finally date each other without hiding! The whole press and public would know, and will be so happy!!!" The tears were gone and she didn't look sad anymore. I know what this is...

Acting...

My phone suddenly vibrated, I took it and saw my wallpaper probably for the 100th time for today. It was her, sticking her tongue out while her green eyes glared at me.

What have I done? I have hurt her for so many times, accused her for hurting Se Kyung and now I made her act like I would be meeting her soon as she waits for me on that bench. I have done so many cruel things to her... and for what?

All the control I've been setting for myself finally exploded. Who am I kidding? Everytime Se Kyung comments I only think of what she would say instead. I entered this restaurant and I end up thinking how she wouldn't like this place. I offer Se Kyung something to drink and I remember how she likes strawberry flavor and when I offer to stroll around I was remembering how she let go of the jacket, how she gave up on me.

There's no denying it, no matter how much I try, things are not the same any more. And I know that because of one thing...

All I can think right now is... HYU ME

Her naive expression, her thrifty acts, her dislike of feminine clothes. True, she can't be compared to Se Kyung. But I love the simplicity and the imperfectness of her personality. And not being with her right now makes me miss her, makes me think it's not right.

Hyu Me...she is facing the cameras alone right now. She'll face the whole staff without knowing what to say. And I'm here, with Shin Se Kyung the person I...love?

"Tell me, why did you take me back?" I asked her in a bussiness like tone.

She tightened her hold on my hands and smiled, "I realized I was wrong oppa, staying away from you was a bad thing. I miss you everyday and seeing you with Kim Hyu Me hurts me."

I smirked, "Spoken like a true actress." I withdrew my hands and narrowed my eyes. "too bad we are in reality right now. It does not convince me anymore."

That made her confused, she didn't expect me to be like this and I understand that, I have always been good to her, been always understanding. "Let's drop it, We both know what's going on." I stood up and started to walk.

"Stop! Oppa, you can't leave me or---"

"Or what?" I raised my voice and looked back. "Or your popularity won't increase? I knew all along, but I've held it in...I've held it in because I loved you." There was no sad feeling I see in her face only shock and outrage. By that, I know I'm doing the right thing...and the right thing is to Let Go...

I have learned that from someone special to me.

"So you're choosing that fake show instead of me???" Se Kyung shouted this as soon as she stood up.

"'My Sweet Ordinary Girlfriend' might have been just a show but it feels a lot more real being there than being with you." I might be harsh this time but comparing this to what she did to Hyu Me, what I'm doing is just a small ant bite. "Let's end this..."

"Oppa!" Se Kyung rushed forward and hugged me, "Fine I am doing this because I want to be more famous but I did love you. I did love you Kim Jonghyun!" She squirmed and tears are flowing out in her eyes again. "I thought you love me, you love me right?"

I shook my head, "The Shin Se Kyung I desperately loved is gone. Her ambition has eaten her." I pulled myself away, and left...

I rode a cab and told the driver where I am going...I'm going back to Kim Hyu Me.

---&---

There she is...

"YAH! HYU ME-SHII, STOP BEING A BRAT AND TELL US WHERE THE HELL IS YOUR BOYFRIEND!!!"

 "Director-nim, she's freezing, let's make her rest."

"ANI, SHE IS GOING TO TELL ME OR SHE'LL FREEZE TO DEATH HERE. HYU ME...WHY ARE YOU NOT TALKING!!!"

I rushed towards them. My eyes trained only to her, I launched myself between the the heated director and Kim Hyu Me. I bowed to the director and said my apologies over and over again.

Cameramen immediately started to tape us.

"Jong--Jonghyunie?" Her frail voice echoed in my ears. I faced her and saw her wide green eyes. I also notice how pale she is. It must have been because of staying on the bench for too long. "You came back?" She said dubiously.

I haven't notice my hands cooping her cold face, "Ani, this babo never left." I whispered and hugged her tight. I realized her body is shaking form being out in the cold. I buried my face in her hair, hating myself for being a burden to her. "Mhiane, Hyu Me...cheongmal Mhiane,"

"Babo, You didn't do anything wrong. But I have to admit the director was really noisy and...and that I did miss you and your stupidity." It felt great when she hugged me back. With just that, I know I won't be letting go again, no matter what.

"So now that the guy is here, we can go to the party now!" Director merrily announced. Funny, just one minute ago his face was beet red and his belly was protruding due to rage and know he acts like nothing happened when in fact they have been waiting for almost three hours.

 Hyu Me and I rode my manager's car. I didn't let go of her hand even if we are in the car. I still feel guilty about everything that happened and her silence is not helping at all.

It was 8 in the evening when we arrived. I have to be separated from Hyu Me to wear formal clothes. The director scolded me as people from the staff  took care of me. I wasn't listening really, people scolding me is normal for this show. I chose this and so I have to stick to it. I'm not complaining either, it's good someone shouts at me sometimes so that I can remember my priorities once in awhile.

"Hyu Me is already inside, just look for her. There are other idols inside too so greet them with respect."

I nodded, making sure I remember everything that my manager hyung said. Especially at the part where I have to look for her. The doors opened and I find myself inside a dark room. Although we have to wear something formal, the party is surely for young people. Neon lights greeted my eyes. A large silver disco ball was hanging in the middle of the room and under it, various people are dancing.

I greeted people all the way. I met Goo Hara, Sunny, Hongki and other idols along the way. All of them said they met Hyu Me just awhile ago.

"Yah, you are a luck guy Jonghyun, your ordinary girlfriend is relly pretty!" I Yunho hyung thumped my back as he said that.

"No, I'm the one who's lucky," I expressed. This made hyung laughed. There was a mysterious glint in his eyes. "Make sure you hold her tight Jonghyun or else other people will take her."

Now I really have to look for her...

When she is nowhere to be found in the room, I went to the rooftop in hopes of finding her their.

And she was there...She's on the edge of the rooftop looking down with a smile on her face. She's breathtaking to see. Her white dress complimented her skin. Her hair, fixed and small curls are slightly billowing due to the cold wind. And on the ground, her sandals are set aside. She tiptoes with her bare feet as she tries to take a better look below.

I went behind her and rested my palms on either side of her. Closing her around me. "Let me guess, Jonghyunie?" She said without looking back.

"Didn't you like the party?" I asked.

Hyu Me shook her head, "It makes me dizzy. Definitely not for me and the high sandals too if you haven't noticed." Both of us chuckled after that.

We watched the small cars and bright lights below. I took her hand and slipped my fingers between hers. Her cheeks burned as I did that, "isn't it awkward to do this?"

I shrugged, "I'm just following the photographer." We laughed again remembering how the photographer looked when Hyu Me scolded him. "The heart can be considerate and it can also be selfish. Whether to make someone happy or to make yourself happy, that is your choice" I said repeating her last message to me before. "Hyu Me why did you let go of me?"

"To make you happy, duh." She said like this is obvious, "How about you? Why did you let go of her?"

I leaned to her and put my forehead at the back of your head. "I'm a selfish person Hyu Me. I did it to make myself happy. And it wasn't letting go, It was a choice."

She faced me and gives me a curious and innocent look "You choose between Se Kyung and what? The show?"

I sighed, and knocked gently on her head. "I really love how naive you can be Miss Kim Hyu Me. It's cute."

I didn't answer her question but the answer is already in my mind...

I chose between Se Kyung and you...

End! WEEEh first part--Jonghyun--DONE! Next stop... hmmm. Hope you'll enjoy! tell me if you have anything to say okay? So that I'll know the feedbacks and so that I can improve my story. :)