Friday 15th December

Dear Diary,


As you'd expect the media didn't let go after the report. Although we finish promoting and were meant to go on holiday, paparazzi made it impossible. Mr YG was furious obviously. He tried to say it wasn't true but with those pictures no one believed him.

Everything was hectic. It’s been over 3 months and our break hasn’t been going as we expected it would. We spent most of the day trapped in our dorm. It was all my fault and I knew once people discovered it was JiYong, things would get worse.

Fortunately, 3 weeks before we were due back in the studio we got an opportunity to go on holiday... Together as a band. Luckily for me, the destination was The Philipines. I'd finally get to go home to see my family and friends. 

However things didn't go as smoothly as I thought they would.

~28^th July ~


It was the first night back home. I've always lived with my mother and brother so there wasn't much to come back to. The girls loved the fact that we lived so away from the city and believed we'd finally get the first holiday we've dreamt of.

After supper me and Minzy went up to my room where we'd be sleeping. ChaeRin and Bom were sharing Cheodong's room just down the hall. 

It was dark and frankly it was a beautiful night. I missed the star lit sky. Minzy and I spent all night chatting on the balcony. 

'Dara... I can't believe you left all of this' she sighed mesmerised by her surroundings. The rolling hills and farm land that surrounded our house captivated the girls who grew up in the city.
'After spending my whole life here... Seoul has always been a dream'
'And of all the people who could've made it happen, I can't believe JiYong Oppa found you' she said looking at me with a wide smile. 'I'm glad he did' she added.

Before I could reply I dashed to the toilet and threw up. The smell of vomit has never appealed to me and I found it disgusting. I didn't know why I did... I felt perfectly fine before. And this wasn't the first time either.

'Dara... Are you okay?' Asked ChaeRin who sat beside me. I must've been pretty loud since everyone in the house woke up. 

'I'm fine. You can go back to sleep' I said.
'Dara... I think we need to take you to the doctors in the morning' Bom added. The others voiced their agreement.
'Yes darling, I agree with Bom-ssi' my mother added. 'Vomiting like this isn't healthy' 
'First thing in the morning we go' my mother said in a stern voice, signalling the end of the conversation.

With this everyone went to bed and I was left alone with my thoughts

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