Rosé's POV

Lisa told us that she will go early to school so she can see her love of her life, Jimin. He really like that guy. We, including Jennie and Jisoo allowed her to do these things for that guy, as long as she is happy, as long as she will not harm herself.  But we didn't forget to remind her not to give too much. Love is a wonderful thing, but sometimes love can give pain. I felt it too. Maybe I just gave too much feelings to a guy that I changed into someone I am not. 

Flashback

I had a boyfriend named Jaehyun.  He was a good looking guy, but he was known to be trouble. I was with him for almost 1 year. I was still a freshman student and he was on his senior year. He drinks and smokes a lot. He was a pro in cutting classes. And I am Rosé, the girl who was so in love with Jaehyun, also did those things. I drink and smoke, he taught me how to do that. I almost got failed in all my subjects during those times because I was cutting classes because I joined their drinking and smoking sessions. 

Jaehyun was my first boyfriend. He was kind and respectful.  He never made moves like kissing me. It was all just hugs, kisses on the cheeks and forehead, holding hands. I was from a conservative family. So that's all I can offer. There were times, I got drunk. I was happy that Jaehyun did not take advantage to me. That's what I thought at first until that night happened.

I attended a birthday party from one of Jaehyun's friends. I was told it was just a dinner. When I got into the birthday celebrant's home, I saw people wearings bikinis and shorts.

I was welcomed by Jaehyun with warm hugs. I knew he was drunk that time, I can smell his breath. I was surprised when I saw a kiss mark on his cheek.

"Babe, what's this?"I asked him as I pointed the mark.

"Oh this? It was from Taeyong. We played and the punishment was to apply lipstick on the lips. He got lose and then kissed me. You know the guy was too drunk. "he answered."

"Okay."

"Let's go inside. "He said."Sorry, I forgot to tell you to bring your bikinis."he apologized.

Then, Johnny approached us. He was the birthday boy.

"Glad you cameRosé. "He hugged me. I smiled.

"Yeah. Happy Birthday John. I'm sorry I didn't know that it will be a pool party. I didn't bring any bikinis."I said.

"No problem. I think Yeonwoo brought some extra. I'll tell her to let you borrow for tonight." 

So Yeonwoo let me borrow her two piece red bikini. It was my first time to wear bikini in a big crowd. I was more into rash guard outfit. It's not because I don't have a good body, it's not also because I have scars in my body, It's just that I am not confident to wear it. But for Jaehyun, I will do it. 

Johnny let me use his room so that I can change. Jaehyun excused himself, since he will going to use the restroom. As I entered Johnny's room, I was surprised it was untidy. Well what can you expect with a guy. I continued to change into my bikini, Yeonwoo's bikini's to be exact. Then my phone rang. It was from Jennie. I answered it quickly.

"Hey Jen, what's up?"

"Rosé, where are you?"she asked

"I'm here in Johnny's house. We're celebrating his birthday."

"Birthday my ."she said. "You were being filmed LIVE by them. They streaming it live. Leave that place, Rosie. Please." she said.

"What are you talking about?"I asked, confused if I believe her or not.

"If you don't believe in me, see for yourself. I'll send you the link." she said. 

And that's it, Jennie said was true. I was being filmed by them. Jaehyun and his friends. I can hear they're screams in the video. I saw their faces, especially Jaehyun who was laughing.

I changed into my clothes and went downstairs.  I saw people who were screaming and laughing at me. They've watched it. Why did they do this to me?

As I was about to go out, I saw Jaehyun with a girl. It was Kim Doyeon. They're kissing, not minding the other people.  

Then I cried. It was the most heartbreaking time in my life. Jaehyun fooled me. Jaehyun hurt me. 

End of Flashback

Today I'm not the innocent Rosé they know. . I stopped drinking and smoking. I didn't entertain boys until now. I focused myself to my studies and my  family and friends. I am thankful to them that they never leave my side. I already learned from that experience .Do not trust, do not give too much.