// Im terribly sorry for not updating anytime sooner T_T , but          here's the update and I hope you guys enjoy it !!! ( sorry for        any errors or typos hehehe )

The wind breezed through Junhoe's face as he rock himself back and forth . His face was dry as the tears stopped streaming down his red cheeks . The boy tried to wiped it away just to find the soft sand on his face . He grew in frustration with wiping the sand away and just bear with it as he regain his conscious towards the sun that was already at the edge of the horizon . "I miss you hyung" he whispers slowly to himself and felt his heart clench into a tight grasp but ignored any aching from making his eyes watery again . He misses Jinhwan , and he would do anything to have him back . Junhoe swore to protect him but the only thing he managed to give was betrayal between his words and that made the older had enough , enough with all of his lies .

As dusk began to fall , people started to come out from the sea and with laughters lingering around that made Junhoe's heart more empty than ever . He stood up and sweep off the sands from his jeans and shirt . The boy suddenly felt heavy leaving the place . It was their first date ever on the spot and that made the younger recall so much , he started to bawl his eyes out . And he was hoping for a miracle . A miracle where the older would stand at the shore , hair blown away with the wind , waving at the younger . But that was his mere imagination , Jinhwan had left . And it left a deep scar inside the boy's heart . As he parted away from the beach , he took out his phone and the brightness made him squint his eyes . The younger stared down at the phone's background in which shown a picture of him and Jinhwan at the beach . The memories came crashing down his mind just how the waves hit the hard rocks . He chuckled a bit seeing how cute Jinhwan was with some mayo left on his lips , eyes closing and showing off his heart shaped mole as he smiled sheepishly inside the picture . Junhoe remembered how things were okay back then , how everything was how he wanted to be . Just plain normal , but he managed to ruin it once again . And this time there was no more "okay" , because that one particular person that he loves was no longer there with by his side . 

A click of the door knob let the younger inside the house just in time before it was midnight . The walk took much of the time from the beach and he didnt want to bothered his driver so much to have pick him up far away . Junhoe closed the door behind him and hang his jacket by the wall . Fatigue has taken over his body but it was mostly tired from his messed up emotions . As he sat on the sofa he could feel the aching starting to crawl its way back to that empty hole inside his left chest . The boy bite down his lips , trying everything he can to suppress any tears from breaking out of their pores . Junhoe could still smell him  here . He gotten used to how the older had smelled whenever he came out of the shower , that slight cinnamon whiff which left their soft marks on the sofa . Some due to the older frequently dozing off in the living room . Junhoe laid his head back as his eyes met the plain coloured ceiling . The aching had stopped but who knows it might be trigger anytime sooner . After Jinhwan had left , Junhoe was more bound to be caught inside his depression more than before . Possibly because he blamed himself for letting the older get hurt and now losing him was a big ordeal for the younger to take in . He's still sad and will ever be , until he can managed to pick himself up and move on . But that was too soon , too irrelevant to face now . He needs Jinhwan more than ever , craving for the older's body to be in contact , his sweet face and heart warming voice . Junhoe closed his eyes slowly drifting into a deep slumber . "Please come back" the words came out painfully before he finally fell asleep . 

In his dream he saw Jinhwan running away , his left palm pressed on his forehead and with a bag slung over his shoulder . The petite boy was running towards an endless road , though Junhoe himself doesn't know how far does the road stretched . Hell , he doesn't even know where he is . One thing's for sure is that Jinhwan was there . The tall boy stood firmly , watching him as if trying to escape from something . Abruptly the older stopped and rested his hands on his knees with his back moving up and down , probably due to exhaustion from running who knows many kilometres he had reached . But as soon as he turned around , their eyes met and Junhoe was stunned for a moment and felt his legs shaking . For a moment he saw the redness inside the older's eyes and stream of tears down his cheeks . His pale lips parted with hitched breathing as if he couldn't catch his breath properly and could have an asthma attack anytime . Junhoe stared down at the worn out Jinhwan and immediately hands automatically thrown forward trying to get a hold on the older but as soon as Junhoe started moving , the small boy started to move back abit , eyes widened in fear as if Junhoe was some kind of vicious animal trying to hurt him . "Hyung?" Junhoe called out , eyes starting to get watery . "Hyung its me . Its me , Junhoe" . Jinhwan only moved backwards inch by inch , with hands clutching to his bag and fear in his eyes . He doesnt know him . The petite boy started to quiver , a sound of whimper escaping from his mouth . Junhoe felt crushed seeing him like this . He doesn't want to hurt him , not again . "Hyung , please it's just me . It's Ju-" before he could finish his word the older stumble backwards as he fell to a cliff that just existed seconds ago . "No !!!" Junhoe ran towards the boy , one arm reaching out trying to atleast grab a piece of his cloth . But he was too late , just like how he was before . 

"Hyung !!" Junhoe screamed out . Tears in his eyes and beads of sweat on his forehead . The boy looked around only to find himself back inside his living room , body outstretched on the sofa . Junhoe shook his head and covered his face with both his palms . The younger's body trembled and quivered not because it was cold , but because he was afraid . A line of shining tear rolled down his cheek , wetting the pillow his head was resting on . "I can't do this anymore . This is too hard" His voice shaking and broke down as if there was anyone to hear him , but the house was empty . Just like his heart . Never in a million years Junhoe had thought that crying himself to sleep would be the best option to let his mind conjure into a peaceful slumber . He did though, because inside his head was all about him and their memories together . That made him rest well enough , with all those happiness that lasted with Jinwhan , at least some of them were good enough to let the younger fall asleep quietly with dry stream of tears on his cheeks . 

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It's 3 pm in the evening that Junhoe once again walked to the beach . He liked it though , with the sun sending warm rays towards the tall boy's body letting the hotness kick in instead of his messed up emotion breaking off again . Last night had been tough for the boy to sleep . Even after falling back to his deep slumber , he would constantly woke up with no reason and calling out Jinhwan's name . It hurts him seeing himself like that and half of his heart told him to go outside and take some air , because being alone inside that house only made him feel worse . Ever since the older moved in they shared alot together and being alone without him made his heart restless . So he took the time to visit the beach again , hoping he would just let it go . Let it go and just move on . 

Soft wind blew across the land as trees dances to the flow . As usual Junhoe picked up their-his usual place under the tree . He sat down on the soft sand and eyeing the surfers at the sea . One looked like Donghyuk but he couldn't tell quite enough . His features were a bit too obscure for the boy to make out his shape . Junhoe swiped his bangs away from blocking his eyes and took in some deep breath on the calming air . Whatever he was feeling , he wants it to stop now . He's not coming back . Just stop . Stop making yourself like this Junhoe !  His mind was screaming at him as if they were a person itself . He closed his eyes , trying not to cry again because hell he had enough with that . Crying won't make it any better , and missing him was never an option to begin with . He couldn't accept it . It was too soon , too painful to bear everything that was churning inside of him . It was too soon to move on because that desire was still there . His blink slowly , gazed towards the vast sea , but mind running somewhere else . 

 Junhoe's eyes were fixed at the waves when a shadowy figure far at the edge of the shore running ahead while carrying his surfboard. He followed the person's movement and it looked like the