Just Forget About It
To All The Boys That I've Loved BeforeI called Seungcheol the other day , to give my answer . I told him to wait in the library , same time same spot . I was so nervous I even had a script revised , I was that nervous .
" Sorry I'm late ! " I said as I ran , out of breath . " Class... ended...late..."
" It's okay . " he said . " So , what's your answer ? "
" About that..." I took deep breath. " Okay , I'll go out with you . "
" Chincha ? " his eyes lit up . " That's great , I thought you'd say no . "
" Who would turn down you ? " I said , almost blushing . " They'd be blind if they do reject you . "
" But why do I think I'm the blind one for not noticing you ? "
That's it , everyone could definitely hear my little heart beating . He was the first boy ever to say that to me , sweet things like that . I suddenly felt insecure about everything about me , what if there was something on my face ? Or my hair was messy from running around just now ? Or-or-
Okay , just snap out of it Minju !
" You're not blind , I'm just invisible. " I joked .
He laughed , " Now that's a statement . So , how about this Friday ? "
I couldn't get out on a Friday , it was the busiest day at the cafe .
" I can't do this Friday . " I answered , slightly disappointed .
" That's okay , we can go out next friday . "
" No , I mean I can't go out on Fridays . "
He frowned , " But , it's Friday . Why not ? And don't tell me it's homework night . "
I smiled sympathetically , " It's complicated , trust me . There's nothing I can do , I can't do Fridays."
" I'm not giving up that easily , we'll just change plans . How about tomorrow night ? "
I nodded , " I can do that , so tomorrow ? "
" I'll meet you outside the cinema just beside our school , tomorrow at seven , okay ? "
" Okay , then . " I answered , so boys asked people out was that easy . Huh .
He gave a thumbs up , " Good to hear , I can't wait for tomorrow . I'll see you tomorrow , Minju ! " and he walked away .
This was going to be my first date .
I had three problems :
1) Do boys come earlier or the girls came earlier ?
2) Did I have to buy the tickets or did he have to buy the tickets ?
3) What was I supposed to wear ?
I couldn't afford a proper dress until now , and I didn't find it as a problem . Now I was doomed , at least I thought I was ... Yuna and Halla demanded me to go shopping with them for new clothes , but I didn't want to burden them again . Besides , I knew they would let me use their money . It was something I would never have let them do .
It couldn't matter that much , right ? I mean , it didn't matter what I dressed if I liked the way I was . I wore a white blouse and blue jeans , with my three-year-old chuck taylors and an old red scarf .
I set out to the cinema , where I immediately saw Seungcheol waiting for me . He looked ravishing with a red polo shirt and black cardigan , he waved at me .
" At first , I thought you were gonna wear something fancier . " he said as he looked at me .
" Ugh , I knew I should've picked something else . " I slapped my head .
" That's fine , you look good either way . " he pointed at his shirt and at my scarf . " Look , we even have matching colours . "
" By coincidence , I guess . So , did you get the tickets ? "
" Oh ! Right ! " he said . " I didn't know what you liked , so I thought we could choose together . "
" That's a good idea . So , what do you wanna watch ? "
He examined the list of movies , " Hmm , Jurassic Park looks good to watch . The graphics look great . "
" Um , how about the Fault In Our Stars ? I heard from school it's pretty nice . "
He looked at me doubtfully , " Nah , dramas don't work for me . No matter how sad it is , I just won't cry . "
" Oh ? Well , that's okay . " but actually I really wanted to watch The Fault In Our Stars , to be honest ...
" Well , if you don't want Jurassic Park , the Kill Order sounds fun to watch too . "
" Seungcheol , isn't it a little too violent ? "
" Oh , you don't like fight scenes ? " he was a little taken aback . " Then Fast and Furious , there's a plotline in it ! "
I didn't want to watch anything involving guns or cars or killing or zombies , I would just close my eyes throughout the whole movie . And I didn't want to do that on my first date . I'll admit I'm a hopeless romantic , so now you know why I wanted to watch TFIOS ...
We ended up watching The Exorcist , I did not enjoy it at all . Oh well , at least Seungcheol loved it . While I was whimpering and closing my eyes the whole time , he was jumping around his seat all excited and hyped .
I was eager to leave the cinema when it ended , I thought I was the first to leave my seat . My popcorn was hardly eaten , I let Seungcheol take it . He was gobbling it happily as we came out , I was still sick of those scary scenes in the movie ...
" That was a good movie wasn't it ? " he asked .
" Y-yeah , I guess so..."
" Which part did you like the best ? "
" Um-um , well what did you like the best then ? "
" I loved the part when he got possesed , it was freaking awesome ! Hey , are you okay ? "
" Huh ? "
" You look like you could faint any moment , are you sure you're okay ? "
"Y-yeah , maybe I'm just hungry ..."
" I almost forgot about dinner ! Let's go . "
" How about Chinese ? " I asked,
" Nah , I just had it yesterday . How about that Japanese restaurant , I heard the serve live dishes ."
I had enough living creatures for a night ...
" Not for me , how about pizza ? "
I was hoping he would say yes . But no...
" It's a date , Minju . You don't just go for pizza ! I say we go for Chipotle . "
" Anything you want ..."
Oh boy...
I thought I liked someone that I knew , not this . Sure , he was kind enough on the date . The problem was we didn't like the same stuff . He liked Chipotle , and I liked Dominos , he prefered horror and I hated horror , I'd rather watch a teen flick about cancer and he'd rather rave about how epic a human got tortured in the Exorcist...
The list goes on and on , like so . I didn't even know what to say to him during dinner , it was as disastrous as it could be . He paid the bill , and we had a night stroll by the shops .
We stopped for a second and took a rest on the benches .
" I had fun tonight . " he confessed .
And I didn't...
" I'm glad you did . " I laughed nervously .
" Usually most girls would totally reject me if I bought horror mivie tickets to watch . " he remarked .
Haha, said nobody ever...
" You know , Minju , you're actually really great to hang out with . I mean, go on a date with . " he confessed.
" Well , I'm glad you think of me that way ."
" And, " he inched closer . " I hope we can take it to the next level , be more than friends ."
He was so close to me , his lips were inches from mine-
" No , Seungcheol. " I shifted away .
He looked embarassed , " Oh , sorry if I made you uncomfortable . Don't worry , we can take it slow ."
I shook my head , " I mean , no I don't want to take things to another level . "
He was surprised , I knew it ." Why not ? "
" The thing is , I'm not the type you like . " I had to tell him the truth , either way. " To be honest , now I realize I hardly know anything about you ..."
" Like ? "
" I hate horror movies , I didn't know you were a fan . I get sick whenever I see live seafood , you like it so much . And the person I had a crush on was only the boy that was handsome and kind enough to help me in gym class, it was all in my head . I think you know what I mean , right ? "
He rubbed the back of his neck awkwardly , " I know what you mean , it's just I feel sort of rejected , you know ? "
" Don't get me wrong , you're a great guy . " I assured . " I'm just not fit for you . "
" So does that mean we're still friends ? I don't want to end it this way . " he looked hopeful , but this time I didn't feel nervous .
I smiled , " We've just started being friends , that wouldn't change . "
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