Two weeks had gone by since I had my panic attack and the last time I had spoken to Kai. I pushed him away when all he was trying to do was help. I had never felt that insecure in my life.

I missed Kai, dearly. I missed the kindness he had towards me, the kisses we shared, the moments we had. Life with him seemed so perfect. Why did I let my insecurities get the best of me, pushing the one man I loved away from me? I'm such an idiot.

It was a few hours before I was going to disembark on my cruise to the Bahamas. I wasn't going to see Kai, or the rest of his brothers for another two weeks. I had never felt so empty. Baekhyun, Suho, and Chen had reached out to me, telling me how awful Kai has been, which didn't make me feel any better, but I knew that we both felt horrible about everything.

I was staring at Kai's phone number for the longest time debating whether or not I wanted to text him to wish him Merry Christmas, but I was scared. Then again, it's not like I'm seek g him right now. We're miles away from each other. A text wouldn't be so bad.

Tiana: Hi, Jongin. Um, I just wanted to wish you and your brothers a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year. Have a nice break.

There. That wasn't so bad. Not too long after I sent Kai that text, he sent me one back. .

Jongin: Hi Tiana. Thank you. Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to you too. I'll be sure to tell the guys. I miss you ❤️

He misses me? After all that I said to him?

Jongin: Do you miss me?

Tiana: I do miss you Jongin. A lot.

Jongin: I want to make up with you. When can I do that?

Tiana: Probably not until we come back from break.

Jongin: Then I'll wait. Will you bring me back a souvenir from the Bahamas?

Tiana: Only, if you bring me something back from South Korea.

Jongin: Deal. Have a safe trip. I love you ❤️

Tiana: You have a safe trip as well. I love you too 💗