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Rachel POV

"Hey. How have you been? Onew told me that you were feeling sick.." Leeteuk said to me through the phone. After I had met Ryeowook and Shindong, they introduced me formally to the rest of Super Junior. I had already knew Yesung and Sungmin personally, but the rest of them were pretty much strangers. Siwon and Kyuhyun were nice. Kangin was a total gentlemen. Henry didn't like me that much. Whatever. And Leeteuk was the most caring, along with Ryeowook. Those two have become my best buddies in the last month. People have been calling us the three amigos. "I've been doing fine. I definitely felt sick for a while.. But I've been feeling better" I reassured him. "What kind of sick were you? Head cold? Food poisoning? Oh I hate food poisoning" Leeteuk cringed. "Nah, it was nothing like that.. It was more of a... brain sickness.. That's the only way I can describe it" I tried to tell him. I didn't want to go too into detail. But the reality was. I wasn't actually sick. I'm hearing things. Voices mostly. I've been feeling suicidal again. I feel like the only way to see them is kill myself, and I miss my parents.. A lot. "Brain sickness?" Leeteuk asked. "I've never heard that before..". 

Should I really tell him? I mean, I trust him. I really do. But I feel like if I tell him, It'll make a scene and I'll be put into psychiatric care once again. And that's the last thing I want. But, why do I feel like that's the thing I need to be normal again. "Okay.... I have something to tell you. And I don't want you to tell anyone else unless I say it's okay" I said into the phone. There's no turning back now..

"Okay. Cross my heart I won't tell anyone.." Leeteuk said sincerely. "I've been.. hearing voices" I confessed. And with that, I had sealed my fate. "I've been hearing voices, Leeteuk, telling me to do bad things.. And It's really scaring me. I'm scared to leave my dorm. As if something bad is going to happen. That's why I haven't been to work for a couple days" I explained. The other end of the line was silent. "Hello? Are you still there?" I asked. Leeteuk hung up the phone. I felt a sudden anger build up inside me and I slammed the phone down. Great, I scared him off. "Why I can't do anything right??" I screamed aloud.

Ten minutes went by and I heard a knock at my door. "Well It's not Onew or SHINee, they're in Japan for the next couple days. It's probably not Amber, she's busy with her f(x) comeback. That only leaves...

I opened the door. I couldn't see anyone because the first thing I felt was two arms swing around my neck in a hug. "Uhhh" I blurted. Then I knew.. It was my two amigos, Ryeowook and Leeteuk. I felt myself smile. "I'm so happy I didn't scare you off" I smiled at Leeteuk, while Ryeowook was still hugging me. "You're okay now, right?" he asked. "Yeah, now that I have my amigos here with me" I smiled wider. I'm so happy they came.  

After I waited for five minutes for Ryeowook to stop hugging me, we made it to the couch and they started asking me questions

"What do the voices say? Sincerely?" Ryeowook asked with his eyes wide open. Leeteuk listened quietly, as if he was making notes in his mind. "I don't really... Remember. They say things that are bad.. Really bad sometimes. I don't want to hear them. So when it happens, I try to block out the memory.. Like when you have a dream. You remember it for a couple seconds and then it fades away..." I explained as best as I could. They just watched me as I spoke. I talked on and on and on, and they just listened. I was happy they were there so I could talk to someone about it. "Sometimes.. I can hear my mom and dad" I added

"What's makes it so weird that you can hear your parents?" Ryeowook asked. Oh, they don't know that my parents are dead. And with that, I told them the story. At times I wanted to cry, but I held it in. And at the end, Leeteuk and Ryeowook were both balling. What babies. I didn't think they story is that sad.. It's either they're cry babies, or I'm just emotionless. 

After we talked for a while, played board games, watched movies, Leeteuk got to meet Pepper, watched the sun rise. I felt bad for keeping them up all night, but I just didn't want to let them leave. Amber moved out, my boyfriend is out of the country again. I'm so tired of being alone, and talking to myself. 

Onew POV:

We're leaving Japan tomorrow. It's about time. I hate going on trips and feeling homesick, It's the worst feeling. I miss my dongsaengs, I miss my girlfriend, I miss my hyungs. While me and Key were riding a bus with our hats and sunglasses and masks. I got a phone call from Korea. It was Ryeowook hyung. "Hmm, he never calls me.. Weird" I thought. I pressed talk "Hey hyung.. Whacha been up to?" I asked him. "Hey I have something to tell you.. It's important that you know. I'm scared Rachel will be too afraid to tell you so me and Leeteuk have decided to do it ourselves" he explained. My heart started to beat faster. "What's wrong?? Is she okay?" I asked. Oh god, Is she hurt? Is she missing? "That's just it.. She's not okay.." he said sounding concerned. "she told us that she's been hearing voices. And that they've been telling her to do bad things. You've been gone for a while, and we figure if she hasn't told you yet, then she's hiding it from you" he ranted. By this time, Key has his ear next to the phone trying to hear. "We're sorry we had to ruin your trip.. We need to get her some help.. All of us" he sighed. He really sounded genuinely scared for her. I'm so happy Ryeowook and Leeteuk are being good friends to her. "We'll be home soon, in the next 24 hours. We'll figure out what to do.. you, me, and Leeteuk hyung" I said into the phone. "And me!" Key yelled into my ear. "And Key" I sighed into the phone to Ryeowook. "Okay. Just don't worry too much.. We'll take care of her. Promise" he said to me. "I know. I trust you guys. Thanks for being there for her when I wasn't" I smiled. 

When we got home. The first place I went was Rachel's dorm. I have to see her fast.. I knocked on the door furiously. "Rachel.. It's me.. I'm back" I said into the door. When she opened it, she looked tired. "Are you not getting sleep?" I asked her. I felt like crying. "No, not really" she sighed. I knew the reason why she's like this.. "I know why you've changed so dramatically.." I said. She tilted her head in confusion. She's so cute. I couldn't help but hug her. "It's because... You're always alone isn't it? You have no one to talk to. You hate the thought of being alone. Nobody to talk to. So you talk to yourself.." I told her. She knew it was true. She only nodded sadly. That night, I spent the night and talked to her with all the time I had. 

Minho POV:

So there's something wrong with Rachel? I hope it's not too serious. Onew said it's the fact that she's alone with no one there and it takes a toll on her mental health. I'm not supposed to worry, but I can't help it.. 

"Yeobo. Will Rachel be okay?" Taemin asked me while he laid next to me on my bed. "She'll be fine. We're gunna figure this out.." I reassured him. "Okay" he said sounding like he was on the brink of tears. "Hey, hey. Don't cry.. She really will be okay. It's not a serious matter" I cooed. "I'm crying because.. I'm sorry I haven't been paying attention to you as often. I feel horrible for ignoring you" Taemin sobbed. It was true that we were growing apart, but I still loved him just the same.. 

"Taeminnie. I'm okay with it. I still love you, you know" I tried to shush his cries. "Sure we have a lot of work to do, but that won't change the way I feel about you.. Never"

Taemin took in a deep breath of relief. 

"Since we have this time now, I think we should do something that we haven't in a really long time" I said smiling, thinking of what I wanted to do.

"What's that?" he asked innocently. "Oh Lee Taemin, you know exactly what I mean" I whispered. I couldn't wait anymore. I got up and looked down at Taemin's perfect face. "I love you so much" I couldn't help but blurt out. "I love you too" he said back to me. Then, our lips crashed and I could feel the sparks fly. I missed this... A lot. I gently bit down on his lower lip.. So soft, and he grazed my lips with his tongue. When we broke apart, I started kissing his neck. At this, he started to moan quietly. I could tell he was trying to be quiet so the other members couldn't hear us, since it was disturbing. They knew about relationship of course, but they don't like it when we make noises. So I kept quiet too, but it was hard. I felt so hot. Taemin put his small, petite hands in my shirt and touched my chest. His hands were cold and contact with my hot body made my skin crawl, like a shock was sent up and through me. I loved it. Oh, the things he does to me. 

Amber POV

"Are you feeling better? Doesn't the wind feel nice?" I asked Rachel while we sat by the pier out into the sea. The wind did feel very nice.

SHINee, Rachel, me, and Leeteuk and Ryeowook asked f(x), the rest of Super Junior and SNSD to join us in hanging out outside by the sea for the day to "clear our minds". What we really wanted to do was give Rachel a chance to socialize with everyone so she didn't feel so alone, but we didn't tell anyone else that. It seemed to be working out fine, so I was pleased. 

"It really does.. Thanks for doing this.. I really needed it" she looked over at me and smiled.

Rachel POV

After a while of sitting with Amber by the pier, the group made it up to a mountain for a better view of the water. The wind was so much more strong since we were at a high altitude. f(x) made it down the mountain quite a bit, same with a few SNSD members and a few Super Junior members. Which left me, SHINee, a few SNSD members and a few Super Junior members on top of the mountain. I was sitting at the edge of the mountain when I heard a voice. "Rachel?" the voice said. and then I recognized the voice.. "Mom?". The voices.. They're back.

Key POV

I was standing next to Taemin and Jonghyun enjoying the breeze. Jonghyun and Taemin were cracking their best 'yo mama' jokes when I looked over and saw Onew, who was slowly approaching Rachel, who was sitting right at the edge of the cliff, lost in thought. I couldn't help but get in on what was happening. 

"What's going on, hyung?" I asked Onew hyung while he stared at Rachel. "She's talking to herself. I'm trying to listen, but she's speaking english and I can't understand well.. Key, you know way better english than me. Listen to what she says and recite it back to me.." he commanded. "Okay.." I said feeling sort of uncomfortable. I don't want to hear something that I don't want to hear but.. It's what needs to be done. I slowly.. Ever so slowly made my way closer to Rachel. She was sitting close to the edge, dangerously close. 

"Mom? Dad?" I heard her say.. She thinks she's talking to her parents. I got closer and closer until I was right by her side. "I'm doing fine" she said. I looked back to see Onew standing watching only a couple yards away from me. I could see that I got everyone's attention. Jonghyun's, Taemin's, Minho's, Sunny's, Hyoyeon's, Taeyeon's, Leeteuk's, Ryeowook's, Shindong's, Kyuhyun's, everyone. Jonghyun, Leeteuk, and Ryeowook started to approach, but I gestured them to stop, and they did. I looked back over at Rachel. 

"Why did you have to go?"

"Mom, you know I want to see you"

"I forgive you"

"I love you guys."

She sounded like she's was going to cry.. I couldn't help but tear up as well

"You don't know how much.. I would love to jump off this cliff"

"WHAT??" I screamed in my head. NO! YOU CAN'T DO THAT!! THINK OF WHO YOU'LL LEAVE BEHIND!!

"I have so many people here" she said to herself.

She shook her head.. 

"I can do it. I want to do it.." 

NO!! DON'T PLEASE!!

"I don't care if you don't want me to, mom. I'll do anything to see you. Anything" 

I had a feeling her parents didn't want her to jump.

"Should I?" she said looking up at the clouds with her back turned to me, the breeze blowing the white hair out of her face.

She stood up quietly. 

I looked back again, Kyuhyun, Shindong, Sunny, Taeyeon, Taemin, and Minho tried not to pay attention and started to walk off the mountain and back down to the ground slowly. Everyone else, Me, Onew, Jonghyun, Ryeowook, Hyoyeon, and Leeteuk still watched closely. And obviously, someone told Amber what was happening and she rushed up to the mountain. Amber started speed walking towards Rachel, but Jonghyun held her back. I looked back Rachel. 

She took another big step closer to the edge. I didn't know what to do. More importantly, I didn't know what she was going to do. 

Then.. She took another step closer and she had was at the very edge. One more step and she would be gone. 

I could see her body sway back and forth, as if she was making up her mind. 

Then she made up her mind and started leaning off the edge. She was going to jump. 

I couldn't let her do it.. "NOOOOOO!!!" I heard Leetuek and Onew scream behind me. Luckily, I was able to catch her in time before she could fall off. I yanked her off the edge and she fell into my arms. I instantly craddled her in my arms. Her face was pale and her body went limp in my arms. She looked totally lifeless. 

Everyone ran up to us. Leeteuk, and Ryeowook, and Onew were sobbing while tears just started to develop in Jonghyun's eyes. Hyoyeon ran over to hold Rachel's hand while Amber held the other. Knowing Rachel, she hated attracting too much attention. But I don't think she knew what was going on. Her eyes were wide open, but she wouldn't look at anyone and she wouldn't speak. I gestured Onew over so he could hold her. I let her go gently and sat Onew down where I was sitting. Onew craddled her and cried profusely. "I'm sorry.. I'm sorry I'm so sorry" I could hear Onew mumble in Rachel's ear while he sobbed. 

Leeteuk and Ryeowook were on their knees crying. I bet they didn't know what to expect when they befriended Rachel. "Is she okay??" I heard Taemin scream while running up to the crowd. He gasped when he saw Rachel's state. Taemin dropped to his knees and sobbed

I started to cry as well. I must say.. Rachel is a special one. Even though she's happy, and friendly, and fun to be around, she gets these moments like today where she scares the crap out of us and that's when she comes in handy. She makes us feel the true meaning of pain, and fear, and sorrow. While at the same time, she gives us hope. Since she's been through so much, she can still smile and have a fun time and be a true friend. Truthfully, if she hadn't moved to Korea and become our friends, we would never have experiences with these emotions and we would've never felt them. And that's what a true friend does

"We have to get her help.. There's no denying it. She's... Not okay" Onew cried as he looked up at all the people surrounding us.

Sorry for such a weird chapter XD I wanted to add Leeteuk in too. I love him and Ryeowook. They're my ultimate favorites in SUJU. If you wanna read something more.. Amusing.. Read "Taemin's Family Reunion" It's supposed to be a comedy. http://www.asianfanfics.com/story/view/496439/taemin-s-family-reunion-comedy-shinee-taemin