You know those dreams where your deepest regrets come to haunt you?

Somehow I was sitting next to her, like I used to two years ago.

My mind couldn't seem to remember the cracks between us.

She was under the same spell,

And we were there discussing and smiling like nothing had happened

Two years ago

And then she turned to my right and spoke to him

He was the latest guy to show interest and scare my poor heart

But right now, in that moment, he was another friend that I treasured

And we sat there, laughing and enjoying each other's company

But too soon the light faded and I found myself staring at the familiar ceiling of my room

What had transpired in my haven of thoughts?

...my first friend after I moved...

...another guy who I treated unkindly...

How I wanted to smile and cry

Those fragments of the people I used to care about

Speared me in the heart with their presence now

And leave these scars to only dream when they were once whole