No, you DO NOT understand

I WILL NEVER get the pure satisfaction I have been striving all my life

There is NEVER a compliment without a taste of

"Well we thought you didn't good enough"

Or perhaps a pinch of

"What about that Indian kid? I heard you scored lower than him/her."

How about,

"I don't care, I'm just so proud of what you have accomplished?"

NEVER.

Although this glory tastes sweeter than disappointment and tainted sympathy,

"What teacher does the first chair have? Perhaps you would be better with him..."

"I bought you three prep books! People said it gave them at least hundred points more..."

"Well maybe next time. Perhaps the judges weren't feeling that great..."

What glory tastes sweet,

When I know somewhere out there,

Friends that I have teamed up with and against,

Are tasting the same tainted consolation that I have lived all my life?

Even though I know I will never see the day with a full accepting heart, believing eyes, and truthful ears,

I dream of that day

Where all I hear is,

"You have done well. Congratulations. You deserve it from all of your hard work."

And nothing more.