"Every time I see her, she has a smile on her face."

A facade.

Like her speech. 

She has seen me break down twice.

She knows that I struggle and even if one day I'm laughing, 

The monster inside will always come and try to find me.

But for that moment

Perhaps I am a glowing bundle of happiness

Before I start again on my journey on my swing

Between exuberance and despair