The Sparks in My Grasp

In the Rain, Stars Align

"Get a room,"

Spills the words

Into my ear

When they used to drip out of my mouth

His ex and our friend now treats me back

How did we switch positions?

Maybe it's because I press his buttons back when he attacks.

 

Hoodie

The thing girls always steal from their boyfriends

I have been tempted

How are they so soft?

It embraces me like hot chocolate on a winter day before the fireplace

Yet the musky odor that once attracted me to it deters me

Maybe because it's a sign I have trespassed

So many times I have looked over the fence

But never have I found the gate.

 

Crushing

An escalator that ends with a cliff

Never have I been given a parachute after I jump

But then again I have let go of balloons

Was too afraid of the fiery atmosphere

But now I wonder if I do hold on the strings tightly

Could I reach the stars?

 

Dreams

Some I have proclaimed louder than others

The destinies I have always seen

But could I have the courage

To chase after one flame

Even though it's bound to go out?

 

Together

We have always been around the mutual guyfriends

Friends, almost the same humor

We're almost mirrors in ambition and success

Yet in this game for just two

Am I alone?

 

[A/N] I suppose I need to explain :3

There's this senior that I've gotten close to over the last year. Right around the time I thought I started to like him, he started dating a friend that everyone thought was perfect. Like they were always fighting and hanging around each other-do I need to go on? It was honestly really cute and another guy asked me to prom. Really messy story about that...

But now we have same the math class and another friend and I are always messing with him XD But last week I was messing with him after school and that friend who's also ex said "Get a room"

...what

I don't even like him that way.

Although I can see why people think that. Like I'm always rubbing his sweatshirt because it's SO SOFT and once I wore it just to see what it was like. He was kinda peeved when I took it ahaha :3 Also I'm tired a lot so sometimes I fall on him because he's the nearest shoulder that I'm comfortable on sleeping on. But usually he pushes me off like everyone else I try to use as a pillow and then proceeds to use me as an armrest -.-

But we discuss things that would totally would label us as a non-couple. Like we discussed stuff about my prom date, (he was so confused when I brought up the old phrase that I was my prom date's sister's sister. Too long to explain? Yeah, because it spanned over 3 years) what college he was applying to, who was being stupid in math competition (it's what I get for being a genius XD), etc.

Also there's another guy that I hang out with. And it's funny, because the friend I have math class with actually introduced to him. We're kinda the 3 musketeers in our grade for math related things. So I kinda want to know how she feels about either guy friend we share...

Honestly as a boyfriend he wouldn't be right because his relationships NEVER LAST. Who wants that?

...then again, I probably would want that because I can only afforded to be distracted for a while. -sigh-

I've been mulling over this year on if it was possibel for me to like a guy that I didn't have a crush on first before he asked me out. Herm.

I guess I'll find that out when it happens :3

See ya guys I need to study OTL

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Wushupandabear #1
Chapter 11: Yeah, since no one is watching....
miyako1747 #2
I don't know if you can still remember me but I just want to say that I have recovered from my depression and reading your poems and stories help a lot. Thank you!
icy_summer
#3
Chapter 68: I love this.
ohmygoshwhy
#4
Chapter 68: Wow, that was really nice. Well done Xia!
missterious
#5
Chapter 49: i love this one. i have a 'twin' too (but she lives in my town, so...kinda different than your almost-twin)
BunniesOnTheMoon
#6
Chapter 5: You have a powerful way with words! Loving everything so far
miyako1747 #7
Chapter 44: WE LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU! <3333333
michinki
#8
Chapter 39: I've loved reading it since the first chapter ♥♥♥♥ and I always can relate to so many things!
ohmygoshwhy
#9
Chapter 32: GURRRLLLL. PSH. YOU DIDN'T TELL ME HE WAS AN 8 GIRLS KINDA PLAYA. I was thinking lil' lover boi here was the 4-5 girls kind of a playa. DODGE THE BULLET. GURL. DODGE IT. (Unless you really like him....)
LokiCraze123
#10
Chapter 30: That girl is smart :) I mean, it's hard to trust a guy after what they do to another girl. You just feel that insecurity, wondering whether he'll repeat the same cycle with you.