Turtoring Past
My MiracleMari was surprise with the sudden topic Jonghyun had brought up.
‘Is he ... Jungshin?
‘What with a sudden question?’
‘Is he Jungshin?’ Jonghyun insisted.
‘There no point of whoever I’m in love with. I told you that day, I’ll be the old Mari and enough for me only to have you in my side,’
‘Is he Jungshin?’ Jonghyun didn’t give up.
Mari stares at her Pet. She knows he will never give up until he gets what he wanted. Mari threw her hands in surrender before finally answer the question.
‘What if my answer is yes?’
‘And this is stupid,’ Mari raised her eyebrows, ‘did Jungshin tell you he is seeing someone?’
Jungshin was never told her anything about his girlfriend, never.
‘No, he asked me, what if my crush already has somebody in his mind,’ Mari shook her head.
That’s the truth.
Jonghyun’s eyes widened.
‘What the hell ...’
‘Its meant nothing, I move on and all the things turn as it supposed to be, whether I love Jungshin or not that’s no matter right now.’
‘He’s seeing nobody Noona!’ Jonghyun raised his voice.
‘So?’
‘So it’s stupid! You guys may have misunderstanding —‘
‘I told you its nothing! He has or not it has nothing to do with me.’
‘Noona, you know I can’t be here for you forever,’ Jonghyun’s voice softened.
‘Then let go of me, you don’t have to be like this to me,’
‘Noona,’
‘You did nothing wrong to me Jonghyun-ah, don’t burden yourself with me, you have your own life. Don’t ruin your life because of me. It’s not worth.’
‘Are you angry at me?’ Jonghyun asked with small voice.
Mari look at his brother next to her, he looked frustrated and scare at the same time.
‘Why should I angry with you?’
‘‘Cause I broke my promise, ‘cause I’m seeing Jinyi right now. I can break up ...’
‘Are you crazy?! What are you thinking —’
‘Then don’t be like this! He’s there! Jungshin is there, but why didn’t you go and tell him the truth?’
‘I told you it’s over! Don’t you hear me! Just please, leave me alone, it’s my life, you don’t need —’
‘And your life is given by me!’ yelled Jonghyun frustrated, why does Mari so stubborn?
Everything seems stop at the moment Jonghyun yelled. There only his voice inside the room, it echoed in the spacious living room. No one speaks, no one moves both of Jonghyun and Mari stood frozen where they were.
‘Right,’ after a moment finally Mari broke the silence among them. ‘My life is given by you —’
‘Noona, I—’
Mari held up her right hand to silence the guy stood next to her.
‘— I’ll give it back to you, so, you’re free, you don’t owe me anything. In fact, I was the one who owe you very much.’
With those words, Mari left the living room, leaving Jonghyun who still trying to compose what Mari had said. And once he regain his sense, Mari was already locked herself in her room.
‘Noona! Noona I’m sorry, I didn’t mean it! Sorry ...’ Jonghyun pouched Mari’s room door endlessly.
But there no answer, how could Mari answer it when she was already surrendering into her tears. Only this time she realizes, she can’t hide on Jonghyun’s back anymore. Jonghyun has his own life and surely doesn’t need her intruding. She can’t ruin her brother’s life, not with his happy life with his new girlfriend.
‘Noona, please open the door,’ Jonghyun keep begging in his desperate voice. ‘I’m sorry, I really am sorry.’
Jonghyun kept begging and Mari was crying in her bed, that night no one of them had slept. Mari with her own sudden decision and Jonghyun with his regret had said such a word to his Noona. Jonghyun would really love to stay in his couch and waiting for his Noona wake up if only he hasn’t have schedule today.
Yes, he has meeting with other Kpopstarhunt 3 team, yeah, he is one of the judge and tutor as well. And this morning the judges have meeting which he doesn’t will to come. If it’s possible, he wanted to skip it, all he wanted right now is talk to his Noona badly, say that he’s sorry, that he never mean with what he had said. But it’s unlikely. His meeting need to be attend and Mari seems doesn’t want to come out from her room anytime soon. Reluctantly, Jonghyun got up from the couch and preparing breakfast for Mari.
‘Noona, I prepare breakfast for you already, eat them before you go to office. Noona ...’ he bits his lip before continue pleading. ‘Noona, I really, really am sorry. I never meant with everything I had said last night. You have to know that I love you my sister, you’re everything to me. It seems that you’re still angry at me, when you feeling up to, I’ll come again, you can do whatever you want to me but please let me talk to you. I have to go now; I’ll see you in the office,’
Once Mari heard footstep that stepping away and the sound of door being open and closed, she cried harder. She is alone right now, alone in reality and alone in her heart.
***
Jonghyun sighed in relieve when finally the 3 hours meeting had done. It was past lunch when Jonghyun arrive in Mari’s office but there was only quite room that he found. Mari’s desk was clean, something unpleasant filling up his mind.
‘Oh Chief said today she’s feeling unwell so she’s absent,’ Jenna, Mari’s Vice, explained when Jonghyun asked Mari’s whereabouts.
‘Thank you Jenna,’
***
Another silence welcoming Jonghyun once the man opens Mari’s apartment door. That spacious flat is quite, very indeed.
Once again Jonghyun heaved a deep sigh as he threw himself on the couch. Mari should be outside to find fresh air after what had happen last night. Last night, Jonghyun couldn’t help but cursing himself for being culprit. In fact he didn’t know how their talk became fight and end up that way.
He lazily glances to the paper bag on the table, the lunch he bought for his Noona but alas, she’s nowhere to be found. Reluctantly he stood up and headed to the dining room to keep the food on the fridge. His body stiffen when he sees light blue envelope lying on the table, right on the place where he placed breakfast earlier in the morning.
Jonghyun drives his car panicky, where she’s going? Where is she?
‘Where is she? Where is Mari?’
Jenna looks puzzled when Jonghyun bombard her with questions once she let him in to her office.
‘I don’t know —’
‘Stop lying! Tell me where is she?!’
Jenna was about to burst in anger but she tried held it back by seeing the dark face the young man stood next to her. It was desperation, fear, and frustration.
‘Jonghyun ssi,’ her voice softened and Jonghyun rummaged his hair and threw himself on the sofa, wrapping his face with his both palms. ‘Is something going on with Chief? Earlier today she called me that she’s feeling unwell and I told her to rest, that’s all. She, maybe, going out for some fresh air,’
Jonghyun didn’t response and both of them fall silence.
‘No,’ finally he said weakly as he shook his head and Jenna looked up to him in confusion, ‘she’s run away,’
‘What did you mean?’
‘Tell me if you heard anything about her, particularly about her work here, please,’
Jenna hardly knowing how to say or do as Jonghyun, once again pleading with sincerity and she couldn’t help but let herself mentally asked what’s going on between her Chief and the idol. She has never seen Jonghyun in very panic state like he is today. And about the couple, as Mari’s friend, all she knows is both of them are close friend, and it was often that both of them saying they are foster brother and sister. But prove about that? She doesn’t know and never ask it either.
Jenna met Mari three years ago when she desperately wanted Yonghwa’s autograph and Mari was the one who helped her. Both of them became friend since then and when Mari deciding to stay and took the chance as The FNC Magazine Editor in Chief, Mari took Jenna under her wings for some reasons, Jenna is very good in Korean and Japanese (no surprise since Jenna is BOICE in the first place), Jenna could be her very perfect bridge when Mari has to work with Korean team and also Jenna is journalist.
Jenna heaved deep sigh for she just find out there something happen — that probably more than close friend — between her best friend and one of her favourite idol.
***
Jonghyun is screw up, he is definitely screwed up! What you have done Lee Jonghyun? He took out the blue envelope which his Noona’s latter being kept. He starred at the very familiar handwriting on his hand.
Dear my Pet,
I don’t know where I have to start ‘cause I have so many things to say sorry.
Sorry that you’ve stuck with my life, I’m very sorry for that. Don’t blaming yourself, I’ll be fine and I hope you’ll have a happy life. You deserve it.
I love to see your smile, and that smile already encourages me for so long. Please stay like Jonghyun that I ever know, the ordinary Jonghyun who loves nagging and being cared than caring.
I love you,
Your worthless sister,
Mari.
Tears trailed down into his cheeks but he just let it flow. What was the point to wiping it up? The things would never fix back no matter he cried or hold it back. Slowly, he put it back the latter into it’s envelop and sinking low on the couch.
***
‘Is Jonghyunie still gloomy?’ Shinhye asked to Minhyuk who busying himself reading the script.
The latter was just nod as reply.
‘Eonnie just texted me yesterday, said sorry ‘cause she cancelling our plan,’
Minhyuk raised his head in surprise,
‘Mari was texting you?’ Shinhye nodded, ‘but she didn’t say where she is or what is her plan?’
‘I was busy filming, we talk in hurry. I don’t even know that she’s fight with Jonghyunie or something,’ Shinhye shook her head while explaining.
Minhyuk heaved a deep sigh.
‘Jonghyunie Hyung will be crazy if Mari didn’t com back,’
‘I thought, Jonghyunie Oppa is seeing Jinyi Eonnie,’ Kristal appeared suddenly and handed over juice can to Minhyuk and Shinhye.
‘So?’ Minhyuk asked, appearantly confuse with what his girlfriend saying.
‘So, why is he scared to death with Mari Eonnie disappearance?’
‘Because they’re close, they're that close,’ Minhyuk replied.
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