Zephyr120

Hey, welcome back. I'm glad that you are back. I'm also sorry for disturbing again. It will be in 2 parts. Sorry about that.

Hey! Glad to be back :D 

And don't worry you're not disturbing! I can handle two parts lol

~Lizard

So, regarding the girl that I likes for 2 years and I said to hyungs that I was going to confess at the end of the year of 2013, which was two years ago. I...... didn't confess to her because she told me that she is not ready for any relationship and she doesn't want to get hurt. So I continue to like her for another two years and this year October, I caught a serious cold which caused me being in bed for a week. I ask my other friend to take care of her for the whole week because I was sick, like those that nearly got me to being admit into the hospital those kind of cold. She was busy with her activities and assignments too, and when I am well, I realize a guy get awfully close with her and to be honest, I had a bad feeling about that guy since long long time ago. She broke her promise that she was going to watch Mocking Jay Part with me because she want to spend time with him and the rest of the friends. We had a huge fight and she said something hurtful to me, which she said " Who are you to care about me? I just want to watch a movie with my friends, is that hard? Whatever I do, whoever I'm with is none of your business." Which hurt me a lot. By the way, we fought the whole time when the guy get close to her and finally, she told me that she accept that guy. I was surprise and hurt but I still smiles and wish her happy. After that, we fought a lot more, like once in two days. I knew from other friend that guy was just playing with her, telling everyone that the girl I like is an easy target. I was angry but I can't do anything. After that, I found out that the guy was dating the girl I like because he wanted me to be miserable, apparently he hate me because the girl that he like apparently like me.

The girl that I like fought with me and after that I just distance myself from her. My other friends introduce a girl to me, studying the same course as mine and we get really close. We often joke about being each other partner. During the time I get close with the new girl (let's name her W), the girl that I like broke up with the guy and you know what, she is back with me. But most of the time, I am spending with W, and the girl I like ( lets name her L),seems to be awfully jealous of W. I know I had to move on and I think I start to like W because W is a good girl, and she is considerate and sweet but somewhere in my heart, I still want L to be back with me. I thought I had move on but when I see L, my heart still skip a beat but most of the time, I found ease with I'm with W. Hyung, what should I do? Am I a jerk? I just don't know anymore.

Kyuhyun: You should consider making a Korean drama of this. 

Ryeowook: I would watch it! 

Heechul: Same here. This seems so dramatic. 

Shindong: So, you don't know who to be with? 

Sungmin: We can't really choose for you, in the end it has to be your decision. 

Kyuhyun: Honestly, this L girl seems a little like bad news. You have never confessed to her, yet she seems to be aware of your feelings since you make it obvious you like her and want to protect her. And still she chooses to be with someone else only to come back to you when she needs it. She might be just using you. I would say confess to her, ask her out and if she says no, cut her out of your life because you don't need her in your life if she is only there to use you for her own needs. 

Yesung: I also agree with that. And maybe you could try a date with W and see how that goes. You don't have to be with her right away, but dating is a nice way to see if you are compatible. 

Leeteuk: Good luck!