rachael-elf-2010

Hi again. I know I asked a question before, and thanks so much for your answer.
I mentioned before how my school wasn't exactly my cup of tea. But my parents are letting me switch schools! *fist pumps in joy*
Anyway...I already know it's going to be a big change because the school I go to now is really small, and the school I'm switching to is pretty big...and the environment is going to be a lot different. I'm also shy, and sometimes I have a hard time making friends. Any advice?
And for awhile (it started about a year ago)I've had periods of feeling sad and stuff. At points I felt really down and thought about what it'd be like to be dead...luckily I never actually planned to try to end my life. And the thing is, I have no real reason to be sad...well, I get stressed out a lot, but my life is decent otherwise...and I don't know if I'm just growing up or if there's something actually wrong...And sometimes I can't tell if I'm feeling happy again or if I've just learned how to live with the sadness. I want to talk to someone, but I'm afraid to, and I have a hard time even explaining what's going on in my head, because even I don't understand it.
I'm sorry if this is all really confusing. :/ So...maybe it's all in my head and I'm okay...but I don't know. I'd just like your honest opinion...thanks...
and ps... HanChul forever!!!!!!!!!!!

Heechul: Ah, I see I found another Hanchul lover. Don't worry just for saying that me and my wonderful Ricecake will help you.

Hangeng: Of course.

Heechul: It's great you're excited about your new school. It's good to keep that mentality. And just know that it is never to late to make friends. It can be the last day of school and you finally decide to say hi to your desk neighbor. It doesn't matter. Most friends are made with a simple hello and a compliment.

Hangeng: Just say hello and I like your...shoes, shirt, backpack, hair etc.

Heechul: And after that you can ask other questions. And with each day your friendship grows and grows. Just keep at it.

Hangeng: Joking around is also good to make friends.

Heechul: Yup! Now about your sadness. Technically there are symptoms of depression and I don't think you fit them. It also depends what age you are? Are you a young teenager? Because if you are then your random sad moments might be hormones. Trust me I went through it. It was a confusing and angry time.

Hangeng: They will calm down eventually in the meantime find things that make you happy. Drink some tea. Read a book. Take a nap. Exercise. Whatever you want.

Heechul: And if you feel like crying, cry! Curl up in a ball and cry your heart out. Who cares is you don't have a reason. Who needs a reason to cry. You have the right to feel sad if you want to.

Hangeng: If these feelings get worse though and you start feelings thoughts of suicide more and more and even try and commit some please get help.

Heechul: Good luck beautiful! :)