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Hey^^ I'm sorry if I'm about to bother you too much with my problems but really this is the only way I can talk to someone without getting hate from people... So... I have a few problems and some of them are quite long so I'm going to split them up... Again... Sorry if it bothers you too much...

Kibum: It doesn't bother me.

Kyuhyun: It bothers me.

Everyone: <.<

Kyuhyun: Just kidding! Go ahead.

1. So... before I went to high school I had 2 best friends... we told each other everything and we were majorly close. We all ended up going to different highschools and we completely lost touch. almost 3 years later I found out that both of them had changed completely, and its in such a bad way that I worry for them so much. My first friend has gone around sleeping with heaps of guys and having a new bf each week. (We are all 15 by the way... And I'm months older than her.) I just found out that she actually is sticking with a new bf but she has started self harming just because he does and wants to be like him. It doesnt stop her from sleeping with random people as well.
My second friend has fallen into major depression and has attempted suicide twice because of some bullies at school. She refused to go to school and now has a home tutor but that doesnt stop her from overdosing.
I don't know what to do about them because we havent contacted eachother in about 3 years and I'm scared they will think of me and treat me like everyone else does... But thats part of another problem so...

Donghae: If you really care for your friends you should get them help. I'm sure they would do the same.

Heechul: It doesn't matter what they think. It matters what you think and what you do about your friends. Even if a member in Suju hated me if they ever were in a problem, I would help them because that's what being a good person is all about.

Leeteuk: Listen to your heart ELF. Do what you think is right.

Theres a limit for the amount of characters in a comment D: And i've only just started with my problems... so... this might take up a couple of comments... Sorry D':

That's okay I'm putting them all in one chapter okay?

~Lizard

So… Here's my problem 2… Yeah… still me...

2. Ever since I came to high school had this best friend and a large group of friends. My best friend (Call her friend A) was the person who showed me Kpop and got me to fall in love with it (especially SuJu :p). I was there for her through everything and I always had her back and she was the person i was closest to, but she never stood up for me and never cared about anything about me unless it was about her or Kpop. Then this new guy came along (Friend B) and I became good friends with him even though everyone thought he was creepy. A didnt like him at all until she found out that he was bi and likes kpop and anime… B eventually became good friends with everyone and I thought everything was king great until B and I planned to go and watch a movie together and I invited A to stay over my house for the night because we wanted to watch something on my TV (which is connected to korean cable F yeah!!) So A ended up coming with us to the movie. Starting that day was when the problem began. they both just ended up forgetting my existence and treated me like I was invisible. They wouldn't talk to me and ignored me every time I tried to talk to them they would ignore me and they would avoid me. This went on for about a week at school aswell when I finally had enough and went to hang out with other friends. That p*ssed them off and they had a go at me telling me that I screwed up their friendship and that i was a lying b*tch because apparently I was the one avoiding them. They decided that I can't be happy and would follow me around proving that they have each other and I had none. (Yeah.. They took all my friends away and made them hate me so now I'm a loner.) Now everyone hates me and I don't know what to do because every time I try to talk they ignore me and spread rumours about me, making more people hate me. So now basically the whole school hates me and I have no friends left -
- Still more to come btw :/ in next comment…

Donghae: What kind of stupid friends are those?!

Eunhyuk: You need to get away from those kinds of people!

Kangin: I'll beat them up for you!

Zhou Mi: I'll beat them with my fancy loafers!

Heechul: Please don't think of yourself as a loner. I'm sure the whole school doesn't hate you. You just need to keep your head up and show your ex-friends that you're fine.

Sungmin: Try and make some new friends. Friends that will actually defend you and treat you kindly.

Donghae: Ignore the haters!

Zhou Mi: Exactly. Anyone who doesn't want to be with you doesn't deserve you.

Siwon: You're a wonderful person. Stay strong!

Everyone: Fighting!~~~

Only 2 more problems to go.. I'm sorry for making you go through this for me… I feel bad… The next ones are shorter btw… I hope…
Problem 3. Im completely alone. Simple as that. I'm an only child. My parents are always working so I never see them often, and the family that lives closest to me is at least 3 hours car drive away. My 3 alive grandparents are all really ill and it is driving my parents nuts. So whenever they're home, which really isn't often, they are either fighting or getting angry at me over nothing. I have no friends to talk to because no one wants to be friends with a fat, ugly, annoying, lonely b*tch like me no matter how nice I try to me or how many people I talk to. I have been diagnosed with depression about 3 times and it is so hard for me to smile or laugh anymore, and none cares because I'm me and I have no one. All I want is to have a friend or someone to actually pretend like they care about me for once, as my family all think of me as a burden and don't like me being part of the family. I wish I had you as my family… You would be much better family and friends than my family…

ONLY ONE MORE COMMENT TO GO PROMISE!!!  

 Heechul: STOP IT!

Everyone:

Heechul: YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO SAY THAT ABOUT YOURSELF!

Leeteuk: Heechul calm down.

Heechul: NO! I CAN'T STAND BY WHILE THIS PERSON SUFFERS!

Hangeng: At least talk in a quieter voice.

Heechul: Fine. Listen to me. You're beautiful. Yes, life might be hard right now but this will pass. You'll get through. Just always look for the bright side.

Kibum: Heechul hyung is right. You need to be more optimist. You will find good friends.

Shindong: And your parents are stressed with your grandparents but it doesn't mean they don't love you. They do. They're just having a hard time too.

Donghae: Stop talking like that. You're and ELF. You need to be strong for all your oppas.

Zhou Mi: Yes, learn to love yourself. It'll take time but you can do it.

Henry: And if your depression is a serious problem you need to tell an adult so you can get help with it.

Leeteuk: Please stay strong.

Cause I think author-nim sees the most recent comments for just telling you-- This is that last out of four comments to do with my issue… I know… So long.. Mianhe…

It's okay. No matter how long or how short. All your problems are important to me. ^^

~Lizard

OMG one problem left… I feel really bad cause I think Im bothering you too much author-nim D: Im sorry… :'(

Nope. You don't bother me at all.

I appreciate your comments.

~Lizard

I can't say or do anything without getting hate. I can't post a single thing on Facebook or twitter without being called a lying, attention-seeking w***e. I can't talk in public without getting hate and because of that I've started to go mute. I won't talk to anyone anymore unless they are complete strangers and there is a slight chance that they might like me… What do I do?! I like talking but if I do or say anything about anything I can get death threats and hate and so much. I want to transfer schools so badly but I can't because I have exams for the next three years and its better if I'm in the same school for all of it so that I can get good grades to get into uni for a teaching course… What do I do?! I have no confidence in my self anymore and I hate myself and everything about me.

Yesung: If the people on those social sites are bothering you you should block them. No point in having people who are going to bother you there.

Sungmin: And there must be a reason for you receiving all this hate. You may need to find out the reason so you can clear your name.

Donghae: You should have confidence. You know what you want to do with your life and you need to be determined to reach it.

Ryeowook: It might be hard but try to open up to strangers and make new friends. Don't let yourself be alone when you have the right to friendship just as everyone else.

Heechul: Also stop with this hating yourself stuff! You're beautiful and amazing in your own way and people just need to see it.

Thank you for even taking time to read this author-nim. I totally understand if you don't want to write a part about this because its so long. :/ But anyways I wanna thank you for being one of the only people who cam make me smile a real smile, and yes, Suju you all make me smile :) How could I not? My bias is Wookie <3 And i really ship YeWook :p Kyu, you're annoying me… you keep trying to take over m bias list but I won't let you!! Wookie forever <3 XD  

Ryeowook: Thank you so much for choosing me as your bias!

Kyuhyun: One day you'll stop resisting me.

Ryeowook: Get out of here! *pushes him away*

Kyuhyun:

Yesung: Thank you for supporting Yewook!

Yewook: We love you! <3

Cries D: I'm sorry my live is so terrible and I had to bother you with all that... forgive me? *Puppy eyes* <3    

Heechul: Of course we do. And you don't bother us. Kyuhyun bothers us.

Kyuhyun:

Donghae: SJ always here for you!

Leeteuk: FIGHTING!!

Everyone: FIGHTING!!!!~