RawrJae

Hello~ I enjoy reading your advice from time to time. :)
Well there's this thing that's been bugging me ever since I was young. I always felt I wasn't good enough not only because of the treatment of my grandmother (who didn't seem to like my brother and I), but also pressure from school and my own family. In my family because I'm the oldest, they expect me to be the perfect one. I remember they said it was okay when I didn't do well, but my father would scold me later on and it showed that he was pretty hypocritical about it in my opinion. Then at school, you have the Asian stereotypes. It seriously pisses me off that some guys at my school expect me to be perfect in everything and even call me "nerd" even though I don't spend my time studying all the time. I actually started taking dance in sophomore year because it's something I wanted to do and now it's one of my favorite hobbies. I mean, even though I'm smart and I have talent, I always feel alone. I'm really shy and it's hard for me to open up to people and I always feel awkward. I sometimes can't even make my own decisions and I just feel pathetic.
I know it's long and it sounds like a rant, but I need some advice and someone to listen to me instead of me listening to them.
My biases are Yesung, Eunhyuk, and Sungmin. I just feel like I can related to them the most.

Eunhyuk: You dance and you're awkward in front of people? :D Let's be best friends!

Yesung: No she's my best friend. We're going to go bug catching!

Sungmin: She's my friend we're going to steal pumpkins and make soup and bread and pie with them!

Eunhyuk: Stop stealign pumpkins Sungmin!

Sungmin: Never! Mwhahaha!

Donghae: It's okay to be shy, but you should practice opening up to people. And talking back. It's good to follow rules but it's also good to be rebellious.

Kibum: Hae's right. The way you act in front of your siblings should be the way you act with your friends. Be comfortable talking to people. If two people are having a conversation join in.

Ryeowook: That works for me. I made a lot of friends in S.M. by butting in.

Kyuhyun: Wookie's a .

Everyone: Kekeke

Ryeowook: ^^;;

Shindong: We should give her conversation starters!

Heechul: Good idea Dongie! Hangeng! Let's show an example.

Hangeng: Okay.

Heechul: Hello.

Hangeng: Hi.

Heechul: You're hot let's $%&*

Kangin: &*%^#@! You cant' just cuss!

Heechul: The &%$# I can!

Donghae: Let's try again...

Yesung: I'll do it! Sungmin come!

Sungmin: Okay.^^

Yesung: Hi, I like your shirt.

Sungmin: Thank you.

Yesung: Where did you get it?

Sungmin: Online.

Yesung: Can I touch your philtrum?

Sungmin:..no. *leaves*

Yesung: Sungmin!! *runs after him* Come on! Just once!

Donghae: I guess I'll do it. Kibum let's do it together!

Kibum: Okay.

Donghae: I like your shoes.

Kibum: Thanks.

Donghae: What grade are you in?

Kibum: Grade B.

Donghae: I'm in Grade B too. You look younger though.

Kibum: Oh.

Donghae: My name's Lee Donghae.

Kibum: Kim Kibum.

Donghae: You have a nice name. I think I have an uncle named Kibum. And then you just keep talking and talking.

Everyone: *clapping*

Leeteuk: Good job!

Kangin: Making friends is about being talkative and open to others. It takes practice, but you can do it!

Leeteuk: And soon you'll be talking as much as my Raccoon ^^~

Kangin: I don't talk a lot! You do!

Kyuhyun: You both talk a lot! Now shut up!

Kangin: You see the way he talks to me?!

Kyuhyun:

Kangteuk: -_-

Heechul: As for being pressured. It happens to all of us. It's good to have pressure sometimes but don't let it overwhelm you. It's okay to make mistakes. You learn from them.

Yesung: Try and be the best you, you can be.

Eunhyuk: And keep dancing! ^^~

Sungmin: And remember to be happy!