LAY'S POV

It's 11 pm and I couldn't sleep. Kris, Chen and Tao were at the living room busying themselves, watching some horror film and Tao would cry every moment the ghost will pop out. I don't get it why he is still watching when he can't handle it really. I walk towards them and sat beside Chen who's munching the popcorn that he just pop in his mouth like 1 minute ago and I think he has no plan to swallow it, they're too concentrated on the movie that I think they forgot that they're eating.

I glanced at them and snatch the bowl of popcorn from Duizhang's hand and he didn't react. I got irritated that they don't acknowledge my presence, so I just shove some more popcorns in my mouth until I coughed, but still they don't react. *the effect of horror film*

I stood up and went to my room and grab my jacket before heading outside the dorm. *I need some fresh air*

I didn't know what I was thinking and I just found myself standing in front of the building where Quiao Hui live. I was staring at it for a couple of minutes and wondering what floor is she staying exactly at. I want to take my first step towards the entrance door and maybe find Quiao Hui's abode and knock on the door.. I just want to see her so badly. I know that this ain't right since I already have someone else. But seeing her again after a long time is really.. really.. I can't explain it.. 

And as our memory run through my mind, I couldn't help but to want her even more. I realized, after all this years... I still couldn't move on.. I still love her..

I want to hug her tight and tell her I don't want to let go anymore. And I wonder if she would tell me the same too.

I was completely out of my daze when a silhouette appeared on my sight. I squinted my eyes to see a girl coming towards my direction with plastic bags in her hands. And that's the time when it hit me, it's Quiao Hui. I stare at her for a while and when she finally reach the entrance door, she stopped and looked at me with wide eyes. I thought for a while if I was just halluscintaing or something, but then she suddenly moved and walk towards the trash bin and put the plastic bags inside it. I watch her every move as she walk her way towards my direction. I didn't blink.

"Yixing?" she asked as she tilted her head. When I heard her voice, I softened.. especially when my name escaped from . And I want to hear it again and again. And maybe after hearing that from her, I think I can go to sleep easily now..

"what are you doing here?" she asked. I want to hug and tell her that I miss her so much that I want to see her everyday, but I control myself and my hands wouldn't budge but find it's way to caressed Quiao Hui's cheek. I can feel the coldness of her cheek and I want to make her feel warm by my embrace.

She tried to call me Lay but I quickly cut her off and told her to call me Yixing. I want to record it so badly. And when she calls out my name again while slightly stuttering, I couldn't help but to feel a tingle in my heart.

I know that my manager would freak out if he find's out that I'm outside alone, but I just want to spend some more hour, minutes or even a second with Quiao Hui.

So I asked her to have some coffee with me and she timidly nod that I find it too cute.

We headed to the nearest shop and was kinda shock to find it crowded in this hour. So after buying our coffee, we headed to the nearest park.
Quiao Hui was just silently blowing her hot coffee. I glance around the park and find that most of the people here were couples. I gulped heavily as I saw a couple kissing. I turn to look at Quiao Hui who is so busy having her moment with the coffee..

The cold breeze passed by and I shivered, I glance at Quiao Hui again but she's just gazing at the stars. And I want to blame the wind, I want it to pass by and make Quiao Hui shiver and I would have a reason to hug her. But my wish wasn't granted.

"Yixing, what exactly are you doing outside roaming around at this late hour?" She asked and I wonder if she's lecturing me or not.. cause I miss lecturing by my ex girlfriend who happens to be her.

"I couldn't sleep. How about you?" I asked as I placed my coffee beside me.

"I was cleaning my house a while ago.." she explained. 

"at this hour?"

"yes.."

"wow. that was.... nice" I said. Not exactly knowing what to reply.

soon, silence filled between us and it's really awkward. I stare at her and when she looked at me, our gaze locked and no one is daring to break it. But then Quiao Hui suddenly looked away and cleared , it's kinda disappointing actually..

"Lay-- I mean Yixing. I think I gotta go" She stood up. I told her that I can walk her back home but she said no and quickly ran away. Is she mad at me? 

I wanted to run after her and ask her if I can see her again tomorrow.. or the next day.. or the next next day.. But something inside me was stopping me from doing so..

YOUR POV

I don't know what has gotten on me that I run away from him when the truth is I really want to spend my time with him even if we're just sitting there doing nothing. But then when our eyes locked, I saw something in his eyes that makes myself guilty and at the same time, happy. 

I saw the love and happiness in it and I know that my eyes were telling the same too. But then I realized.. This is wrong.. This is definitely wrong. He already has a girlfriend and I don't want to ruin their relationship because of me.

I don't want his girlfriend to cry everynight when she misses Lay like I do. 

I don't want to be the reason of a ruined happily ever after. Even if I know myself that being with him is the happiest moment of my life.

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sorry:D haha. see the sentence in Bold? Aye, I was staring at the wall while thinking on what to write next and I laughed as I thought of that line. And while typing it, I couldn't help but to feel a little hurt. muhahahaha:D whatever. don't mind this crazy author.