Chapter 34

Bom’s POV

“Ugh…” I moaned as the rays of light started to burn my eyes.

Another morning has come.

It’s time for me to face everyone again.

To look strong.

To simply look happy.

To laugh again like there’s nothing wrong with me.

I brushed my long beautiful red hair and tied it high.

I looked in the mirror and saw how messy I looked.

Dark circles and puffy eyes are now present.

“Make up will do the trick.” I smiled at my reflection.

“I’m getting good at this~kekekeke” I scoffed to myself.

It’s been 3 months already. How does the time fly so fast yet it felt like years??

I still cry every night. I’m weaker than I thought.

I can’t believe that he never came back to me.

He’s really not mine anymore.

The man who made my life colorful….

The man whom I offered myself to……

The man that I’ll ever love…..

He’s not mine anymore.

I’m not mad at him I’m just hurt as always.

I asked for this. So there’s no need for me to complain.

So here I am trying my best to live my life like nothing happened.

Him??? I guess he’s okay.

I never saw him again after that dreadful night.

Flashback

It’s been a month since I decided to end our relationship.

I haven’t heard anything from Tabi. Maybe he’s busy or he’s just taking some time off.

What about me? Well, here I am lying on the couch and pigging out with my corns.

“Unnie, we’ll be going out. Want to come?” Minji asked me as she picked up my scattered corn cobs.

“I’m fine you go have fun.” I told her as I eyed her outfit.

“Yah! Why are you wearing a short skirt??” I exclaimed at her.

“Chae omma said I can wear this.” she told me as she pouted.

“You can’t wear that it’s too…..” I stood up and arranged her skirt neatly.

“Aigoo~my baby girl is growing up. Look you’re ier than me…” I pouted at her as I hugged her.

“Coz you’re pigging out yourself.” Chaerin jokingly said.

“Chaerinie..” Dara nudged her telling her to stop.

“You sure you won’t come with us?” Chae asked me again.

“Neh, go have fun!” I told them as I pushed them out.

I’m all alone now.

Now my suppressed feelings are coming back.

I hugged my knees and rested my head on it.

All I can do is sigh deeply.

Wishing Tabi would come tonight and take me back.

To win my heart again.

*Le doorbell*

I stood up and headed to the door.

 “Yah! Back already?” I shouted as I opened the door.

Thinking it was them already but I froze as I realize it wasn’t them.

It’s him.

He didn’t say anything he just stood there.

The look on his face is unbearable to me.

I wanted to embrace him… but I can’t do that…

“Let’s talk.” He said to me as he went inside.

“Are you drunk?” I asked as I smelled liquor when he passed through me.

He didn’t respond to my question he just stood there and placed his hands on his waist.

A deep sigh escaped from his mouth.

“Bom we've been together for almost 4 years now…Please hold on to me….We didn't go on public before, why want now? We can keep it like Dong Wook Hyung and Han Byul noona. What difference does it make?” he said with his authoritative tone.

“The difference is I'm not Han Byul unnie and you are not Dong Wook oppa.” I snapped back that made him to face me. I saw disappointment in his face.

“Bom please listen to me…Please…” he said as his forehead crumples.

“I always listen to you Tabi, every lies, every reason, every plead. I hear out the thing that you want me to believe in.” I told him.

“Is that all Bommie? Maybe you just want to break up with me because you found someone else? Have you?” His sudden changed shocked me.

‘Is he now accusing me again?’

He approached me and looked at my eyes intently.

A look that could melt my heart instantly. The look that I’ve been longing too much.

He then cupped my face and crushed his lips to mine.

The kiss wasn’t gentle rather it’s painful.

He’s insisting his lips to mine. Forcing his way inside.

Making it numb as he bit it forcefully.

I pushed him away with all my strength and slapped his face.

Tears now gushing out of my eyes.

“I knew it.” He said as he smirked on me.

“I hope both of you will be happy.” Those were his last words before he left me there crying.

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Hurtful isn’t it?

How I wish I could turn back time and changed things.

I know he won’t be back.

Again, he’s not mine anymore.

“Unnie are you ready?” Chae asked me.

Today is the launching of GD&TOP collaboration.

Yes, this will be the first time I’ll be seeing Tabi after that night.

I tried everything to avoid the chances to meet him.

I restrained myself from seeing him. I want him to see I could live without anyone by my side.

“It’ll be just one performance. Can you do it with him?” Chae asked me as we went to the venue.

“Neh. Ji and I practiced a lot.” I answered as I tugged Minji’s arm.

“But you didn’t practice with him.” Minji butted in.

“It’ll be fine.” I told them and smiled at them.

“You’re getting better with your smile.” Dara commented.

“It’s called being happy.” I responded as I stick out my tongue to her.

‘Liar! Liar! Liar!’

‘Liar! Liar! Liar!’

‘Liar! Liar! Liar!’

‘Liar! Liar! Liar!’

‘Stop it Bom.’

GD & TOP are now onstage with Se7en-ssi.

I’ll see him again.

The man whom I’ll always love even though he left me.

“1 minute and the door will open.” The PD told me.

I held my breath and let out a heavy sigh.

“Hwaiting Park Bom!” I heard a familiar voice cheered on me.

I turn to check who it was but the door opened and everything went fast as I thought.

One moment I was facing him, holding his chin, smiling at him and now we’re on backstage avoiding each other.

“You did great!” I heard from the familiar voice again.

I turn to face him and saw who it was.

“Thanks.” I told him as I approached him.

“Here.” He handed me a bouquet of tulips.

“Aww. Yeppuda. Gomawo dictator.” I told him as I caressed the petals.

“I missed you… You okay? You lost some weight.” He commented as we headed to the waiting room.

“Neh~I’m fine.” I answered still caught up with the flowers.

“I’m glad you like it.” He said.

I didn’t respond I just held the flowers smiling to myself.

Remembering what Tabi gave me when I launched my solo song.

Our song.

It was dozens of bouquet of flowers that surrounded my room even on our pad making the girls giggle and at the same time irritated with all the flowers.

I smiled to myself again.

Thinking how much I missed the old us.

“You want to eat?” he interrupts my alienating.

“Neh~” I mindlessly answered.

He held my hand and guided me towards the door.

We were passing through another waiting room when I heard someone laugh.

With my curiosity I stopped and peaked inside just to see myself hurting again.

It’s Tiffany and TOP talking ~no ~they’re laughing. I can see TOP smiling at her that makes her giggle.

“TOP stop it.” I heard her said.

Tiffany saw me and gave me an ‘I won’ smile and she held Tabi’s hand.

TOP looked at my direction. I thought he’ll approach me and deny everything again.

But,

“Hey, let’s go.” I heard Heechul on my side.

TOP’s eyes went cold and ignored me as he continued talking to her.

Update :))

I hope it's okay :>

No SKYDRAGON for the moment though.

But no worries there will be :))

Black Roses Everyone :D Next Update :)

Your comments are melting my heart :”> ♥♥

Nomu Gomawo yeoreobun :***

@Yuraaa hahahahaha :D Sorry :D Yes he will realize it all >:)

@suhbbe they’re now separated :(((

@Kay37541 Mianhe!~ :p just goofing around :3

Yes you are right! Bom needs to be stronger but still she’s weak. She’s trying her best to be okay though :))) And TOP will be realizing everything he have done and said :3

@BlackjackPride Mianhe~mianhe~ just kidding you guys :D Aww shocks! *blush* THANK YOU :”>

@lic54lyfe I’ll never quit, but if TOP told me I might!~hahahaha :D

They need to reflect…… so yeah….. :[

@angelin I feel you :[

@Rexxirex Mine too. You’re not alone :’(

@ChibiCheonsa He is a big idiot. Pft! But he’ll change. I guess :(

Aww, maybe AFF is having some problems last time and I hope it’s now okay. Let’s just bare with it though. Nothing we can do.

@ra21ah Omo~Omo! :D Yey! I don’t want them to be separated also but they have to. :))) Sorry for the rollercoaster story :3

@Marianations AFF’s might have some tech issues last time. My views were decreasing also, and I was like ‘WHAT THE??’ then I saw some stories having issues also so I was like ‘okay it’s not my problem only.’ Well I think they’re okay now. :))))

He did something stupid again. Pft.